Incredible Coincidences of Releasing Frustration

Greetings!

Some days ago, I woke up from two dreams during which I went through the emotion of frustration.  Below was one of the dreams.

I worked as a governess.  I had been tutoring a boy who was now in his early teens.  He was very intelligent or was like a genius.  My employer was a well-to-do man who was very impressed with the boy's intelligence.  He was not the boy's father, but seemed to have full authority over the boy.    

In the dream, the man, in a way of trying to please the boy, said he would be the boy's father and I would be his mother.  He continued to talk about his plan for the boy.

I stood there in shock!  The man had not talked to me about that.  I thought "In his eyes, I am nothing; he simply plans what he wants to do."  As he kept on talking about his plan, I felt more and more frustrated.  "I am a governess.  I work for him to teach the boy, but I am not a thing that belongs to him!  I do not have any personal feeling towards him!  What does it mean that he will be the boy's father and I will be the mother?  Does it mean we will get married?  I do not think he is capable of loving.  He does not own me!  I never regard him as anything else other than he was the one that hired me."

I woke up.  In my journal I wrote that this was the most frustrating dream / past life dream that I ever had.

The second dream was also a dream of frustration.  

A huge theater like setting (rectangular), but there was no screen as that of a theater.  

I entered from the middle of this place or the entrance was in the middle.    The front of this place was to my left and the back to my right.  Long seats lined up the side of the wall that I entered.  It was the only side of the walls that lined up with seats.  A little distance away were hundreds and thousands of rows of seats facing the front and lined up sideway in conjunction with the long seats by the wall.  The space between the long seats by the wall and rows of seats was where we walked or moved around.  When I entered, there were lots of unoccupied seats.  I took off my shoes, and put them under the long seats somewhere near the entrance.  I walked forward to greet my mother who was sitting in the front on the long seats by the wall.  Later, I went to look for my shoes.  By then, the whole place was almost filled.  The seats by the wall were fully occupied.  I bent down to look for my shoes.  Now, under the seats were heaps of shoes since others put their shoes there too.  I walked up and down along the wall again and again.  I just could not find my shoes.  I felt very frustrated.

As I was wondering why I had these two dreams, I decided to release the negative emotion.  I mentally said, "I release all the frustration that I felt, past and present, to the Loving Divine!"  Right after, I remembered I was listening to a recording while I was lying on bed hours earlier. 

In the last year or two, sometimes I joined zoom meetings during which the organizer of a group brought in three to five magical people *** to give short talks/presentations of their practices.  (*** For examples, professional psychics with different abilities and healers of different modalities)  Those who attended could choose to listen to the talks of 2 or 3 of the professionals in breakout rooms.  Each presentation normally lasted for about 20 minutes.  Thanks to the organizer, I had met some very interesting / magical people.  For example, there was a man who came into this lifetime with five spirit guides in the medical fields, and had performed miracles without physical surgeries.  The zoom meetings were free.  

One day I was in a breakout room during which a healer (a Theta Healing instructor since 2006) asked us what we wanted to release, e.g. the feeling of lack, sadness, or anxiety.  I did not say anything, but one or two persons had said what they wanted to release.  I observed the healer did not really need to hear what we said.  She went about talking and talking as if she knew what each one of us needed to release.  In between her words, she yawned soundly.  (I believed that was her way to help releasing energies that got people stuck.)  During her non-stop talking, I heard words that applied to me even though I had not said anything.  My energy pulsated as if in response to her words.  Her healing work was powerful.  

I signed up most of my online meetings through meetup.  On meetup, I saw that this healer was actively at work.  Other than meetings on zoom, she held free in-person introduction classes in different cities.  She recorded her zoom meetings.  Sometimes she sent out links so that people could benefit or continue to heal by listening to the recordings.  I admired her intention of service / helping others.

One day I received two links in an email from her.  One recording was for removing blocks from receiving money, and the other link was for releasing negative energies that kept us stuck.  For the best result, she suggested for us to listen to the recording 11 days in a row.  I decided to listen to the recording on releasing stuck energies.  It was daytime when I listened to the recording for the first time.  The second time I listened to it with my headphone on while I was lying on bed at night.  I woke up around 2 am realizing that I had fallen asleep while listening to the recording.  Later that morning, I woke up from the two dreams of frustration.  

I realized those dream were releasing dreams.  In life, we went through all kind of situations/relationships.  Our strong reactions to certain situations/relationships might remain with us throughout lifetimes.  It helped us to release energies that did not serve us when we recalled what happened.  It was a good thing that I asked to release the frustrations to the Loving Divine upon waking up.  I was grateful for the healing.  Mentally, I thanked the healer, and sent her my blessings.    

I should have continued to listen to the recordings, but had not.  Then an incredible coincidence happened to remind me of the importance of releasing my frustrations.

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In the morning of Feb. 2, 2026, I was on my computer checking my emails.  

In recent years, I received tens of emails everyday.  I could not read all of them.  I deleted some, and marked some as 'read' so that I could read them some other time.

On this day, the title of a channeled message by Master Kuthumi through Natalie Glasson of the Sacred School of OmNa caught my attention.  The title was 'The Key to a New Year'.  The email was sent to me on Jan. 9, 2026.  I marked it as 'read', but had not taken the time to read it yet.  I wanted to know the key to 2026, and clicked to view the message on Natalie's website.

Lo and Behold, another channeled message appeared on the screen!  It was 

How to Release Frustration by Archangel Metatron    

How could this be!  I had subscribed to Natalie Glasson's newsletter/channeled messages for ten years.  This had never happened before.  When I clicked to view the message in a particular email, there was never a time that another message appeared.  However, in view of the recent experience (dreams of frustration), I decided to read the message.  Below was my understanding of Archangel Metatron's message.  Please go to YouTube and search for Natalie Glasson if you want to hear the original message.      

At this time, many frustrations are surfacing.  It may be we are frustrated with ourselves or with the reality we are in; it may be things do not turn out as we want, or we want our life to be different than what it is; it may be we feel others have wronged / hurt us, and we feel frustrated that we can do nothing about it.  

Frustration comes from a feeling of lack of self-love.  In other words, it happens when we are not align with the truth within / the Creator energy within / the self-love within which is a love born of love / simply being loved.  If we pray for outside help, it is not going to work.  Healing comes when we seek to know the love within more or when we seek to have a deep connection with the self-love within.  Living love within us is the greatest healer that brings forth the greatest wisdom.  When we surrender the lack of love (our frustrations) into our self-love within, we are awakened to new perspective, new ideas, new understanding, and new ways of doing things.    

Archangel Metatron says frustrations are very powerful creators that only create more frustrations and more lack of love.  

At the end, Archangel Metatron encourages us to "Give ourselves the gift of self-love".

I came into this lifetime as an ordinary person living an ordinary life.  From my experiences, it was true that "frustrations are very powerful creators that only create more frustrations and more lack of love.'  Therefore, it was important for us to pay attention to our reaction to situations/relationships.  I thanked Archangel Metatron and the angelic kingdom for the timely, loving message.  I also repeated aloud 3 times -

I GIVE MYSELF THE GIFT OF SELF-LOVE.

After I finished reading the message on Natalie Glasson's website, I was back to my email of Jan. 9, 2026.  I clicked on the message of that email again.  It was Master Kuthumi's message The Key to A New Year.  Master Kuthumi said many people chose to set new goals when a new year approached; however, we could choose a new beginning at any time such as we could choose a day as a new day for a new beginning.  It brought a smile on my face because I had created a short song years ago that began with 'It is a new day, I am the new me, in a new world, I see beauty, I see magic, wherever I go . . . . .'    

By the way, I found out I received the email with Archangel Metatron's message on How to Release Frustration on Dec. 12, 2025.  I marked the email as read, and had not read the channeled message.   How could Archangel Metatron's message appear when I clicked on the email dated Jan. 9, 2026?  Besides, there were other emails that I had marked as read between these two emails too.

Life is truly magical, full of grace and wonders.

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This incredible experience reminded me of my experience with Archangel Metatron back in November, 2007.  If you have time, please read my posts

 

I said "No" three times on this Sunday  and 

Archangel Metatron and the healing session

In my post Archangel Metatron and the healing session , I had not mentioned that Marla was a Theta Healing practitioner.  In fact, she told me Archangel Metatron said for me to learn that healing modality too.  Before the session, Marla got the questions she was supposed to ask me and stored them on her laptop.  she was calm and relaxed.  She did not talk much.  The way she went about the healing session was very different from the healer mentioned above.  On zoom, I had also seen another Theta healer demonstrated what she did.  She asked a question, and waited for the answer.  Then she asked another question, and waited for the answer.  It seemed they all had their own unique ways.

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It has been cold.  Some days I do not log into my blog.  I spend my time watching videos, movies and sports.  I am not someone who can write a post on a regular basis.  I am grateful for the inspirations and coincidences in my life.

Before I sign off, please remember to 'give ourselves the gift of self-love'.

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

Have A Great New Beginning

Greetings!

Continue from my last post I kept asking myself "Why am I here?" .  

In the dream, I found myself in a gathering of recognized healers.  I felt I did not belong to be there because I did not see myself as a healer.  I wondered why I was there or why I was invited.  Upon waking up, I realized the me in the dream was a reflection of the me in life.  After contemplation, I understood how relevant it was for me to have the dream at this time.

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Did I feel qualify as a healer?  

At church and in spiritual centers, I had seen a few healers demonstrated what they did during healing sessions.  They were calm and collected.  Some of them knew what was wrong by seeing, sensing or feeling one's energy field.  As for me, I might be able to see one's sadness / pain in his eyes, but did not get anything about one's illness.  Some healers got info or messages to relate to the one they worked on.  I rarely ** received anything to relate to those that came for healing.   ( ** "Tell her that she is very, very loved." )  

A friend told me she was very pleased with a healer because he worked on her for over an hour.  It was normal for people to feel that way.  Since my way of going about a healing session was 'let go let god', I would work on a client as long as needed.  However, often than not, a session could be over in a couple of minutes to about 15 minutes.  I understood some people wanted me to work on them longer.  However, when I felt it was finished, it was finished (or for the time being).  Some healing arts had a procedure of what to do before, during and how to finish a healing session, but that was not the way I went through a session.  I was not a professional healer, and was never concerned about time.  On a few occasions, people chose to remain in the field of healing energy (on a massage table / chair) for a long, long time.  I would leave them alone, and let them take as much time as they wanted.  

In some ways, I always felt I did not know much about healing.  This feeling might have much to do with my experiences during which I was suddenly moved to heal others.  When that happened, I was as surprised as others.  Though part of me was at peace, the human I understood how inappropriate it was in the social view.  For examples, I stood up to work on 5 people in the middle of a Sunday service; during the healing circle, I suddenly moved to work on a woman that another healer was working on.  (Re My higher self and the human I in my healing experiences )  After the Sunday service incident, a brother who was himself a wonderful, long time healer called me.  He said I should remain sitting where I was to channel healing energy without drawing attention.  A loving being that he was, I knew that he must be doing that during Sunday services.  I could not explain to him that energy had been flowing into me in the past without causing any attention, and what happened that Sunday was a total shock to me.  Thanks to the loving Divine, I got to understand why this or that happened as things continued to unfold, or received validations from others.  (Re Part 1 - The Unexpected Incident , Part 2 - The Gathering , Part 3 - The Dream and Part 4 - Afterthought of the Whole Experience )

As a result of these experiences, I felt I might be a channel of healing energy.  However, I was not qualified as a healer / a professional healer.

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After the dream I kept asking myself "Why am I here?", I realized the me in the dream was a reflection of the me in life.  

In the days that followed, I happened to read my post More on my journey as a channel of spiritual healing energy .  Upon hearing that I had learned a healing art (Mar. 2007), the teacher of the Thursday Circle who was now also the owner of the center immediately asked me to be the on-site healer on Wednesdays.  Instead of feeling joyful about the opportunity, I judged myself unqualified.  Below was the postscript of the post.

P.S.  As I re-read this post on July 15, 2019, I realized how easily I judged myself and set limitations instead of opening up to what could be.  I also realized I might have made some progress in this aspect, but I had as yet let go of this pattern / old habit of thinking.

I also read the following in my post Have a Blissful 2017 

As I reread Who Smiles? Who Sees?, the words of the psychic in the March 2006 reading came to my mind.  She said, "In this lifetime, you have come to live an ordinary life.  You come to collect data living as an ordinary person, but cream is lighter than water.  You will eventually rise to the top because of who you are."  I asked her to explain.  She related her visions of me, but what she said was not what I wanted to hear.  I wanted to know where to look for a job and have an income.  For a while, she paused as if taking in the images she saw.  She said, "Q of D, you come to live an ordinary life.  You want to be like everybody else,  but you are not everybody else.  You are different.  You have to accept who you are ... "

I also remembered what happened on the first day of the 7-Day spiritual retreat.  The spiritual master said to Samuel, "She is an instrument."  He turned to me and said, "When you accept who you are, you will be much more and can help many people." His words caused a strong emotional reaction within me.  I thought I had accepted who I was by stepping outside of my comfort zone to mix with people.  (Re Day 1 of the one week spiritual retreat )

It was no accident that I had the dream and reread the two posts.     

According to the divine messages through many channels around the world, we have been embarking on a new beginning.  During the ascension, there have been multi downloads of energies, frequencies and vibrations from different dimensions.  There are many shifts and transformation.  It is the time of awakening that many people have been waiting for.  Some people may smoothly ease into the new beginning, some may find life chaotic and confusing, while others may experience a mix of both.  The new beginning is like a clean, new canvas for each to create or draw.  The message is '2021 is a year of creation', and it is of vital importance that we pay attention to what we hold in our mind / thought.

It was true the divine (higher self / guides / angels / loving ascended beings) was ever present to inspire, guide and assist.  I realized I should let go of the limiting old view of self that had been holding me back.  It is time to fully accept and embrace the truth I am!

In love, I share with you my experience.  I hope you will look deep within and release whatever may be holding you back.  

Have a great new beginning!

Love,

Q of D

Incredible! A golden yellow caterpillar on the mud below a tree!

Greetings!

Last night I published Caterpillars and A White BMW .  While I was writing that post, I thought the title could be 'She said she drove a white BMW'.  However, after I finished writing, I decided to include caterpillars in the title.

This morning I went for a walk.  

I used to walk a few rounds on the school field next to the apartments, and then I went to visit the big trees along the main road.  As I walked, I acknowledged the trees and nature for sharing with us their love, peace, beauty and healing energies.  I sent love to Mother Earth.  I paid attention to the birds, butterflies, bees, grasshoppers and etc. that happened to come across my path.  I had taken some beautiful pictures of insects (or pictures of beautiful insects) over the years.

I saw the school parking lot was filled with cars.  There were a lot of people playing in the school fields.  I decided to skip the school field, and went to walk along the main road instead.  Unexpectedly, I saw a big, golden yellow caterpillar on the mud below a tree!  I had been talking walks in the morning along the trees for years, yet this was the first time I saw a caterpillar.  How incredible it was that I saw this beautiful caterpillar after I published my post Caterpillars and A White BMW  !

As I had spoken at church years ago, our experiences with the Loving Divine IS personal.  No matter how incredible we felt about a certain experience, others might not feel that way at all.  Some might say it happened by chance.  Others might say what happened was nothing special or they might secretly think we saw too much into nothing.  There was nothing wrong with whatever others might think of our experience.  Each one of us is going through our own unique journey on earth.  We are from the same Source or of the same nature.  We should have faith in the Divine, and trust that his / her Creator within is forever guiding.  We do not necessary have to convince / argue with others of what we believe in.  Of course, at the right time, we may share some of our experiences or what we have learned.  On the journey of life, we are all students, teachers, and inspiration unto one another.  So it is.

Many blessings,

Q of D

   

I can go places and sit among people again!

Greetings!

We have finally bought another car!

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Most car dealerships here closed on Saturday and Sunday.  On regular weekdays, they closed at 6 p.m., but stayed open until 8 or 9 p.m. on Monday and Thursday.

On a Thursday, our son drove us to look for a car after he got off work.  I found online two car dealerships that had the cars I looked for and fitted my budget.  One car dealership was about half an hour away, and the other one was farther away.  The night before I had talked to my son that we would go to the dealership that was close to us.  I prayed for guidance on Thursday, and got that we should go to the one that was farther away.  My son was surprised when I told him the change of plan.

We left around 6 p.m.  There was a lot of cars on the road because many people were going home after work.  Seeing the traffic, I was somewhat concerned because this car dealership closed at 8 p.m.  Then a car with a 707 license plate appeared in the next lane.  I smiled because 707 had become an interesting number in my life.  As if to ease my mind or reaffirm me, a car with a 777 license plate appeared soon after.

The car salesman was nice and helpful.  When I told him the cars I was interested in, he went to look for the cars right away.  After test driving the cars, I liked the first one.  When we sat down to discuss the price, it was almost 8 p.m.  We promised to come back the next day.

The next day my husband and I drove the old car to the dealership.  (Our son had to go to work.)  Though the car had quite some problems, the warning chime had been quiet for the last ten days.  Amazingly, the warning chime "Ding! Ding! Ding! Ding!" came on when the used car dealership was in sight as if the car was saying goodbye.  I thanked the old car and the loving divine. 

Days later, I told my son why I went to that dealership (as I had mentioned, he was not into spiritual stuff).  He listened.  He said, "I am glad you got the car you liked."  I thanked him for driving us.  I looked up 707 and 777 in the Angel Numbers book.

707
You're working in perfect union with God the Creator.  Your willingness to trust, listen, surrender, and follow brings great miracles into your life.

777
Congratulations!  You've listened well to your Divine guidance and have put that wisdom into fruitful action.  You're now reaping the rewards.  Your success is inspiring and helping others, so please keep up the good work.

On August 12, I drove to the place that the psychic suggested.  (Re The psychic said, "You have to learn how to balance money." )  I found online the medium/healer that the psychic suggested for me to contact was the speaker that Sunday. 

I had not sat among people for almost four months.  As I sat down, I could feel strong healing energy poured into me and through me.  The speaker gave a good talk.  Near the end of the service, three mediums gave messages.  I was among those that received messages.  Most surprisingly, I believed it was from the master healer that moved on near the end of March.  When the service was over, I stood in line to shake hands with the pastor and the mediums.  No, I did not feel any connection with the medium/healer that I came to meet (at least at the time of this meeting).  As for the message, I did not quite understand why the master healer said what he said.

The drive back and forth was very smooth.  It was the first time I drove by myself since we bought the car.

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With the car, I can go places and sit among people again.  It is a very nice used car.  I am grateful.

Love and blessings,
Q of D 

 

The Unfolding of a Test - Being Authentic is be . . .

Greetings!

Have it ever happened to you that you have no plan of going to an event, but you keep getting the nudge to go?  That was what happened to me one day years ago.

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In my two years with the Thursday circle, I believed the facilitator, a loving spiritual teacher and professional psychic, must have meditated on what to share before the start of the circle.  She usually talked for a while in the beginning of the circle.  Though she did not say it directly, her words often seemed to be of significance to one or two of us.  On a few occasions, she said the information was for all of us.

One day, the facilitator began the circle talking about being authentic.  She talked for quite a while.  In her words, "Being authentic is be who we really are and speak the truth."

After she finished, we talked.  Some shared their recent spiritual experiences.  A woman said she was going to give a lecture on "Soul Mates" in the Center at 7 p.m. that night.  She said she was a psychic.  A few at the circle seemed to know her.  I had not seen her before.

Later, the facilitator brought out a deck of angel cards.  She asked some people to draw a card randomly from the deck and relate the info that came to them.  Only four people got to draw a card for the circle was supposed to end at noon.  The woman drew the "Enchantment" card.  After holding the card for a while, she said it was for the one that wore blue (i.e. me, she did not know my name).  She said: "People would be mesmerized by you.  They are attracted by you. They want to follow you."  In my mind, I wondered what mesmerize meant.  Seeing my puzzling look, she said: "It is like you look into their eyes, and they will be in a hypnotized state."  Lightheartedly, I reacted by looking at my friends as if I wanted to hypnotize them.  All of us had a good laugh.  She was open and friendly.  We liked her.

When the circle was over, a friend told me she had decided she would not go to a family party for some had been mean to her in previous gatherings.  She said she finally realized she did not have to be nice and sweet all the time.  As I listened, her words triggered some memories.  In my Dec. 2001 reading by a known angel channel, I was told that I did not have to be nice and sweet all the time; it was important for me to speak the truth (or what I knew), and I should not concern myself with what others might think of me.

In the afternoon, I went to buy grocery.  Mid-way to the store, suddenly gusty wind began to blow with lots of snow flying down from the sky.  I was peaceful for I knew the sun would soon come out.  It did.  When I came out of the store, I felt very grateful for everything had gone on smoothly.  On my way home, I was all smiles when I saw a car with a 111 (angel number) license plate.  Immediately, I said in my heart: "God, I will go where you want me to go.  Guides and angels, please guide me."

I was married.  I had no plan of going to the Center for the lecture on soul mates, but the lecture kept coming up in my mind.  At 6:42 p.m., the energy around my crown vibrated vigorously.  I 'got' it I should go.  I said to my guides and angels: "You must be kidding!  Why should I pay money to hear a lecture on soul mates?  Give me a reason."  Still, I 'got' it that I should go.  I continued to prepare our dinner.  I put rice in the rice cooker and corn beef in a pot of water.  Then I had an upset stomach.  The nudge for me to go to the center was strong.  I said: "Forget about it!  I am not going. It is almost 7 p.m."  My stomach hurt.  I had to go to the bathroom.  Meanwhile, the prompting to go to the Center continued.  Finally, I said: "Okay, I am going.  Please make sure I do not need to use the bathroom while I am there!"  Hurriedly, I gave instructions to my son as what to do with the food.

When I arrived at the Center, I walked in feeling very embarrassed because I was really late.  I sat down.  I was surprised at what I heard.  Soon I had to raise my hand and talked briefly about what I knew.  Then she talked about twin souls.  She said our twin souls were our opposites - if we were good, our twin souls were evil; if we were living a good life, our twin souls were probably in jail or living in poverty.  I had to raise my hand again.  I said: "As far as I know, it is not the case.  Twin souls complement one another . . ."  I was trembling because I really did not want to ruin her lecture.  A man at the back of the room yelled for me to shut up.  After I finished what I had to say, I did not raise my hand for the rest of the night.

I arrived very late.  Then I interrupted the lecture again and again.  There was no time for me to think, and I spoke up as I had.  Of course, I later realized I had put myself in the hot seat.

Strangely, after I spoke up, the lecturer said she knew she was a very young soul and not an old soul.  She said her present lifetime could be her first life on earth.  Though she had been a psychic for some years, she said this was her first lecture.  During the lecture, the owner of the center substantiated what I said with brief comments.  After I stopped raising my hand, she joined in making a comment here and there guiding the class in a positive direction.

Most of the people in attendance were teenage girls and women eager to learn how to find their future partners.  Some expressed fear when the lecturer said their twin souls were evil if they were good.  We could have different beliefs / philosophy, but it was a different matter for someone to teach something way off at the center.  The lecture was fear base, and could cause confusion for some in attendance.

When the lecture was over, I went to the owner of the center.  I apologized for my interruption.  I briefly told her why I was late for I had not planned to come to the lecture at all.  She said she had no idea the lecture was going to be liked that.  As the owner of the center, she could not speak as freely as I could.  She was very glad that I came.  She said it might be a test for me to see if I would speak up when I knew it was not the truth.  She also said the teacher of the Thursday circle would be very proud of me for speaking the truth.

It was a cold night.  I trembled as I drove home.  I put myself in the lecturer's shoes. It must be terrible for this was her first lecture.  I questioned my guides and angels for prompting me to go there.  

At home, I looked back at the events of the day.

It started with the talk that "being authentic is be who we really are and speak the truth."  Later, my friend's words reminded me of the reading in which I was told that it was important for me to speak the truth or what I knew.  When I saw the car with the 111 license plate, I had vowed to go where God wanted me to go.  When the owner of the center said it might be a test, I heard a 'ding' in my head as a confirming 'yes'.  I finally understood what happened during the day was the unfolding of a test!

Two days later, I had a long dream.  The facilitator of the Thursday circle and a woman came into my dream.  At the end of the dream, the teacher looked at me gently with love and compassion.  She turned me to face the woman who was in her 50 s with an oval face.  She also looked at me with love and compassion.  She started to sing "The Good In You".

Knowing that I might be beating myself up for ruining the woman's first lecture, the owner of the center must have called the facilitator about what happened.  As a loving teacher and friend, she could not wait until the next Thursday meeting.  She appeared in my dream with her guide or a master to comfort me.

I was able to restore my peace for I had never intended to hurt anyone, and I did not speak up out of self-righteousness.

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Since the above incident, I have found myself in places that I have not intended to go, and in similar unexpected situations a few more times.  (For examples, Part 1 - The Unexpected Incident that eventually led me to The Gathering)

A few people felt I was wrong to speak up.  They regarded my speaking up as not loving enough or an act of showing one's superiority.  My friends understood me and supported me.  They knew I never liked attention, and had no sense of superiority.   Over the years, I had come to understand people's outward reactions to a situation might not reflect the truth.  For instance, in the above case, the few that judged me might be there to help me learn the lesson of discernment.  The lecturer might be an instrument in the divine plan to test me if I would have the courage to speak up knowing what she said was not true.  Likewise, I could be an instrument in their life lessons as they formed a judgment of me when I spoke up.  (Please click to view We are all tools in the divine plan)

We are all interconnected.  We are all tools in the divine plan.  In my case, I examine my intention and my action.  I know I do not speak up out of ego, but out of love.  I am at peace.

Love,
Q of D

Our Voices Matter

Greetings!

In my last post A beautiful red heart on the TV screen, I connected my dream to the Sunday service because both had a beautiful red heart on the TV screen.

The church videotaped all the Sunday services.  We could borrow any DVD and watch it at home.  It was free.

I spoke at church for the first time in Jan. of 2010.  When it was over, I was very relieved that I had finished the assignment, a self-set assignment.  I did not borrow the DVD to see how I did that Sunday.  All I wanted was to connect with my brothers and sisters through sharing the lessons I learned, and I had done that.  After I spoke on Feb. 13, 2011, I did not think of borrowing the DVD too.  If the kind pastor had not given me the DVD, I would not have seen the last scene of a red heart on the wall and understood my dream of a heart on the TV screen.

Though the church I called my spiritual home was small, we had ten pastors.  They gave their time and money to support the church.  They had been on their spiritual journey for a long time.  They were wonderful speakers, musicians, healers and teachers.  On most Sundays, we also had speakers that came from other places and countries.  They were known spiritual teachers of all faiths, musicians, workshop facilitators, psychics / mediums and healers.  As far as I knew, they drove or flew to our church on their own expenses.  Their loving presence was felt and greatly appreciated by all.    

I mentioned my talk at church was a self-set assignment.  Indeed, it was.  One day after service, my friend urged me to consider holding another healing workshop.  I was very hesitant to do so.  I knew healing energy flowed through me to others as I sat among people.  However, I did not feel I was qualified to hold workshops***.  As my friend tried to convince me, I blurted out that I wanted an opportunity to talk to my brothers and sisters at church.  My friend who was on the board of directors looked at me.  Then she said, "I'll talk to the church about it."  Therefore, it was a self-set assignment for the church had not asked me to speak.

Since I was not comfortable speaking in English, why in the world did I ask to speak at church?

A while back, the church had invited some old members to come back and share with us their stories on their spiritual journey.  They were now guides and workshop facilitators to help others on their spiritual paths.  They were all loving, humble and truthful.  Their personal stories were amazing.  Their courage to following their callings was inspiring.  After listening to their talks, the urge within to follow their footsteps sounded loudly at night.  In time, the urge began to wane.  I told myself, "They are doctors and professionals.  They are highly educated and wonderful speakers.  I can't even speak English correctly.  I should forget about what I want to do (i.e. to share with my brothers and sisters about the lessons I learn)."

As I put it behind me, my guides and angels had their way of inspiring me.  One night, I could not sleep.  I grabbed a magazine from the night stand.  It was an old spiritual magazine.  This monthly magazine was published in the state* we used to lived.  After we moved, my older son paid for a year subscription as his Christmas gift for me.  He renewed the subscription a year later.  However, two months into that year, the editor decided the magazine had served its purpose.  There was no more publication after that.  Anyway, I opened the magazine and saw the name John St. Augustine.  The ignorant me had never heard of such a last name.  Out of curiosity, I began to read his story.  What he said touched my heart deeply.  It was his words that caused me to blurt out to my friend that I wanted an opportunity to speak and connect with my brothers and sisters at church.

In the interview, John St. Augustine, a well known inspirational speaker, radio talk show host and author, was asked if there was a story or a person that really stood out for him.  He said first and foremost was John Denver, a famous musician and singer.

Below were his words in the magazine.

Years ago in Boston, I was backstage with John Denver.  ...  We'd been friends for a while.  He put his hand on my shoulder and looked me in the eyes and said, "Do you have any idea how much your voice matters in the way things go?" . . . He reminded me of something that I'd forgotten or that had been buried within . . . Had he not said those words to me, I don't know what direction my life would or wouldn't have gone, but I think it was a precursor to getting on the air.  I think our voices all matter.  John did it in song.  I do it on the radio.  Oprah does it on TV.  We all do our own thing, but you have to remember that your voice matters first, before you ever use it.

John St. Augustine said, "I believe we've forgotten that our voices matter, or that we should be using our voices for creating or giving aid to a problem or challenge, as opposed to just talking about reality television or something.  We only have so much time here.  So what you put your voice to while you're here is pretty much of paramount importance."

Let us take in this brother's words of wisdom and remember Our Voices Matter.

Love,
Q of D

*We had moved back to this state five years ago.

*** I went to a 2-day healing workshop in March 2007.  The teacher told us she would come back to hold a class for teachers of the healing art in Oct. / Nov.  However, I had to move to another state in August.  Therefore, I never took a class for teachers.  With no qualification and little experience in healing, I did not see myself as a healer not to mention to hold a workshop.  However, a holistic store printed out their calendar with me holding a workshop in Feb. 2009 without asking me.  (Re A beautiful pink fish on the back of a white dove )  Eventually, I understood going to the Mar. 2007 workshop was but a process to remember what was within.

Who Smiles? Who Sees?

Greetings!

In the challenging restaurant years, I learned how stress and worries could age people.

I had toothache all the time.  I went to a dental office a couple of times, but dental care was more expensive than I could afford.  When I came out of the restaurant years, I had lost some teeth.  One of my front teeth was broken and the remaining portion was black / badly discolored.

Standing in front of a mirror one morning, I was shocked to see my eyelashes were almost gone or sparsely visible.  The hair on my eyebrows was thin and sparse.  I thought about my sons.  Oh, I loved them!  I wanted to be there for them.  I knew I must change in order to regain my health.

With the love of the Divine, my angels and guides, I survived.  Despite of all the challenges, I came out of the experience feeling grateful and jubilant.

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In May 2005, I stepped outside of my family to mix with people as my spirit guide said in a reading.  When I was with the circle, I allowed myself to break into laughter on a few occasions.  Laughing was contagious.  My friends had a good laugh too.  When I attended public gatherings such as church services, part of me was conscious of my front tooth.  I smiled, but I would call it a contained smile.

In 2011, I had a few strange experiences about my smile within a short period.

One day, I was with a small group.  We meditated.  Right when the meditation was over, the minister said, "Q of D, I happen to open my eyes during the meditation. You are like a smiling Buddha!  There is light all around you!  It is so beautiful!"  I could only smile for I did not know what to say.

One Sunday after service, a woman walked all the way across the chapel to where I stood.  She said, "You have the most wonderful smile!  Thank you for sharing with us your smile."  I was surprised.  I was sure I was not smiling (physically) during the closing circle.

A couple of weeks later, I attended service in another church.  (Other than the small church that I called my spiritual home, I went to this church every few weeks.)  When the service was over, a woman pointed at me.  She said to the others that I had always walked in with a smile full of joy and peace.

One day, the speaker at church was one who had a few near-death experiences. After his near-death experiences, he was very intuitive and open to the Divine.  From his talk, I could feel his genuine love for all things.  Soon after the service was over, I was surprised to find him standing next to me!  We hugged.  I bought a book written by him.  On it, he wrote -

                     (My name)
                     What a beautiful and giving smile you bring to this world!

I found these incidents about my smile puzzling.  What did people see?  I was sure sometimes I walked into the church just liked everybody else.  I did not think I was smiling.  One night, I held this question in my mind before I went to sleep.  When I woke up, I suddenly remembered in 2006 a stone reader*** had said something about my smile.  I could not recall what he said.  Two days later, I decided to find the tape of the reading.  I listened to the tape again.  I realized I forgot what was said of my smile because I was not ready to take in those words at the time of the reading.

"The archangels want you to be aware that you have the ability within yourself, just by being yourself, to help people to heal very old emotional wounds by just listening, by just encouraging, by being who you are, by being the person that you are; just being in a room with people, your wonderful smile can help people to heal very dramatically."

As I listened to the tape, I realized these incidents occurred to remind me of my life purpose.  Looking back at what happened since the reading, I found it to be true that many times people healed as I listened or talked to them.

In the above incidents, the human I might be peaceful, but I knew sometimes I had not smiled.  However, it was obvious the few people that talked to me had seen a wonderful smile on my face.

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I now realize the human I may not be smiling, but my true / higher self is.  The same applies to the few who see me smiling.  It is his or her intuitive higher self that sees.

With my personality, I originally do not want to share with you the story about my smile especially the words of the archangels.  However, as Oprah and Deepak said "we all come in with a purpose or a gift for the world."  My gift may be my smile, and your gift may be your talent in art / music.  We are all expressions of the Source / Creator, and each one of us is unique in our own ways.  I choose to share with you my experiences to show that we are far more than the human beings that we appear to be.  (Please click to view Oprah and Deepak's words of wisdom on Our Life Purpose )

Are you ready to unleash the magnificent YOU?*  Set your intention now.  Let all of us BE who we truly are.  (*Re my post Mark Romero and his healing music about the magnificent you.)

Love,
Q of D

***In 2006, a channel / psychic from another state came to the Center.  He was originally an engineer.  After a near-death experience, he came back to life liked a different person.  Suddenly, he could hear and talk to angels.  Later, he left his old life behind, and began fulfilling his life purpose.  When he came to the Center, he was known as "The Stone Reader".

About 25 people attended his talk at the Center.  He placed lots of crystals (or stones) on a table.  After sharing with us his story, he told us to pick two or three pieces of crystals from the table.  He then walked to a person and related the guidance from the angels.  I was the third person he talked to.  Most people left after he gave them the guidance.  The event was supposed to last for an hour and a half or two hours.  He had no obligation to read all the people there.  In settings like this, most psychics only read a portion of the group.  However, when the time was up, he continued to give people the information that came to him.  There was never a moment he tried to rush. His intention of service touched me.  I chose to stay because I wanted to thank and honor him for his spirit of service.

When he read the last person, three and a half hour had gone by.  I talked to the owner of the center that the stone reader was a wonderful being.  The owner who always treated me with love and respect said people had booked readings with the stone reader on the following day.  She said she had added my name and would pay for the reading!  I did not expect that.  I said I could not accept.  She insisted.  Finally, I said I would only come for a reading if she allowed me to pay for it by myself.  She said she would pay for the reading, and would go to my apartment If I did not come.

Oh, Sister, I cannot thank you enough for the love and support you have bestowed upon me.  

The Beauty of A Bouquet of Flowers

Greetings!

In my last post The Unveiling of A Divine Plan, I wrote that the prophecy of a divine plan that Matthew related was an answer to one of the questions I had since my Dec. 2001 reading.

Here is the story.

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In the last quarter of 1999, many times I woke up during the night, and was told to look at the clock.  It was always 4:44 am.  I did not know what to make of it.  At the time, I was going through the challenging restaurant years.  I had not begun to read spiritual books.  I did not know we had spirit guides and angels around us all the time.

One early morning, I woke up hearing a man's voice loud and clear.  He said only one sentence.  I thought I must have overheard a neighbor talking, but everywhere was very quiet.  It was the strangest sentence that I had ever heard, and there was no way it came from my mind / my imagination.

Not long after, I had more unexplainable mystical experiences.  For instance, I saw a pocket size green bible in our sons' bedroom.  (Our sons lived on campuses, and came home once every few weeks.)  I picked up the little bible.  The number of a page came to my mind.  I saw a name on the page.  I asked for another page number.  The same name also appeared on that page.  Months later, I had a similar experience when I held a book I borrowed from the library.  I saw the same name again.  These occurrences bothered me a lot.  Not knowing what to make of it, I tried to put them behind me.

Meanwhile, I happened to see numbers such as 444, 222, 333, and 1111 from time to time, e.g. time on the clock, total on receipts, invoice numbers, and license plates.  I eventually learned from books that they were sacred / angelic numbers, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love.  I also learned we all had our own spirit guides and angels.

The "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream" Phenomenon " experience opened up a whole new relationship between the Divine and me.  The Grace of God experience touched the core of my being.  I was grateful beyond words.  I wondered what was my life purpose and how might I serve.

Near the end of 2001, I finally made an appointment for a reading by phone with a well known intuitive / angel channel.  (We lived many states apart.)  Her voice was sweet, clear, and pure.  I was nervous to speak in English, but her voice calmed me.  (Re Seeing the Birds ... )

Through her, my spirit guide confirmed the early morning message was not my imagination.  He said that to me in order to shake me out of the rut.  (At the time, I worried a lot because of the challenging situations in the restaurant.)  My angels and guides said there was no time for me to play small, and I should go among people without delay.  They said I should teach more, write, and share my wisdom.

When I asked about my connection with the name, the channel saw an image of a woman taking me under her arm as her personal child; however, we were not related by blood.  My guides / angels explained we had lived similar lifetimes trying to prove we belonged to circles or families while others said we did not belong.  They said we had the same courage and strength.  Then the channel paused.  She said my guides and angels said I could recall the woman's past life as if my own.  They were showing her that it had something to do with the energetic template I brought with me in this lifetime, but she did not understand what it meant.  At that moment, the being (i.e. the woman) appeared.  The channel related her advice for me.  She talked about discernment, and said that I should not care what others said of me.

I asked about my life purpose.  They said it was very important for me to sit among people.  My guide also said, "Your individual divine plan stands and shines alone, yet it is part of a bigger divine plan.  It is like a beautiful bouquet of flowers.  The beauty of a bouquet of flowers comes from the beauty of each individual flower, with each flower complementing one another . . . ."

Since I was not comfortable speaking in English, I often listened without asking questions.  I had lots of doubts about what I heard, yet I did not say anything.

After the reading, I had more questions than answers.  I had not asked my guides and angels to explain why it was important for me to sit among other people.  They asked me to teach, write and share my wisdom.  My English was not good.  How could I teach and write?  Besides, what wisdom did I have?  What did it mean that the being took me under her arm as if her personal child yet we were not related by blood?  How could I recall her past life as if my own since we were two separate beings?  The channel said my guides and angels showed her an energetic template (?) that I brought with me into this lifetime, but she did not understand what they were trying to show her.  What did all of these mean?  For years, I also thought about the bigger divine plan mentioned in the reading.  What was it?  When would I join the others? 

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On the first day of the August workshop, a woman suddenly asked if anyone knew what 444 meant.  She said she kept seeing 444.  Before I said anything, Matthew excitedly said he often saw 444 in the beginning of his spiritual journey.  At that time, he did not know what it meant.  Now, he still  saw 444 as well as 1111 coincidentally from time to time.  He said 444 and 1111 were sacred angelic numbers.  I smiled.  I did not say anything because it was the master healer's workshop.  "444, what a connection!" I thought.

On the second day, the spiritual teacher signaled for Matthew to relate the prophecy and the divine plan.  It was a total surprise to me.  However, I knew the bigger divine plan was finally revealed.  (See P. S. 4)

In love and truth, I share with you my experience.

Peace and blessings,
Q of D

P. S.
1. In the 2001 reading, my angels and guides said I would soon enter a period of influx.  They told me what to do / pray for.  Instead of feeling excited and following their advice, I did the opposite.  I shared that experience in my post Do you really mean what you pray for? with the hope that others might learn from my mistake.

2. After we sold the restaurant, I gradually stepped out of my comfort zone to sit among people.  Many times I felt powerful energy flowed into me.  I understood I might be a conduit of healing, but I did not know how the energy worked.  In June of 2009, I borrowed some books from the library.  One of the books was interesting yet difficult to read.  It was by a great channel.  There were many things that I had never heard of.  Some terms were challenging to my mind.  Sometimes I had to reread a page.  At night I went to bed with that book.  Later, I happened to read two pages that answered most of the questions I had mentioned above.  It was a night I would never forget.  ( About the night of June, 2009, please click to view The Conclusion of the Mystery of a Sister )

3. In 2011, I used the words of my spirit guide on "The beauty of a bouquet of flowers" in my talk at church.

4. In time, I realized this was not the bigger divine plan that was said in the reading.  However, what had happened was in divine order.  My participation in the eventual gatherings solved the mystery of a strange dream that I had decades ago.  (Re A Strange Dream )

The Rainbow and the Spiritual Teacher from another country

Greetings!

The second day of the workshop was not a whole day event as the first day.  It was a three-hour meeting in the late afternoon.

When I saw the schedule online, I felt it was odd.  Why would we meet three hours in the late afternoon?  Why not in the morning or in the early afternoon?  I assumed the healers might have other commitment earlier that day.

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The workshop was held in a therapy office owned by the young man that had taken the time to talk to my son about keeping an open mind toward spiritual matters.  (Re I asked to be a source of healing, and I was )  In this post and other posts that will follow, I would call him Matthew (not his real name).

The organizer of the group, the couple* that had graceful allowed the use of their house for previous gatherings, and some of its group members that I met in June were also at the workshop.  (*I would call them Samuel and Beth.)

On the first day, each chair was originally placed along the walls with ample space for people to move around.  Later, more chairs were brought in to accommodate people that came.  The room became crowded.  It seemed many at the workshop had not signed up online.

During a break, a young man that sat next to Matthew walked to me.  He told me he flew in from another state for this particular event.  He was also a therapist, and had been working in Matthew's office in that state.  It was then I learned Matthew owned therapy office(s) in other state(s).

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On the second day, I arrived at the place a few minutes early.

I was surprised to see new faces kept walking in.  They were young men and women in their 20 s or 30 s.  They did not come on the first day.  This did not happen in other two-day workshops that I had attended.  Later, I learned they were either Matthew's friends or employees.  They had flown in from other state.

After everybody sat down, the master healer asked if anybody had any special experience after the first day of the workshop.  A woman said she felt warmer than usual.  Another woman briefly said something.  Then people sat there quietly.  I decided to talk about the rainbow.

I said, "When I went for a walk in the evening, I saw a big, beautiful rainbow in the sky.  To me, that is a divine sign.  It signifies the presence of a realized one."  (To be honest, this simply came out of my mouth, but I was at peace with what I said.)

Matthew rose from his chair with excitement.  He said, "After the workshop, we went to Samuel's house to listen to the spiritual teacher's discourse.  During meditation, many saw (in their mind-eyes ??) a rainbow appeared above the spiritual teacher's head."

The spiritual teacher from another country was known as a realized one (or self-realized).  What a confirmation it was to see a rainbow in the sky while many saw a rainbow above the teacher in the house!

The master healer asked how many people saw the rainbow in the sky.  Only a few raised their hands.  People probably stayed inside, and did not see the rainbow.  That evening, there were people taking walks as I did, but most saw the rainbow as nothing special.  It was all meant to be.  The touch (or sign) of God was a personal experience.  There was no right or wrong.  

Samuel walked forward and told us the spiritual teacher would come at 5:30 pm.  At this point, I kind of understood why those young men and women flew in for this particular event.

During the workshop, the master healer asked the clairvoyant healer to work on the young man that came to talk to me the day before.  It was then I learned the young man needed healing for he was in a serious accident.  The clairvoyant healer worked on the young man for quite some time.  He was a wonderful healer.  He was humble and honest.

Some healers could sense or see where or what to work on when people came to them for healing.  I could neither sense nor see.  That was why I did not know the young man needed healing.  Some people told me I was a natural healer.  I did not know what it meant.  When people thanked me for healing them, I was as grateful as they were for the love of the Divine.

At 5:30 pm, the spiritual teacher walked in with some people.  In the next half hour, I would hear something that I had never expected.  I would understand why some people flew in from other state just to be there that late afternoon.

Life is a mystery, and the story continues.

Many blessings,
Q of D  
   

The Amazing Divine Plan continues

Greetings!

This morning I listen to 'Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream' on YouTube.

It had been 15 or 16 years since the day I loudly proclaimed "Let this music be my link to the Divine".  At the time, I did not know the title of the music.  I loved it so much that I simply did what I did.  Afterward, I laughed at my childlike behavior.  The human I did not really believe it would happen as I asked.

If you have been reading my blog, you know it did happen as I asked.  This piece of music brought me much comfort, peace, and joy during those challenging years.  (The Incredible 'Night Vision - Piece of a Dream' Phenomenon )

"Ask and you shall receive."  So it is.

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In my last post, I wrote that I had not signed up for a gathering that would take place on a weekday evening because I worked evenings.  However, the Divine had it planned out.  When I went to work, I was nicely surprised I did not have to go to work on that particular evening.  (Re my post Divine Plan At Work )

A few days ago, I learned the amazing Divine plan continued.

I mentioned a spiritual teacher had come from another country.  There would be a gathering in his honor on a Sunday.  Since I did not have to work on Saturdays and Sundays, I signed up to hear his talk.  From the online information, I knew he would facilitate a one-week evening retreat after that Sunday.  It was free, and all were welcome.

On Monday, I got an email from the company I worked for.  A woman that used to work in the morning had other obligations, and would soon no longer be able to come in the morning.  However, she needed the income.  She asked the company if she could work in the evening.  The company asked if I would switch time with her.  I gladly gave her the evening hours.  Amazingly, the woman asked to start working evenings on the date that the 7-day retreat would begin!

I had never met or talked to the woman.  Of course, she knew nothing about the spiritual gathering or retreat.

How everything has worked out is indeed beyond my imagination!

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When I said "Let this music be my link to the Divine", the human I did not know much about angels and spirit guides.  As I began to pay more attention to the touches of the Loving Divine, my life was changed.  Incidents such as The Grace of God, The Hot Coffee Incident, and The Healing in the Washroom filled my heart with gratitude that no words could describe.  As a result, I vowed to commit to the Will of God / the Divine Plan.  I asked to be an instrument wherever I am.  I wanted to be of service and lived a purposeful life.

It has been four years since I moved back to this state.  I am glad I have met up with some loving spiritual brothers and sisters.  I look forward to the workshop by the two healers from another state as well as the one week spiritual retreat by the teacher from another country.

To my guides, angels, and all the wonderful beings that are involved in how things have unfolded, thank you!

Love & Blessings,
Q of D

Divine Plan At Work

Greetings!

I am excited about August, 2016!

The two healers from another state will come back and hold a workshop later this month.  I have signed up for their workshop.  (Re Two Powerful Healers from Another State )

A spiritual teacher (or master) from another country will be here in August.  The gathering will be on a Sunday.  I gladly sign up because I do not have to work on Saturdays and Sundays.

I also learned the young man that talked to my son in the healing gathering had written a book.  (Re I asked to be a source of healing to the others, and I was )  There will be a book signing event at a church in an evening.  The young man's spiritual teacher*** will speak and bless those that come.  (*** The same teacher as mentioned above, but these are two separate events on different dates.)

I did not sign up for the book signing event in a church because I worked evenings during weekdays.  I never thought of taking that evening off because I knew I would meet the spiritual teacher on a later date (about 10 days from the book signing event).

However, the Divine had another plan.  When I went to work last week, I was told that I would not have to go to work on that particular evening.  I was all smiles hearing the unexpected good news.

Have a great August!

Love and blessings,
Q of D

The Divine knows what will happen and an Earth Angel awaits

Greetings!

In the evening, an old man in a motorized wheelchair, his wife, and a caregiver got into an elevator.  They were going to get out on the ground floor and stroll around the apartment building outside.

The old man was excited yet anxious.  He broke his spine some years ago, and had to use a heavy motorized wheelchair to move around.  With the spinal issue, he incurred other health problems, e.g. his legs and feet were badly swollen.  The last two years had been difficult.  He had strokes, and the latest one happened earlier this year.  For months, he suffered from constant severe pain in his back, feet, legs, and other parts of his body.  Fortunately, his condition had improved in recent weeks.  It was the first time in two years that he felt he was up to a stroll outside.

As for the wife, she was somewhat filled with trepidation.  Her husband was big and tall.  The wheelchair was old.  It did not function as well as it had been.  She was old, and the caregiver was shorter than she was.  If something went wrong, they would not be able to carry her husband.  Despite of her worries, she did not want to spoil the plan for she was glad that her husband felt well enough for a stroll.

The caregiver could kind of sensed how they felt.  In her heart, she assured the woman that everything was going to be alright, "Don't worry!  Our angels will watch over us.  It is going to be a good experience."  She came to work for them not long ago.  She did not talk to them about angels or what she believed in.

They came out of the apartment building.

Right away, the caregiver spotted a man standing in a distance.  He was waving to them with a big, friendly smile.  Naturally, the caregiver returned his kind gesture by waving to him with a big smile.  The man had a muscular physique.  She asked the old couple if they knew him.  They did not know him.  Seeing how friendly he was, they waved to him too.

It was a quiet evening.  The wife and the caregiver talked while walking behind the old man.  Soon they saw him riding his wheelchair at a speed faster than normal. His wife yelled for him to slow down, but he did not seem to hear.  The caregiver had to run to stop the wheelchair.  When the wife caught up with them, she admonished her husband.  The old man said they should relaxed for he knew his wheelchair well.

When they came around to the entrance of the apartments again, the caregiver suggested for them to go back to the apartment.  However, the wife wanted to go to an area by the side of the building where there were tables and chairs.  When her husband was healthy, they used to sit there after taking a walk, she said.
 
To get to that area, they must go through a curvy, narrow path.  The old man said it would be difficult for him to maneuver the wheelchair through.  His wife said he could make it if he drove slowly.  He said it was risky, but he drove onto the path as she said.  Within seconds, the front wheels of his wheelchair went up on the bricks that paved the sides of the path.  The wheels stuck between the bricks, and the man could neither move the wheelchair forward nor backward.  The man and the wheelchair were now sloping to one side.

The wife said, "What are we going to do?  There is no way we can lift him and the wheelchair.  It is late.  We cannot get any help from the apartment office."  The caregiver bent down to see if she could do something to free the wheels from the bricks.  As she did, she saw from the corner of her eyes that the muscular man was running very fast in their direction.  She said, "Oh!  He is coming to help us!"

The man easily lifted the wheels off the bricks.  He picked up the wheelchair and put it back to safety.  (The big motorized wheelchair with the old man on it must weigh hundreds of pounds!)  The two women watched in awe of his strength.  Meanwhile, they kept thanking him.  The man let out a broad smile before he ran away.

When they were back in the apartment, the old woman said she could not help thinking about the possible dire outcome if the man had not come to help.  The caregiver lightly patted her shoulder.  With her hand pointing upward, the caregiver said, "The Divine is watching over us today.  Let us tell the Divine how grateful we are."  Immediately, the expression on the woman's face changed to that of peace and gratitude.  She told her husband what the caregiver said.  The old man said, "Yes, we should!"  Together, they expressed their gratitude to the Loving Divine.

Love,
Q of D

P. S.  In the following 2 weeks, the old woman and the caregiver had gone over to the other building to look for the earth angel in order to thank him again.  They could not find him.  When they asked around, nobody seem to know such a man.  The old woman said her husband used to weigh above 220 lbs., but weighed 195 lbs. at that time.  With the heavy motorized wheelchair, the total weight could be near 340 lbs.  The muscular earth angel easily lifted up the wheelchair with the old man.  How often did someone you did not know wave at you from a distance?  He ran fast too.  The caregiver could not help but wondered if she had seen an earth angel or an angel that manifested in human form to come to their aid.   

The Intricacy of a Divine Plan

Greetings!

In the evening of Friday, June 3, I helped a woman taking out the trash from her apartment.

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In my post A car with a license plate that bore the name of my angel, I wrote I went for a job interview, but I was hesitant to accept the assignment.  After seeing the sign (i.e. the license plate), I decided to give the job a try.

For the last two weeks, I had been going to an apartment where a woman and her husband lived.  They were in their 80 s and 90 s.  The husband was wheelchair bound.  I cooked supper for them and helped around the house.

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I put the trash into the dumpster.  On the way back, the woman suddenly said it was around April 20 that her husband had the second stroke.  He was in the hospital for weeks.  Later, she was hospitalized too.

April 20 was the day that did not turn out as I had planned.  What a coincidence!  If that day had gone on as I had planned, I would not be working for this couple.  I realized it was not by chance I met them.  I did not like asking questions.  If she did not talk about their hospitalization while we took out the trash, I would not have learned about the intricacy of the divine plan.  (Click to view the post The day did not turned out as I had planned).

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The company had provided other caregivers to come in and help this couple during different times of the day.  Originally, I told the company I only wanted to work two or three evenings, but the woman kept asking me to help her out.  I ended up helping them more evenings than I preferred.  The woman said she was too old to take care of her husband, and many caregivers left after working for a while.  It was a challenge for me too because the woman and her husband were much taller and bigger than I was.  I hope the company would find the right person to help them soon.

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We all get old someday.  Taking care of the old couple helps me see the aging aspect of life.

From a day that did not turn out as I had planned to the license plate of a car with the name of my angel as well as the special 53 connection, and finally the talk after taking out the trash, life is more intriguing than how it looks on the surface.  (Yes, the sentence is long and incorrect grammatically.  I hope you understand what I write.  I am smiling.  I hope you are too.)

Love,
Q of D