Greetings!
A while back, I went to a spiritual gathering. I had gone there for lectures and attended their service every now and then. However, with my human nature (or personality), I had as yet come out of my shell to truly socialize with others.
I usually left when some people began to leave. On that particular day, I sensed someone/others might want to talk me. For a brief second, I hesitated if I should stay, but decided to leave anyway. As I walked out, I could feel my action had caused some misunderstanding.
In the beginning weeks at the small church in the other state, I was often the first one to leave the chapel when Sunday service was over. It took The Big Moment of Embarrassment to break the ice (formed by myself) that I began to feel more comfortable sitting among my new friends.
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When I was home, I thought of my action that had caused some misunderstanding.
I recalled an incident that happened years ago.
My husband and I went to a gathering. When we entered, I saw some members of a family sat on long sofas. I rushed forward to greet a woman who had treated me with kindness. As we embraced, I saw from the corner of my eyes the frozen smile of a woman that stood next to us. Her hands were still up as if she was ready to give a hug. I realized she had thought I rushed forward to greet her. I greeted her next. She no longer smiled, and acted distant. She probably felt embarrassed and hurt a little. We did not know each other well. In later years, she remained somewhat distant on the occasions we met again. I looked at her with understanding. Some people believed talking to one another could solve any misunderstanding. In my experience, it was not necessary so. In life, there were lessons here and there, and sometimes a situation might not be a lesson for both sides. We could not please everyone or fix everything. However, we could always look at others with discernment and understanding.Life dramas were plentiful. If we were observant and truthful to ourselves, we might find that we easily formed opinions and judgments from our experiences about situations, others as well as ourselves. Sometimes we let negative opinions / judgments take hold and disrupt our peace of mind. As a human being, I had my share of letting what happened disrupt my peace. However, I agreed with my guides that we were responsible for our own wellbeing which included emotional wellbeing. (Re You feel pain because you let pain be and Happy Thoughts produce a Happy You )
After recalling this incident, I decided "I am not just my personality, and will make some adjustments next time I go there."
There was a purpose for the personality we took on for a certain lifetime. Our personality did not represent our whole/true self. In my December 2001 reading by a known angel channel, I was told "to go among people without delay, and don't play small . . ." However, my personality was I just wanted to observe quietly, and did not want to draw any attention. And, I always saw myself as simple. In my 2006 reading, the psychic said, "You come to live as an ordinary person, and in many ways, you want to live an ordinary life as an ordinary person, you don't want others to see you otherwise; but you also have to accept who you are . .., and it has been a challenge for you . . ." (These might not be the exact words. It took too much time to find the journal of that time. Re The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the 2nd reading and other posts on the reading)
Indeed, the human I found it challenging when others particularly strangers suddenly said this or that about me. I often did not know how to respond while he/she walked away which left me feeling unsettled afterward. (For example, She said, "It is a shame that you have retired." ) A few years ago, a lecturer who was clairvoyant and psychic suddenly said on zoom, "Q of D wants to hide her light." I did not turn on the camera. The lecturer always said he could see us even if we turned off the camera. It was embarrassing yet funny. In 2020s, I joined different zoom groups. Thanks to him, I challenged myself to leave the camera on during most zoom meetings. Then one day another psychic and clairvoyant began to talk about me / my light on zoom. The good thing was I did not know much spiritual stuff such as spiritual terms, laws, modalities and etc. I truly enjoyed other people's talks/presentations.
I had many past life dreams as well as dreams in other dimensions. In one of my dreams, I was a young female (late teens). The me in the dream was walking with a few males of her age. She was outgoing and talkative. If I remembered correctly, she wore an amber pendant.
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At some point of writing this post (some days ago), I began to share some of my life stories. Some of my friends saw me as shy, but I did not see myself as shy. I wrote about what I learned from my dreams and readings about myself. I wrote that 'life is infinite, and we are all multi-dimensional beings'. I had planned to use words like 'Life is infinite, and I am not just my personality' as the title of this post. In the morning of July 19/20, I woke up with these words 'I am not just my personality, and we are not just Earthlings.' I found these words to be a better title for my post than what I had planned.
As I continued writing, I realized there was more to share about our multi dimensional selves than I had anticipated. The post would be too long, and I did not know when I could finish it. I decided to skip the part about my life stories and we were all multi-dimensional beings. I thought I would publish a post under 'I am not just my personality' and delete 'we are not just earthlings'. I tried to delete the title twice, but IT DID NOT WORK! I surrendered. As a result, I added 1 to the title. I would be working on 2 after this post.
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Six days after the possible misunderstanding incident, I went to a gathering in another spiritual center. Tables had been set because we would have some food before the main event. 5 to 6 people sat by each table. When I walked in, most tables were filled except one table to the left near the back. One man sat there. I walked to sit by that table. We greeted each other, and talked a little. A man came from another table to join us. Soon three men from other tables came. The six of us had a conversation on food, religion and so on.
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About a week later, I went to the other center again. I stayed behind, and took the initiative to talk to the others. I had not intended to build walls. It was good to Be Observant of Our Pattern/Attitude , and made some adjustments.
Love and Blessings,
Q of D
