Quan Yin, the Bodhisattva of Great Compassion

Greetings!

Today is August 1.  In lunar calendar, it is June 19 - the day commemorating the Enlightenment of Quan Yin, the Bodhisattva of Great Compassion.  I learn online she is widely known as Goddess of Mercy in South Asia.  In the western culture, some channels call her Lady Quan Yin while delivering messages from her.

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As I had mentioned, my family did not talk to us about religion while we were growing up.  When I was young, my sixth uncle gifted my mother a painted ceramic buddha statue that was said to have been blessed.  I found the buddha statue fascinating.  I began to draw pictures of buddha.  I showed them to my mother.  My mother always took the time to really look at them, and said some words of encouragement.  Later, I began to have dreams of three beings floated in; they sat by a small table and chatted joyfully.  The whole place was filled with light.  My dreams of the three beings stopped after someone in the family accidentally broke the statue.  (Re A Display Stand in a Store with Buddhist Books in Chinese )

In the Asian culture, most of us had heard about buddhas and bodhisattvas; we knew Quan Yin was the Great Compassion Bodhisattva.  In July 1984, my sister called saying that our mother had been rushed to the hospital.  I immediately thought of Quan Yin and prayed for her to be with my mother.  My mother died days later.  At the time, I was not into Buddhism.  It was only years later in a phone conversation with my sister that I learned the day our mother moved on was Quan Yin's Enlightenment Day in lunar calendar; others had tried to comfort my sister telling her not to be too sad because it was a blessed day. 

My grandfather (maternal) had named both of his daughters (i.e. my mother and her older sister) with names of flowers.  My aunt's name was common, and the flower was orchid.  My mother's name was a word that many Chinese might not know.  My name had something to do with flower too.  I had always thought it meant a certain kind of flower that I had not seen.  In 2008 to 2011, I read many Buddhist books in Chinese.  (Re post mentioned above)  While reading a book, I was surprised to learn that my mother's name and mine together was an old term/name for lotus.

                                           

In 2009, I went to a small spiritual gathering.   The facilitator automatically assumed I was a Christian.  Later, the group went into meditation.  When it was over, the facilitator asked, "You are a Christian, aren't you?"  She proceeded to say, "But, you are a Buddhist!  I saw Quan Yin descends and stands next to you!"  I said I loved Quan Yin and Buddha the same as I loved Jesus Christ.  (Re Gateway to Heaven )

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In the early hours of Aug. 1 (i.e. June 19 in lunar calendar), I prayed to Quan Yin and thanked her for her presence in my life and for all of humanity; I sent love to my mother, the relatives that had moved on, and sent love to all who had loved and supported me; I sent love to all who might have conflicts with me, and welcome those that were coming into my life.  I had to go somewhere in the morning, and prayed for everything to go smoothly.  And it did.  Thank you.

In the late afternoon, I lit a white candle and talked to Quan Yin affirming my intention to be of service.  

Thank you Quan Yin and all the Enlightened Ones for your love and compassion for humanity.

With Gratitude,

Q of D

      

WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 2

Greetings!

We bought a new modem and router combo.  The internet connection was excellent in the beginning.  Since then, there had been interruptions.  Luckily, most of the interruptions did not last long.  Sometimes I did have to unplug and restart everything.  A while back, the internet connection was lost while I was on zoom, and it took me 25 minutes to rejoin the meeting.  

 

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I got the title 'What is our focus' two days before I finished my post Incredible Coincidence of Releasing Frustration .  

For many months, my friends were into prophecies of catastrophic earth changes.  They read books and invited speakers on this subject.  They eventually began to stock up necessities so that they could help other people when disasters hit.  Reading their emails, I thought my friends had misplaced their focus.  I thought we should focus in the now instead of worrying about what might happen.  Above all, as a spiritual group, I believed we should not spread words that might cause fear.  Therefore, I found the title 'what is our focus' that came through to be relevant.  

As mentioned in WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 1, the situation had resolved by itself when the host read a book on Jesus in which Jesus said to live in the now instead of worrying about the future.  As a result, my friends' focus on what were to come and on stocking up necessities had stopped.

Now that the internet was stable, I wanted to work on part 2 of What Is Our Focus, but soon realized I did not know how to go about writing the post.

Many spiritual teachers / masters had written books, and had given talks on how to live our life.  They had taught about the importance of living in the now.   Nowadays, we could watch videos of their teachings/lectures online in the ease of our home.  In this lifetime, I was a simple, ordinary Chinese woman.  I read stories of other people's spiritual journey, but was not interested in reading about spiritual laws/theories.  What could I write about 'what is our focus'?  Weeks and months went by.  I tried to forego writing 'What is our focus - part 2', but the title stayed with me.    One day it came to me that I could share some of my personal experiences.

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In life, we went through numerous situations.  We had different personalities, did not think alike, and handled situations differently.  We might go through the same/similar situation, but each one of us might come out of the situation with a different view/version of the experience.  No two persons on earth had the exact life story, and everyone's life was unique in one's own way.   

In Life Must Be Experienced , we had a power outage.  Without electricity, I decided to use the time to throw away old mails, newspaper clippings, and old magazines.  At one point, I prayed for power to be restored by 10 p.m.  Then I remembered we should always add "not my will, but Thy will be done."  Right after these words came out of my mouth, the sound of the TV came on.  I turned to look at the TV.  Evening news was on, and the time was 6:26 p.m.  I stood there in awe of what happened.  Many might not feel how I felt when they went through similar incidents;  they thought those incidents simply happened by chance.  There was no right or wrong in how one felt.   As for me, these coincidences often brought me joy and the sense of wonder/magic that helped me see life in a new light.  (e.g. Stories of Birds, Bees, and other signs from the Divine and Recognizing Moments of Wonder/Magic is a blessing to ourselves )

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Many years ago while I was struggling with life challenges, I asked my guides and angels how to live my life.  Below were their words of wisdom - 

"Life is like a sea, its ebb and rise are constant.  It is the mental view of self that sees it differently.  Everything is in perfect order as is.  What we want you to do now is to be more outright in the front.  State how you want your life to be.  You have always planned your life as if you are responsible for everyone.  No, you are only responsible for yourself.  In being responsible for your own well-being, you influence others in a way that is much more than what you can perceive.  Don't spend too much energy wishing how the others will be or to be.  In doing so, you are not allowing others to learn their lessons.  You can ask or pray that they learn their lessons with ease and grace, but not the way you think things would be or should be."

It was true that I had always focused on the well-being of my loved ones.  I was not alone.  In a healing workshop, most of my friends found it easier to give love than to accept love.  We were daughters, sisters, mothers, and aunts in the family structure.  We were used to take care, comfort, and nurture others.  (Re Giving and Receiving Love Must be Balanced )  A sister in an energy healing share gathering in 2007 was a good example.  She had learned many healing modalities.  She worked in a hospital's children department.  At work, she loved and comforted all the children the best she could.  She had no children of her own.  She showered her nieces and nephews with love and gifts.  She took great care of her aging parents.  Her voice was gentle.  As we listened, we could feel her genuine love for others. When I worked on her, powerful and joyful energy came through.  Meanwhile, I kept getting the message "Tell her that she is very, very loved."  (FYI I rarely got any message during healing sessions.)  The message did not make any sense to me.  She was such a loving person; of course, she was very, very loved.  When it was my turn to share what I got, I decided to share the message 'as is'.  She showed no reaction to the message.  Later, we took a break to have lunch.  During that time, the sister told us some more about how she loved and took care of others.  Then she said she never felt she was loved.  She was so focused in giving love, and did not realize she was very loved.  (Please also view Her face was bright with light; she said she saw Jesus )

Writing this post made me realize that I had not paid enough attention to my focus while I went through situations in life.  I would like to share with you the Thou shalt provide experience.  

It happened during the challenging restaurant years.  Our sons attended different universities.  Our family had only one old car.  In other words, our sons did not have a car.  We drove to see them every few weeks.  I always brought food and frozen meals for them.  I bought those frozen meals when they were on sale in stores, e.g. buy one get one free.  

For days I noticed the tube of facial cleaner was about to run out.  Business had been extremely slow.  A new tube of cleaner only cost a few dollars, but I would rather use the money to buy two boxes of frozen meals for sons.  

One morning, nothing came out of the tube no matter how hard I squeezed it or pressed it against my other hand.  There I was holding the tube and feeling somewhat depressed.  Suddenly, the little child in me thought: it was said Thou shalt provide.  I held the tube with both of my hands in a prayer position, and prayed.  Afterward, I squeezed the tube.  I was all smiles seeing a dab of lotion fell onto my other hand.  It was not watery.  It was a normal dab of lotion.  I joyfully and gratefully thanked the loving divine.

I did the same thing on the second day, i.e. I prayed and a dab of lotion came out.  On the third day, I began to doubt.  I thought there might still be bits of lotion here and there inside, and what happened was nothing magical.  I shook and squeezed the tube, but nothing came out.   I held the tube in my hands, and prayed wholeheartedly again.  A dab of lotion came out.  I stood there in awe and gratitude.     

I did not recall how long this went on.  It was probably about 6 to 7 days.  One morning, with the tube of lotion in my hand, I looked into the mirror.  I was swelled with gratitude for this incredible experience.  Meanwhile, I felt it was time to move on and buy a new one.  I threw away the tube.  I felt free and peaceful.  

At the time, my focus was on the lack because we struggled to pay bills.  With the wrong focus, a few dollars seemed like a big deal.  If my mind was clear, I would see it really did not matter how I spent the few dollars; my sons would be fine and I would be too.  It was through grace that I decided to move on and buy a new tube of lotion when I looked at the mirror.  There was no reasoning going on in my mind.

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As I was writing, I 'got' that - A lot of times, our sufferings were like that.  We dwelt in the emotions that kept us down/stuck, e.g. worries, pain, hurt, anger, sorrow, sadness, guilt, shame, resentment, feeling lack / not enough, not being loved and etc.  We held onto those emotions as if they were part of us.  For instance, some people continued to live in the shadow of bad experiences that happened decades ago; some lived in sadness after a loved one died such as I was after my mother passed away. (Re Happy Mother's Day to all the loving mothers and grandmothers.)  We failed to realize that we were hurting ourselves when we held onto those unwholesome emotions. 

During the challenging years, I worried a lot.  One morning, I looked at the me in the mirror.  I suddenly realized how much I had aged!  My eyelashes were almost gone or sparsely visible.  The hair on my eyebrows was thin and sparse.  I had lost some teeth.  One of my front teeth was broken and the remaining portion was black / badly discolored.  It was a wakeup call for me to take care of myself! I loved my sons, and wanted to be there for them.  (Re Who Smiles? Who Sees? )

Fortunately, I eventually learned that I was not alone.  In the last quarter of 1999, I found myself being awoken to see 4:44 a.m. again and again.  Later, I happened to see 444 quite often such as cars with 444 license plates, 4:44 p.m., and invoices with the number 444.  One morning in the early hours, I heard a man's voice saying one strange sentence loud and clear.  I had many inexplicable experiences of the loving divine too.  In order to find answers, I began to borrow spiritual books from the library.  From books, I learned our spirit guides and angels were with us, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love.  Two years later, I booked a phone reading with a known angel channel who lived in another state.  (I had written many posts about incidents that led up to the reading.  Please view Seeing the birds, I had no doubt God had shown me the sign )  I had those strange experiences because my guides and angels wanted to shake me out of the rut.  Their loving presence and wisdom made a huge difference in my life.  For examples - 

• My guide's timely intervention helped me greatly in my relationship with my older son.   (Re Love! Love! Love! Just love him and nothing else. Simply love him )  During a few small gatherings, I had shared this experience.  In later days, some people told me what I shared had helped them when they found themselves in a difficult situation/relationship.  When they changed their view of the person/situation, the outcome changed too.   
• One night I was filled with negative emotion dwelling over the situations we were in.  Suddenly, I heard 'you can be happy no matter what'.  
• On another occasion, I felt pain thinking about my relationship, and my guide said  You feel pain because you let pain be . 

I could not take in what my guide said right away.  I thought 'In the situation I was in, how can I be happy?'  It was also hard for me to accept that 'I feel pain because I let pain be'.  It took me years to realize that his guidance was invaluable.

Many of us knew/might agree that we were responsible for our actions, i.e. what we chose to do / not to do and its consequence.  However, we might not have realized that it was also our responsibility to take care of our own well-being that included our physical, emotional, and mental well-being.  For example, my sons cared about my health, and suggested for me to exercise more. I always said I was not the exercise type.  I saw others easily picked up a 24-pack of bottled water.  I knew I might be able to do the same if I exercised regularly, but held onto the thought / excuse that I was not the exercise type.  When it came to my emotional / mental well-being, I used to think it was natural / normal for me to worry / feel pain because of the situations / relationship I was in.  I recalled one day my younger son, seeing how worried I was, asked me, "Mom, does it help to worry?  If it doesn't help, why worry?"  I agreed worrying did not seem to help, but found it hard to get out of my old pattern/worrying mode that I was used to.   

Edgar Cayce, the Sleeping Prophet, had also said 'why worry since we can pray' during one of his channeled readings.  (In 2004/5, I went to a small psychic fair.  The host said those who came had a chance to win one of three donated prizes.  My name was drawn!  I won a thick book (used) - The Edgar Cayce Collection, Four Volumes in One.  I had been a member of A.R.E. in recent years.  I had won The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the 2nd Reading and other prizes when I went to spiritual events.  Looking back, it was not simply luck; it was the encouragement from the loving divine.  I am deeply grateful.)        

Earlier, I had mentioned that I could not take in my guide's words right away.  However, his timely advice on those occasions had an effect on me.  (Throughout the years, I only heard his voice a few times.)  

When I found myself in a negative mood, I thought of his words.  It caused me to pause my negative reactive emotion to a situation / a person, and looked at what happened from different perspectives.  I took responsibility when I found myself to be part of a misunderstanding.  (e.g. Let Us Start from Ground Zero )  When I saw no fault on my part, I tried *** to let the whole thing go.  In other words, I began to pay attention to my state of being, and took responsibility of my emotional well-being.  (*** I used the word 'tried' because letting go was a lesson in life that was not as easy as it sounded.  Sometimes it took time to truly let go, and we had to be patient with ourselves as well as with others.)

From my observation, there were many underlying conditions in additional to one's personality that caused some people to appear rude/mean/hostile.  For instance, some bullies might hold something within that they did not feel good about themselves or might feel less/inferior to others in certain aspect; they bullied others in order to have that false sense of power and superiority.  In some cases, it could be  a repeat of a cycle.  For example, in  To forgive is first and most of all for the good of ourselves , a woman felt unloved and rejected by her mother as a child because her mother only loved her brother; when she became a mother, she could not show any affection toward her daughter.

As I became more observant of my reaction, I gradually learned not to take things personally because what happened before me might not reflect the whole truth.  (If you have time, please view Sometimes what we assume can be far from the truth )  I also realized my thought / what I held in my mind was indeed important.  For instance, I still worried once in a while; since I paid attention to my thought, I knew to replace it with positive affirmations; sometimes I had fun projecting good outcome too.  In Is our thought a secret known only to ourselves , I sensed the cashier's irritation.  I thought, "Oh!  No.  The cashier is in a negative mood."  Right then, another thought rose to counter my first thought, "Of course, she feels irritated because she has been busy all day.  I should change my view of her.  I should be understanding, and should look at her with love."  I looked at the cashier with love and understanding.  At that very moment, she looked in my direction and let out a broad smile.  Everything Is Energy, and so is our thought.  It was said new thought replaced old thought, and good thought replaced bad thought.  How true!  This incident corroborated what my guide said 'In being responsible for our own well-being, we can influence others in a way that is much more than what we can perceive.'  

 

As regards to our physical well-being, I found this entry in one of my old journal.  I had shared it in my post  Why are some people born with a life crippling condition?   

We always associate healing with one's physical well-being, but it is not necessary the case.  There are healing in many levels.  One may come into this life with a physical challenge that may never be healed because it may be a choice he made.  Healing can take place among his loved ones while taking care of him.  Or, he may have chosen the physical challenge to have an experience. Instead of totally dismantled because of his illness, he accepts, prospers, and lives a good life. 

As human beings, most of us have experienced discomfort and illness.  Our thoughts matter in all situations.  It helps to remind us to have a positive attitude.  In my experience, the attitude of gratitude helps me a lot as I go through life's situations.  Furthermore, look at others with love and compassion.  Love, and love freely.  Don't dwell in our own misery.  If we think our life is miserable, we are not alone because many people are suffering too; it is in giving love, we receive love; and, know that life is not only livable, but lovable and wonderful. 

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After I finished sharing the Thou Shalt Provide experience, another experience came to my mind.  It also happened during the restaurant years. 

I went to a store to buy something for the restaurant.  That day was my husband's lunar birthday.  (Many older Chinese like my husband and me remembered/celebrated our birthdays according to the lunar calendar.  Oriental stores sold Chinese calendars in the beginning of a new year.  We celebrated our sons' birthdays according to western calendar.)  

In the old days, only birthdays of the older generations such as great grandparents or grandparents were important and sometimes celebrated with a feast. (Re I was nicknames the Queen of Dreams)  My husband had always said there was no need to celebrate his birthday.  He said he rarely remembered his birthday, i.e. when he was single.  (He was not into remembering our birthdays, but always went along with me to buy gifts for sons' birthdays.)  Despite of what he said, I never forgot his birthday.  He said he did not want any Christmas present as well.  We always bought him gifts, and saw him smile when he opened his gifts.  

I saw lobsters were on sale.  My husband loved seafood.  Despite of the money situation, I decided to buy two lobsters to celebrate his birthday.  At the checkout counter, I was all smiles when the cashier told me the total was $33.33!  (333 or 3333 is the ascended masters' number.)  My heart was filled with joy.  When I walked by the lottery counter near the entrance/exit, I decided to buy a $2 instant ticket.  Later, I found out it was a $50 winner!                                            

In this incident, I chose to look beyond the lack.  In a joyful mood, I bought a $2 instant lottery ticket which turned out to be a $50 winner.  In retrospect, it was another Thou Shalt Provide experience for $50 was more than enough to cover $33.33!

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Finally, this post is finished!  

Wherever you are, do something that brings you joy.  In love and joy we connect.

Many blessings,

Q of D

WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 1

Greetings! 

Two days before I finished my last post Incredible Coincidence of Releasing Frustration , I woke up and got that 'What is our focus' would be the title of my next post.  Lying in bed, I felt very grateful for the active, loving presence of my spirit guides and angels in my life.  They knew I had been troubled by the emails from some of my friends in recent months.  

Most of the people in this group met in person.  I did not live in that state, and only joined them once in a long while on zoom.  Years earlier, I had emailed my opinion on some matters.  I had also spoken up once.  (Re Prophecies, and What We Need the Most At This Time - 2 )  I had not joined their meeting for many months.  I did not think I should join a meeting just to express a different view.  Therefore, I prayed for the situation involving my friends to be resolved by itself.  Of course, I had not planned to write about it.

Under the title of my blog Loveshines, I wrote 'In faith, I share with you my experiences.  My experiences are not just mine and yours are not just yours for in truth We Are One.  Let LOVE shine through the blog as the title has intended.'  However, the human I still found it challenging from time to time to share some experiences that I regarded as personal or experiences that involved my friends/loved ones.   

Reading the emails, I had thought my friends had misplaced their focus.  After 'What is our focus' came through, I saw how relevant the title was.  In truth, what we focused on was pertinent in life.  I changed my mind, and decided to share the experience.

For months, my friends were into prophecies of earth changes.  They did research, and collected data from online and from books.  They invited speakers to give talks on the same subject.  The more information they collected, the more they believed catastrophic earth changes such as traumatic flood and earthquakes were going to happen.  They began to focus on keeping track of the signs of earthquakes and unusual floods.  Gradually, they held discussions as what to do in case these disastrous events occurred.  They started to stock up the necessities, and advised others to do the same.  They had good intention.  They wanted to help as many people as they could when disasters hit.

The emails reminded me of a woman's story that I read about decades ago.  She believed in the end of time talks.  Fear and stress might have caused her to die early.  After she passed away, people found her basement packed with bottled water, canned food, and equipment for survival.  It also reminded me of the so-called angel channel's prophecy 17 years ago.  That winter was warm and beautiful instead of what she had prophesized.  Weeks later, a pastor said, "Despite of what happened, the angel channel had good intention.  She had taken out thousands of dollars from banks and credit cards, and had bought lots of medical supplies so that she could help many people when disasters hit."  She (the pastor) felt sad that the channel might be in debt because of her good intention.  It was worth noting that the woman had probably believed in her own channeled messages - the great power outage that winter would erase all record of loans/debts from the computer system of banks and credit card companies, and people would not have to pay back the money.  Besides, many people had gone to her for healing because she claimed the angels worked with her.  Her healing sessions were not free.  Worse yet, since she opened herself up to an unknown dark force, she had brought harm to some that came to her for healing.  (Re Prophecies, And What We Need the Most At This Time - 1 ) 

In retrospect, I wondered why she came to me four different times insisting that I must book healing sessions with her - 2 times inside the chapel after Sunday service was over; 2 times when I had already walked outside of the church, and she ran after me urging me to go to her for healing.  I declined.  Some people who always tried to be nice or polite might have said 'yes' in similar situations.  It came to me that we should not be too easy to say 'yes' or 'to make promises that we know we may not keep'; we should not give in to others who claimed to be much more powerful/superior than we were; the true masters knew the truth, and would not present themselves that way.  We could always ask our higher selves/guides/angels for guidance before making a decision.  If you have been reading my blog, you know I am not someone who thinks 'I do not need healing from others'.  When I held the monthly healing circle, we all practiced giving and receiving healing.  When the clairvoyant healer offered to give me healing, I gladly and gratefully accepted.  (Re The clairvoyant healer gave me a healing session ) 

Just like what happened in The Gathering seventeen years ago, my friends' emails stated that they had no fear of the prophesized earth changes; instead, they were looking forward to the future/golden age.  I always felt we should never join in to spread news that might cause mass fear.  In one zoom meeting, a woman said she lived in one of the southern states that would submerged under water according to the prophecies; she asked if her family should move to another state now.  I could hear the fear in her voice. 

In recent weeks/month, the Internet connection had been very unstable.  Many times the connection was lost a short while after I was on the computer.  We had a few gusty wind blowing days, and there was no Internet.  I talked to my son about it, and learned the provider had called him about upgrading the equipment and signing up for another plan.  My son said 'No' because there had already been price increase.  I did not know much about the Internet or the computer.  I searched online, and learned that our modem and router were indeed out of date.  We needed to buy new ones in the coming days.

Other than the Internet interruptions, I found myself stalled in writing.  I realized part of me still thought I should not write about my friends' experience.  On Easter Sunday (April 5,2026), it dawned on me that 'any time I / we had a strong reaction to a situation, it was no longer their experience/his experience/her experience; it became our situation/our experience; in order to move forward or move past the situation, we must resolve our reaction, come to term with what happened, and learn from it.  That was why I was inspired to write a post on What is our focus.  Again, it is true that my experiences are not just mine and yours are not just yours.😌.  \ 

I must have some help today that the Internet interruptions were far less than other days.  Before I continue with What is our focus, I am happy to report that the situation had resolved by itself quite a while back.  The host was guided to read a book in which Jesus talked about living in the now instead of worrying about the future.  As a result, the focus on what were to come and the discussion on stocking up necessities had stopped.

I receive an email from a sister about Pope Leo XIV has invited the faithful to a special Prayer Vigil for Peace in Saint Peter's Basilica on Saturday, April 11, 2026, at 18:00 (6 PM Rome time) to pray for lasting peace.  As the sister says, prayer is energy.  

May the Spirit of Peace unite us all.  May we live in Peace, Harmony and Love.  

Love and Blessings,

Q of D                                                    (Next post WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - part 2 )

Incredible Coincidences of Releasing Frustration

Greetings!

Some days ago, I woke up from two dreams during which I went through the emotion of frustration.  Below was one of the dreams.

I worked as a governess.  I had been tutoring a boy who was now in his early teens.  He was very intelligent or was like a genius.  My employer was a well-to-do man who was very impressed with the boy's intelligence.  He was not the boy's father, but seemed to have full authority over the boy.    

In the dream, the man, in a way of trying to please the boy, said he would be the boy's father and I would be his mother.  He continued to talk about his plan for the boy.

I stood there in shock!  The man had not talked to me about that.  I thought "In his eyes, I am nothing; he simply plans what he wants to do."  As he kept on talking about his plan, I felt more and more frustrated.  "I am a governess.  I work for him to teach the boy, but I am not a thing that belongs to him!  I do not have any personal feeling towards him!  What does it mean that he will be the boy's father and I will be the mother?  Does it mean we will get married?  I do not think he is capable of loving.  He does not own me!  I never regard him as anything else other than he was the one that hired me."

I woke up.  In my journal I wrote that this was the most frustrating dream / past life dream that I ever had.

The second dream was also a dream of frustration.  

A huge theater like setting (rectangular), but there was no screen as that of a theater.  

I entered from the middle of this place or the entrance was in the middle.    The front of this place was to my left and the back to my right.  Long seats lined up the side of the wall that I entered.  It was the only side of the walls that lined up with seats.  A little distance away were hundreds and thousands of rows of seats facing the front and lined up sideway in conjunction with the long seats by the wall.  The space between the long seats by the wall and rows of seats was where we walked or moved around.  When I entered, there were lots of unoccupied seats.  I took off my shoes, and put them under the long seats somewhere near the entrance.  I walked forward to greet my mother who was sitting in the front on the long seats by the wall.  Later, I went to look for my shoes.  By then, the whole place was almost filled.  The seats by the wall were fully occupied.  I bent down to look for my shoes.  Now, under the seats were heaps of shoes since others put their shoes there too.  I walked up and down along the wall again and again.  I just could not find my shoes.  I felt very frustrated.

As I was wondering why I had these two dreams, I decided to release the negative emotion.  I mentally said, "I release all the frustration that I felt, past and present, to the Loving Divine!"  Right after, I remembered I was listening to a recording while I was lying on bed hours earlier. 

In the last year or two, sometimes I joined zoom meetings during which the organizer of a group brought in three to five magical people *** to give short talks/presentations of their practices.  (*** For examples, professional psychics with different abilities and healers of different modalities)  Those who attended could choose to listen to the talks of 2 or 3 of the professionals in breakout rooms.  Each presentation normally lasted for about 20 minutes.  Thanks to the organizer, I had met some very interesting / magical people.  For example, there was a man who came into this lifetime with five spirit guides in the medical fields, and had performed miracles without physical surgeries.  The zoom meetings were free.  

One day I was in a breakout room during which a healer (a Theta Healing instructor since 2006) asked us what we wanted to release, e.g. the feeling of lack, sadness, or anxiety.  I did not say anything, but one or two persons had said what they wanted to release.  I observed the healer did not really need to hear what we said.  She went about talking and talking as if she knew what each one of us needed to release.  In between her words, she yawned soundly.  (I believed that was her way to help releasing energies that got people stuck.)  During her non-stop talking, I heard words that applied to me even though I had not said anything.  My energy pulsated as if in response to her words.  Her healing work was powerful.  

I signed up most of my online meetings through meetup.  On meetup, I saw that this healer was actively at work.  Other than meetings on zoom, she held free in-person introduction classes in different cities.  She recorded her zoom meetings.  Sometimes she sent out links so that people could benefit or continue to heal by listening to the recordings.  I admired her intention of service / helping others.

One day I received two links in an email from her.  One recording was for removing blocks from receiving money, and the other link was for releasing negative energies that kept us stuck.  For the best result, she suggested for us to listen to the recording 11 days in a row.  I decided to listen to the recording on releasing stuck energies.  It was daytime when I listened to the recording for the first time.  The second time I listened to it with my headphone on while I was lying on bed at night.  I woke up around 2 am realizing that I had fallen asleep while listening to the recording.  Later that morning, I woke up from the two dreams of frustration.  

I realized those dream were releasing dreams.  In life, we went through all kind of situations/relationships.  Our strong reactions to certain situations/relationships might remain with us throughout lifetimes.  It helped us to release energies that did not serve us when we recalled what happened.  It was a good thing that I asked to release the frustrations to the Loving Divine upon waking up.  I was grateful for the healing.  Mentally, I thanked the healer, and sent her my blessings.    

I should have continued to listen to the recordings, but had not.  Then an incredible coincidence happened to remind me of the importance of releasing my frustrations.

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In the morning of Feb. 2, 2026, I was on my computer checking my emails.  

In recent years, I received tens of emails everyday.  I could not read all of them.  I deleted some, and marked some as 'read' so that I could read them some other time.

On this day, the title of a channeled message by Master Kuthumi through Natalie Glasson of the Sacred School of OmNa caught my attention.  The title was 'The Key to a New Year'.  The email was sent to me on Jan. 9, 2026.  I marked it as 'read', but had not taken the time to read it yet.  I wanted to know the key to 2026, and clicked to view the message on Natalie's website.

Lo and Behold, another channeled message appeared on the screen!  It was 

How to Release Frustration by Archangel Metatron    

How could this be!  I had subscribed to Natalie Glasson's newsletter/channeled messages for ten years.  This had never happened before.  When I clicked to view the message in a particular email, there was never a time that another message appeared.  However, in view of the recent experience (dreams of frustration), I decided to read the message.  Below was my understanding of Archangel Metatron's message.  Please go to YouTube and search for Natalie Glasson if you want to hear the original message.      

At this time, many frustrations are surfacing.  It may be we are frustrated with ourselves or with the reality we are in; it may be things do not turn out as we want, or we want our life to be different than what it is; it may be we feel others have wronged / hurt us, and we feel frustrated that we can do nothing about it.  

Frustration comes from a feeling of lack of self-love.  In other words, it happens when we are not align with the truth within / the Creator energy within / the self-love within which is a love born of love / simply being loved.  If we pray for outside help, it is not going to work.  Healing comes when we seek to know the love within more or when we seek to have a deep connection with the self-love within.  Living love within us is the greatest healer that brings forth the greatest wisdom.  When we surrender the lack of love (our frustrations) into our self-love within, we are awakened to new perspective, new ideas, new understanding, and new ways of doing things.    

Archangel Metatron says frustrations are very powerful creators that only create more frustrations and more lack of love.  

At the end, Archangel Metatron encourages us to "Give ourselves the gift of self-love".

I came into this lifetime as an ordinary person living an ordinary life.  From my experiences, it was true that "frustrations are very powerful creators that only create more frustrations and more lack of love.'  Therefore, it was important for us to pay attention to our reaction to situations/relationships.  I thanked Archangel Metatron and the angelic kingdom for the timely, loving message.  I also repeated aloud 3 times -

I GIVE MYSELF THE GIFT OF SELF-LOVE.

After I finished reading the message on Natalie Glasson's website, I was back to my email of Jan. 9, 2026.  I clicked on the message of that email again.  It was Master Kuthumi's message The Key to A New Year.  Master Kuthumi said many people chose to set new goals when a new year approached; however, we could choose a new beginning at any time such as we could choose a day as a new day for a new beginning.  It brought a smile on my face because I had created a short song years ago that began with 'It is a new day, I am the new me, in a new world, I see beauty, I see magic, wherever I go . . . . .'    

By the way, I found out I received the email with Archangel Metatron's message on How to Release Frustration on Dec. 12, 2025.  I marked the email as read, and had not read the channeled message.   How could Archangel Metatron's message appear when I clicked on the email dated Jan. 9, 2026?  Besides, there were other emails that I had marked as read between these two emails too.

Life is truly magical, full of grace and wonders.

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This incredible experience reminded me of my experience with Archangel Metatron back in November, 2007.  If you have time, please read my posts

 

I said "No" three times on this Sunday  and 

Archangel Metatron and the healing session

In my post Archangel Metatron and the healing session , I had not mentioned that Marla was a Theta Healing practitioner.  In fact, she told me Archangel Metatron said for me to learn that healing modality too.  Before the session, Marla got the questions she was supposed to ask me and stored them on her laptop.  she was calm and relaxed.  She did not talk much.  The way she went about the healing session was very different from the healer mentioned above.  On zoom, I had also seen another Theta healer demonstrated what she did.  She asked a question, and waited for the answer.  Then she asked another question, and waited for the answer.  It seemed they all had their own unique ways.

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It has been cold.  Some days I do not log into my blog.  I spend my time watching videos, movies and sports.  I am not someone who can write a post on a regular basis.  I am grateful for the inspirations and coincidences in my life.

Before I sign off, please remember to 'give ourselves the gift of self-love'.

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

MUSIC and Me, and how I use my CREATIVITY

Greetings!

The other day on zoom a woman talked about hearing music in the air upon waking up.  She wondered why she heard this or that music.  The host listened, and moved on to let the next one who had raised his hand for his turn to share his experience which was different from that of the woman.  Soon the meeting came to an end.  If this was an in-person event, I probably would have stayed behind to talk to the woman because I had these amazing Music in the Air experiences too.

In my experiences, sometimes I understood the reason I heard a particular piece of music.  For example, when I woke up to You Are My Sunshine , I recalled an incident and remembered I had asked for inspiration as what to write before I went to sleep.  There were also times I did not know why I heard this or that music in the air.  For example, one morning in 2023 or early 2024, I woke up hearing music.  When I searched for what I heard, I found out it was the theme music of Molin Rouge.  The music was so beautiful that I ended up watching the 1952 Molin Rouge film on YouTube.  It was a good movie.  The actor in the old film did an excellent job in portraying the character in the story.  Near the end of November, 2024, I heard the music again.  With my memory, I had forgotten what it was and had to hum into my android again.  I had no idea why I heard it again.

Since I grew up in the Chinese culture, there were songs/music that my American friends were familiar with, but I was not.  For example, one morning I woke up hearing 5 to 6 musical notes over and over again.  I grabbed my android, and hummed into it.  I was sure 'no match found' would appear on the screen of my android.  To my surprise, all the results showed the same song Good King Wenceslas.  I had not heard it before.  I smiled thinking about the kindness in the song.  I looked up the history or background of the song afterward.    

Some years ago, I woke up hearing music, and knew it was I can't help falling in love with you.  Later, I heard it in the air during the day and not just upon waking up.  'But I can't help falling in love with you' were the only words that I knew of this song.  At first, I did not feel the need to know the rest of the lyrics.  As the music came on quite often during those days, I finally looked up the lyrics.  I was somewhat bothered that the song began with 'Wise men say only fools rush in'.  I decided to change the words.

Wise men say follow the pathway of love

Let love within guide you in all you do

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       Om .  .  .  . Om .  .  .  . Om .  . 

There were two sides to a coin.  Knowing the Truth, the wise men could have said, "Follow the pathway of LOVE."  In Sukiyaki on Christmas morning , I also used my own words for the song 500 Miles (Peter, Paul and Mary version) and called it A Train of Lightworkers.  

I loved listening to music, but was not into remembering lyrics / titles of music.  It was in this ignorance or innocence (whatever one wants to call it 😄😄) that I experienced the fun and joy of not knowing much.  Music in the Air is truly a blessing for me.  

2026 is here.  A few of my friends have forwarded me predictions / prophecies that they have learned of.  Let us remember that we are co-creators.  May peace fill our heart, and love guide us in all that we do.  No matter what happens, we are here for one another.  Since death is not the end, what do we fear?  May we be the help where help is needed; may we be the emissaries of peace and light wherever we are.

Many Blessings,

Q of D