Expectations, Total Disappointment, and The Three Tests

Greetings!

While looking through the plastic totes for the transcript (Re As we give, we also receive ), I saw an old notebook turned to a page that I had marked 5 stars on the top indicating either a profound experience or a very interesting dream.  

The 5 stars profound experience took place in the early hours of April 13, 2005.  

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Early 2005, I learned from a spiritual magazine that a known spiritual teacher and a famous medium would be coming to our state to host an event in April.  I had read their books, and found their stories fascinating.  I had never gone to any public spiritual event like that before.  I thought how exciting it would be if I could go, but the ticket price was too expensive.  It might be I had never spent much money on myself or for my own needs / wants.  Besides, it was not near where I lived, and I did not know how to drive there by myself.  Above all, I could not register online because I did not have a credit / debit card (at the time).

Weeks later in a conversation with my younger son, I mentioned the event.  He asked if I wanted to go.  I said it was too expensive.  He said he would go with me.  He said I should not be concerned about money - it was only a one time expense because we did not go to this kind of events all the time.  (His words are always assuring and wise! 😊😊)  I said I would think about it.  I did not give him a firm answer because I knew he was not interested in the event as I did.  Was it worth going since we would be paying for two tickets instead of one?  In the days / weeks that followed, I prayed for an answer if we should or should not go.

Before I went to sleep on March 1, 2005, I thought it would be nice if I could go to the event.  With that thought in mind, I had a hard time of falling asleep.

The next morning (Mar. 2, 2005) I watched the Sylvia Browne on Montel Williams TV show.  Later, I decided to go to my bedroom to make up for the lack of sleep.  For a while, I sat on bed chanting.  I sent love to God / the Holy Spirit, all loving angels and guides, and my loved ones.  I felt my whole being was vibrating and energized.  Afterward, I lay in bed.  I thought how nice it would be if I could win some money and go to the event with both of my sons.  If my mother's spirit came through during the event, it could be a transformative experience for them.  Then this thought came - "in this life, I will walk on earth and live my life as an earth angel to bring peace, comfort and healing to the others."  Right afterward, I found myself rose from bed and pressed the radio button.

           

           The music 'Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream' started !!!!!

It was the music that I had proclaimed years ago as the link between the Divine and me!  The music started right at the touch of the button, not before or after the music had begun!  My whole being was filled with awe.  There were no words to express how wonderful, how grateful, and how blessed I felt.  What a confirmation from the Loving Divine of my intention to be of service! (Please view Night Vision - Pieces of A Dream - An Incredible Phenomenon )  Later, the date 'March 10' came to my mind.  I took it as my younger son would register before or by that date if we were supposed to attend the event.

On March 10, my younger son told me he would go to the event with me.  He asked his brother if he wanted to go too.  My older son said, "Yes, I will go with you and Mom."  They said it was their gift for me.  I stood there in awe of what had happened.  He went online to register for the event.  On March 25, we received the tickets to the event. 

With everything all set, I began to envision what I wished to happen during the event.  I hoped to get a reading by the medium.  Would my dear mother come through?  I thought about the relatives that were now on the other side such as my grandfathers (paternal and maternal).  I was excited the spiritual teacher came to our state.  I had not met him before.  I hoped to have a chance to talk to him.  (There was a personal reason I wanted to talk to him.)  

On the day of the April event, I was awakened during my sleep to see 4:44 a.m.  (444 means the Power of God's Love)  I took it as a confirmation that something special was going to happen!

With high expectations, I went to the event.  I sat inside the car with gratitude - grateful to the Divine as well as to my sons who accompanied me.  I expected the ride and in fact everything would go smoothly.  After all, my younger son did it on his own to register online on March 10.  Going to the event with my sons must be in divine order, I thought.  And, seeing 4:44 a.m. on the day of the event was a confirmation!

My younger son had looked up the directions online.  (At the time, we did not have a GPS device.)  We left our apartment early because we did not want to be late.  However, there was a lot of traffic.  I recalled we might have missed a turn.  To put a long story short, we walked into the auditorium just minutes before the speaker came on the stage; the place was packed with thousands of people (that was my guess), and the only seats that were available were at the end of the auditorium (i.e. by the back wall of the auditorium)!  It was a huge auditorium.  From where I sat, I could barely see the stage.  The spiritual teacher talked for quite some time.  Then he said he was going to guide us into an exercise.  I began to cough hard.  I went to the restroom until I stopped coughing.  When I came back, the lecture / the first half of the event was over.  Of course, later I was not among the few that received readings from the medium.  What the teacher and the medium taught were nothing new to me because I had read their books.  On the way home, I was quiet.  I was deeply disappointed at how things had unfolded.  I believed sons suggested for us to eat at a restaurant, and I said 'no'.  It was my fault that we spent hundred of dollars for nothing, I thought.      

Earlier that month, I had experienced some disappointment in another matter.  After the event, I was in a state of total disappointment.  Everything that led up to the event seemed to be divinely planned!  I did not sleep well at night.  The next day I slept until almost noon.  Later in the afternoon my husband and I went shopping for grocery.  In the car, words seemed to come to me, but I refused to listen.  I turned on the CD player, and sang the song.  I looked at the scenery outside.  Suddenly, my head turned to look at the time inside the car.  It was 4:44 p.m.!  I practically stopped singing right there.  I took a deep breath.  444 the Power of God's Love . . . . but I did not know what to think of all of these.  

At night I spent my time watching TV.   At one point, I thought other people needed to hear the messages from the medium more than me.  It was true.  Though I sat far from the stage, I could hear the pain in the voices of the few that were chosen by the medium.  The messages delivered by the medium brought them comfort and healing.  I recalled feeling happy for those that received messages.  With this thought, I calmed down somewhat.  However, I still felt frustrated and disappointed.  The whole thing was like a set up.  I was emotionally hyped because all that happened before the event, and I fell down hard afterward.  

When I went to bed, I still did not want to pray or talk to my guides and angels.  I rarely had dreams of anger.  In the morning of April 12, I actually woke up from a dream in which I yelled at other people.  The energy above and around my head vibrated throughout the day.  At times the vibration was intense.  I got it there was a lesson for me to learn.  Below was what I wrote down on my journal before I went to sleep.

Angels and guides, any words from you.  

Was I wrong to have expectations?

Oh, never mind.  I am going to sleep.  As I said, if nothing happened, I would drop the whole thing ***.  I am not going to waste my energy on it.  

I have enough of this.

Good Night.

(*** i.e. stopped searching for the truth regarding the message I received in the last quarter of 1999 and the questions I had after the 2001 reading by the known angel channel)  

I could laugh at myself now 😁😁😁 as I read my journal.  I was upset because it did not unfold as I had hoped.  I was an ordinary person like most of you, and had gone through many life lessons.  

It takes me a long time to learn how true it is that my guide said 'you can be happy no matter what' and You feel pain because you let pain be . Emotions are part of a physical life, and it is important for us to take responsibility of our own emotional wellbeing.  

In the early hours of April 13, 2005, I tried to not think about anything.  The harder I tried not to think, the harder for me to fall asleep.  Soon it was 4 a.m.  (My husband was practicing the moves downstairs.)  I said in my heart I would not pray or turn on the light to read a book.  (Both I would normally do when I could not sleep.)  

I sighed.  I pulled the blanket over my head.  Immediately, I felt something was happening.  I asked, "What is happening to me?"  I seemed to be dissolving or being absorbed by other force.  I felt my body or boundary no longer existed.  In this shock, I found I was not in fear!  In a calm and firm manner, I telepathically said, "I believe in the all loving God."  I saw an eye.  Then the force that tried to absorb me vanished.

Before I could recover from the first incident, I was in another state.  I found my whole being was expanding and expanding.  Again, I asked, "What is happening to me?"  I thought I might be leaving my body for an astral journey or that was how one felt when one was about to go on an astral travel.  I felt my being was about to explode.  I also felt the presence of a force, and understood that force was the cause of what was taking place.  Again, I had no fear.  I firmly stated "I believe in the loving God."  I kept repeating what I believed in.  The force that caused me to almost explode vanished.  I was back to myself. 

I pulled the blanket aside.   Widely awoke, I knew I was not dreaming.  I went over my experience. I could still recall the 'terrible' state I was in when I felt my body was dissolving.  I marveled at how firm and sure that I calmly stated "I believe in the all loving God."  When I soon found myself expanding and about to explode, my first response was shock.  Right then, I said what I believed in.  I was calm and peaceful.  

So there I was, laying on bed widely awoke with my eyes closed, recalled what had just happened.  Then I had the third experience of the night.

In my mind eye, my husband wearing all white climbed onto the bed.  He wanted to . . ., and I refused to submit to him.  He madly yelled at me saying something like "you are my wife!  How dare you . . ."  The man in white looked very fierce as if he was really going to get me.  Again, I was calm and peaceful.  I firmly stated "I believe in God, the all loving God.  The god you believe in is not the loving force.  That is why I will not let you."  As soon as I said that, he vanished.  I understood the man was the evil force disguised as my husband.  

Still with my eyes closed, I got the understanding that I had passed 3 tests.  I was proud that the faith of the real / true me was (is) as should be - sure, firm, and never wavered.  I also got it with my eyes closed that the time on the clock was 4:42 a.m. turning to 4:43 a.m.  I opened my eyes, and rushed to see the time.  It was 4:43 a.m.  My heart was filled with awe.  I said, "God, angels, and guides, you used to wake me up at 4:44 a.m.  Tonight I am going to watch the time turns to 4:44 a.m.  I am open to receive the Power of God's Love."  After seeing 4:44 a.m., I lay down and fell asleep.

Something interesting happened later that night too.  

My younger son and I were talking by the dining table in the kitchen.  My husband was in the family room.  There was a wall that separated the kitchen area and the family room.  My husband asked, "Why do you leave the TV on Ch. 4?  Shouldn't you be watching American Idol on Ch. 2?"  Earlier, I had watched part of American Idol; when commercial came on, I turned to watch Alias on Ch. 7.  In other words, I had been watching both Ch. 2 and Ch. 7.  (Yes, I live a pretty ordinary / normal life.)  When I went to the kitchen, I must have accidentally left the TV on Ch. 4.  I told my husband to simply turn to Ch. 2 if he wanted to watch American Idol.  Soon he asked why I left the TV on Ch. 4 again.  I told him to turn to Ch. 2 if he wanted to watch American Idol.  Not long after, he asked me the same question again.  So I walked over to the family room with the intention to turn the TV to Ch. 2.  I did not change the channel.  On the TV was a talk about Dan Brown's book.  It was said Jesus and Mary of Magdalene had a daughter.  I realized it did not happen by accident that Ch. 4 was on.  That night I lay in bed wondering if I would ever get some answers to my questions.  I knew my search for truth or answers would continue.  (Please view my post  If we love Jesus, how can we slight the one he loves the most and you will understand why I realized the Ch. 4 incident did not happen by accident. )  

All of these happened on April 13, 2005.  The number 13 was (is) a significant number on my spiritual journey.  For instance, on June 13, 2009 I got the answers that I had been looking for from a book which was confirmed in a channeled reading a few years later.  (Re Sometimes I never know how a day is going to be )  On June 13, 2016 I signed up for Meetup, and had since joined many interesting zoom meetings.  There were many people with special gifts and abilities.  It was amazing to listen to their stories.

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2005 was one of the important years on my spiritual journey.  On Sundays from late Feb. to March, 2005, I stepped outside of my family to sit among hundreds of peoples for the very first time.  On March 20, 2005, I delivered a copy of the words of Christ to the pastor and left.  (Re Words of Christ and the 4444 Incident - Part 2 )  On May 26, 2005 I joined the Thursday Circle.  In 2005 my husband continued to spend lots of hours in practicing the moves, and did not look well.  I was quite worried about him.  It was by divine grace that I received love and support from my friends at the circle.

Many Blessings,

Q of D

FYI - I might have a connection with Mary the Magdalene, but I was not her or her daughter. 

My thought and the outcome

Greetings!

Recently, I happened to pick up a print-out of an incident among my notebooks.  The incident took place on August 31, 2011.  I wrote down what happened after I was home that night.  I had forgotten the details.  As I read it, I felt this experience was worth sharing.

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I went to a forum.  The auditorium was completely filled.  I saw some of my friends from the small church.  I also saw a friend from the Unity church that I went to once in a while.  We were excited to be there.  The presenter was very loved and highly respected.  She had come with her daughter.  I had heard about the presenter, but it was the first time I saw her.  She laughed freely as she shared with us the interesting stories of her life.  Every now and then, she played the piano.  Her music brought forth her joy.  Though many of us had heard or read about her life story, we felt blessed to be in her presence that night.  Her enthusiasm of life was contagious that seemed very much to be part of our nature.  

Near the end of the gathering, there was a drawing for prizes.  The presenter had donated a few of her books, her music CD, and her husband's book as prizes.  A holistic store had also donated two gift certificates.  Altogether, there might be about 12 prizes.  (Not sure about the actual number of prizes)  We had put our names on small pieces of paper and placed them in a basket.  The host of the event (another wonderful soul) randomly asked a woman in the audience to come up the stage to pick names from the basket.  

Many of my friends voiced how much they wish they would win the books or CD.  I would love to read the presenter or her husband's books too.  If the presenter had brought with her some of their books for sale, I would have bought one.  Seeing the filled auditorium, I thought, "Those who win a prize deserve the prize, and I am happy for them."  

The woman picked a paper from the basket, and handed it to the presenter.  The presenter announced the name, and that person went up the stage to receive the prize.  As this went on, I said in my heart to every person that won a prize 'I am happy for you'.  I let go of wanting to win anything.  After the books and CD, someone received the holistic store's first gift certificate.  Before they drew a winner for the second gift certificate, I suddenly thought, "I have not visited the store since I held my workshop there.  I know it has moved to a new location.  If it is in the divine plan that I should visit the store again in the new location, then I will win this gift certificate."  Just then, I heard the presenter called my name!  

(Re the store and my first workshop, please view A beautiful pink fish on the back of a white dove )

When the gathering was over, I talked to my friends.  Before I left, I thought I should go to thank the presenter.  It was truly an honor to meet her.  There was a line of people that wanted to talk to her.  I waited.  After a while, the woman in front of me did not want to wait any longer.  She left.  I stayed because I wanted to hug the presenter.  When I finally stood in front of the presenter, she looked into my eyes for a while as I looked into hers.  Then we hugged.  She said, "Do I pronounce your name right, (she said my name including my married name)?  She just saw my name earlier on a piece of paper, and we had not met before this night.  Many people found it hard to say or remember my name.  There she was saying my name right in every way.  At 91, her mind / memory was truly incredible.

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I used 'my thought and the outcome' as the title of this post.  It was interesting how my thought correlated with the outcome. 

I found out online that the presenter had moved on in 2019 at the age of 99.  I could not visualize, and had a hard time of recalling faces of people that I met.  However, I could easily remember her face, her laughs and her joyful expression of the love of life.

To the wonderful sister and teacher, thank you!

Love,

Q of D

Suddenly, I wanted to capture the magnificence of the Sun

Greetings!

In the morning of September 3, I went for a walk in the school field.  The temperature was perfect (about 63 degrees).  Despite of some clouds, the sun was shining brilliantly.  Seeing the beautiful sun, my heart was filled with joy.  

I saw a gaggle of geese all over the grass.  There were over 60 of them, the most I had seen this summer.  This day I had no intention of taking pictures of the geese for I had already taken some the other day.  For quite a while, I stood still watching the geese because I did not want to disturb them.

Before I began to walk again, I suddenly wanted to take a picture of the sun.  Though there were some clouds near the sun, I felt the magnificence of the sun.  I wanted to capture it on camera.  I took the phone out of my pocket.  In a hurry, I swiped the screen to turn on the camera.  (I did not key in my pin.)  Swiftly, I turned to face the sun with the phone over my eyes so as to protect my eyes.  I pressed the white dot to take a picture.  The screen remained dark as if no picture had been taken.  I pressed the white dot a few more times.  All the while, the screen of my phone was completely dark except the white dot of taking pictures.  Afterward, I tried to see if I had successfully taken any picture.  The screen of my phone continued to be dark.  It might be I had not turned on the outdoor mode.  I thought I would find out if I had taken some pictures or not at home.

When I was home, I turned on my phone.  I was astonished!  Within less than a minute, I had taken four pictures.  In a sequence, these four pictures captured something unusual that went on beyond the capability of my physical eyes!

The first picture showed a luminous green or turquoise round object in the sky way below the sun.  Meanwhile, some purple energy in a sloping / slanting position above the grass was seen on the picture just a few feet from where I stood.  If not captured on camera, I did not know the purple energy (a being?) was right there.

The next picture showed the luminous turquoise object continued to go up in the sky, and the purple energy was at a distance behind.

In the third picture, the luminous object and the purple energy were high in the sky.  In the background were the clouds by the sun.  The mass of the purple energy was now bigger than the turquoise round object.  (When zoomed in, the luminous object was not really round.)  

In the last picture, the luminous object and the purple energy had flown past the clouds and appeared at the level of the sun.  In this picture, the luminous object was in a big, oval field of green / turquoise of light.  The beautiful mass of purple energy continued to follow (or pursue) in a near distance.

I wish I could show you the pictures, but I did not know how to download them.  I did not use Google Photo.  Again and again, I found myself way behind in the world of technology.

According to the details on my phone, I had taken the pictures in less than one minute.  In other words, the luminous object and the purple energy rose up in an incredible speed.  The purple energy was on the grass near me, yet my physical eyes had not detected it.  Of course, I did not see anything unusual in the sky since my attention was on the geese.  

It was amazing how I suddenly wanted to capture the magnificence of the sun.  I was in such a hurry that I did not understand why.  If there was any hesitation on my part, I would have missed capturing the purple energy and the luminous turquoise object on camera.  This experience brought me back to 'living by being'.  In my last post, I had promised to write on what I learned about 'living by being'.  (Re He asked, "We all have expectations. How can I simply live by being?" )  In a way, living by being is to follow our inner guidance even though we might not understand why.  An experience that happened on Sept. 5 also showed me another aspect of living by being which I would share with you in my next post.

May peace be with you always.

Love and blessings,

Q of D

Sometimes I never know how a day is going to be

Greetings!

In my post Covid-19 and Natalie Glasson''s channeled messages , I mentioned I signed up for an 8-week lecture series.  We had the first lecture on March 7 in a center.  After the governor posted the guidelines for covid-19, the remaining lectures were scheduled as online events.  (I signed up for the whole series, but some people chose to attend the lectures they were interested in.)  Last Sunday was the last lecture.

The lecturer was the young man I wrote about in What Is Love?  His talks on the 14-chakra system was very interesting.  I appreciated and respected his way of teaching.  He was always peaceful and patient.  He used his psychic and clairvoyant gifts appropriately in answering questions so as to bring about healing.  He shared what he knew, and was open to other people's views.  When we asked something he did not know, he was honest about it.  He had spent thousands of hours in seeking the knowledge he now shared.  His dedication was admirable and respectable.

Each lecture was on a different subject about chakras or archetypal energies / patterns.  It lasted for an hour and a half.  After sharing his knowledge and answering questions, he usually offered to give short reading on the subject matter.  Many people volunteered or wanted to be read.  With limited time left, he usually only read 3 or 4 people.  As with sitting among people, I enjoyed observing or listening.  I had not volunteered to be read ***.

*** One time he asked all of us to choose a number between one to a million.  He said he had decided on a number.  He would read the one(s) who chose a number that matched his or a number that was closest to his number.  I decided to participate because the idea of picking a number was fun.  I believed I typed in 849.  It turned out the number he chose was 1.  There was no match.  On the computer screen were numbers with six digits.  One person happened to have a dot before a series of numbers.  When asked to clarify, that person said the dot was a decimal.  Therefore, it was the number that was closest to 1.  If I recalled correctly, this person ended up being the only one that the lecturer read that day.  (Don't you see how interesting life is!)  By the way, this online lecture was not a video chat kind of event.  Other than the names, the attendees did not know how each other looked like.  We typed in our questions and comments using the computer.  The lecturer was able to read us or see our energies using his psychic and clairvoyant gifts.

June 13 was the day for the second last lecture.  I woke up late and almost forgot about the lecture.  I was probably the last one to log into the event.

As with other times, some participated actively by asking questions.  I listened and had not thought of asking any question.  About three quarters into the lecture, I suddenly typed in a question about energy.  With my question, the lecturer began to talk about my energies and what he saw.  He drew a picture showing healing energies constantly flowed out of an upper chakra like the frequencies of a radio.(There was more to what he said, but this was how I chose to relate.)  He asked me to collaborate.  I did not expect this to happen.  I felt somewhat anxious as I typed a few sentences to collaborate what he said.  Later, I noticed someone wrote she felt my energy was special when she saw me for the first time at the center.  I wrote 'that was the hard part for I did not like attention'.  My response caused some misunderstanding.  She wrote 'but, I had kept it to myself and had not talked to anyone about it.'  In the meantime, the lecturer continued to talk.  At the end, he suggested for me to surrender to the calling.  Someone commented I should write a book about my experiences.

I never knew June 13, 2020 would unfold like that.  13 had always seemed to be a special number to me.  Later, I suddenly remembered another important day.  Exactly 11 years ago, on June 13, 2009, I finally got the answers I had been looking for since the Dec. 2001 reading in the book Explorer Race and Beyond by Zoosh through Robert Shapiro.  (Re my post The conclusion of the mystery of a sister )  Was it a coincidence?  As I looked back at other important dates in my life, certain numbers or dates seemed to stand out.

There is much more to life than I know.  I will let it go now.  Good night!


Peace,
Q of D

The Divine is Ever-Present to Support and Assist

Greetings!

On March 21, I drove to join the gathering.  The sun was shining beautifully.  The traffic was light.  On my way, I only saw a few cars every now and then.  It was very different from the other times when I drove over there.  The traffic was often heavy, and it took me much longer than expected to get there.  Obviously, most of the people in our state had followed the governor's orders and guidelines.  (Re my last post Their Way of Being Inspired Me )

I arrived early.  I was glad I could park my car by the building.  The other times I had to park my car in another parking lot across the street.

When I entered the room, the channel and the healer were already there setting up the equipment for live streaming.  We greeted one another.  I saw they had set up about 14 chairs with each chair a few feet apart.  I was somewhat surprised that I was the first one that arrived.  I sat on the last row to the left.

When it was time for streaming, the channel looked at me with a smile.  She said, "You are the only brave soul that come."  I smiled back.  I had assumed one or two people might not come.  I did not expect I would be the only one!  Others must have chosen to watch from home.  I moved to sit more toward the center so the facilitator did not have to look all the way to one side of the room as she spoke.

The channel began her talk by relating some recent messages that she received.  She answered all sort of questions with ease by giving examples and sharing her personal experiences.  She guided others to look at situations / relationships from different perspectives so as to see possible solutions / potentials.  She was truly an exceptional spiritual teacher and speaker.  A young woman and a young man walked in while she was talking.  They said it was their first time there.  Later, the channel entered into a trance.  Many beings / collectives such as Council of Light, the Pleiadians, Mary Magdalene, Archangel Gabriel, and the Arcturians came through to give guidance.  As expected, people (that watched the live streaming) asked many questions about the pandemic.  They asked if there would be a second wave of covid-19, how to handle the financial difficulty, what to do if there would be a government forced vaccine, and how to stop the virus.

I found the guidance from the Loving Beings profound and helpful.  For instance, they said global events such as the pandemic happened for a reason.  The world was going through a deep cleansing and purification, or the dismantling of the old world into a new world.  Many lightworkers might want to cancel or stop the virus, but we should let it run its course.  Despite of what it (covid-19) might seem on the surface, there were many potentials and opportunities for us (humanity) to grow in love and unity.  And, how each one of us conducted ourselves at this time was of much importance.  (The guidance from the divine beings were clearer and better than what I wrote, but, I could only recall using the simple words I knew.)

Afterward, we had a 15-minute break.

I walked out of the room, and saw a woman with a friendly smile sitting outside.  We talked a little.  The channel came out and began talking to her.  It seemed they knew each other well.  Later, they walked back into the room.  Another woman came.  It meant, other than the healer and the channel, there would be five of us at the healing gathering, i.e. the young woman and man, the two women and me.  Though there were only 7 of us, I fully trusted the Divine would use us and those that watched online as conduits to aid humanity and Mother Earth.

As soon as I got back into the room, powerful energy filled me and surrounded me.

The healer and the channel seated in the front.  The two of them facilitated the next two hours of the gathering because the other clairvoyant healer was not there.  The channel was a gifted clairvoyant.  She could see energy, spirit guides, angels and beings of other dimensions.  The healer said the channel was going to perform an activation too.  For an hour and a half, they talked about spiritual matters and answered questions.  As for me, I just wanted to close my eyes and enjoyed the powerful, loving energy.  It took some effort to open my eyes every now and then because of the human manner of showing respect.  No facilitator / speaker wanted to see someone in the audience closed her eyes all the time!

With half an hour left, the healer turned on the music for meditation.  He asked us to send our dense energies toward him.  He made it clear the dense energies did not harm him; beings of the 13th dimension used him as a conduit, transformed the energies into white light and sent the energies back to those that were present.  He said the channel would perform the activation during the meditation.

With the music playing, I held a vision of Mother Earth and totally bathed in the energy.  Near the end of the music, I quietly gave thanks to Mahatma, the Archangels and Angels, Lord Melchizedek, Galactic Beings, the Ascended Masters . . . . . .  (Re my last post)

After the music stopped, the healer asked the channel what she saw.  The channel said she saw a lot of Ascended Masters, Divine Mothers, Archangel Michael and many Cosmic Collectives.  She saw a lot of beams of light coming from different cosmic collectives, and a portal opened up within the Earth as if the beams transmuted the energies on Earth.  Hearing that, the woman with a friendly smile said she saw it too.  She said she saw many, many beings came forward from multi layers of dimensions.  Their comments were completely different from other times when the energy transfer was over.  The clairvoyant healer normally talked about the energy in the room before the healing and how people's aura expanded afterward. 

Two days after the gathering, the governor issued the stay-at-home order.

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After I typed in the title of the post, I should say the divine is ever-present to inspire too.  Without the inspiration, I might not have gone to the gathering.   

Love and Blessings!
Q of D
 

An Interesting Dream on Attribute and the song 'A Time for Us'

Greetings!

Here was the dream I had in the morning of April 11, 2019.  (Re The Word Attribute )

I was in a big classroom.  It was filled with students.  A teacher, male, instructed the students to reflect on their life and come up with what they obtained / attained **  from their experiences.  He said what one had obtained / attained from one's experiences was like a ring on a finger.  He gave us some examples such as Ring of Power, Ring of Fire and etc.  (** I used got / obtained / attained while writing down my dream.  These were the words that the human I was familiar with, and might not necessary signify any difference in the meaning.) 

I talked to the others.  Some said they attained this or that.  I was undecided as what I had obtained.  It seemed each one of us sat by a desk with two chairs.  So we could move around and talk.  I went to the desk where my mother was, and sat next to her.  She was totally focused on reflecting upon her life.  I went to another desk, and sat next to my son (i.e. my older son).  He was focused on his assignment too.  I went back to the desk I used to sit.  Some students were moving around talking to the others like I did.  (When I moved to sit next to my mother or my son, I observed how focused they were.  We did not talk.)

By then, the teacher had left the classroom to let us do our work.

At this point of the dream, I felt confused.  I seemed to be observing what went on in the dream instead of in the dream as I had been.

I saw the me in the dream came up with the thought that I had obtained / attained 'gentleness' through my life experiences; life was not by force or power, and it was through my gentleness that I had made a difference.

I saw two men came to where I sat.  They were there to take me to see the head of the school or the council (no clear indication in the dream).  Though I used the word 'talk', no words were spoken.  Everything that went on was more like a mutual understanding than a conversation.  There was an indication that what I came up was of importance.

The observing me wondered why was it what I came up was important.  Did it mean I attained the Ring of Gentleness?  At that instant, the human judgment came in.  I thought as far as I knew  'gentleness' was not an attribute (as said*) in the attributes of God.  (*the words 'as said' were in my journal)

Then I woke up hearing music in the air.  The music, enthused with powerful energy, became louder and louder.  I bathed in a wonderful field of energy.  The music went on and on.  It became more and more invigorating as if telling me something yet I did not know the title or the lyrics of the song.  My whole being was energized and filled with powerful energy.  I did not want to leave the bed. 

I finally got out of bed to use the computer to find out what the music / song was.  I went to the website and hummed the tune.  The song was

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The first one on the list on YouTube was sung by Andy Williams.  I liked the lyrics.  Why did I hear this song?  I did not know.  Since that morning, I heard the song every now and then.  On that day, I simply wrote down the dream and what happened later as it had happened.  I did not try to analyze the dream.

In this particular dream, I felt confused for a moment when I found myself observing instead of in the dream as I had been.  However, I wanted to point out that in some of my dreams I was the observer as well as a participant in the dream too.  As I observed what went on in a dream, sometimes thought / ideas / inspiration came.  I might learn a lesson or something about myself through observing a dream.

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If you have been reading my blog, I have shared many stories on this phenomenon of waking up and hearing music.  For examples, You Are My Sunshine , Music in the air , On Angels Day I heard 'O Come, O Come, Emmanuel' , Sukiyaki on Christmas Morning and And I love you so .  To this day, I still cannot remember the lyrics of most of these songs except And I love you so and A Time for us.

Enjoy the nice weather and beauty of fall!

Many Blessings,
Q of D

On the First Day of Summer 2019

Greetings!

Today is the first day of summer.

This morning I had a dream.  As soon as I woke up, positive affirmations began to flow.  I was in this wonderful, creative state that as soon as a good thought / affirmation surfaced, another wonderful thought followed.  It continued for quite a while and filled my heart with joy.  When I finally got out of bed, I was all smiles. 

You see, I used to dwell in or went over my dreams after I woke up.  I eventually learned from my experiences to rewrite my dreams (imagine another outcome) as well as prayed for Grace when I had negative dreams that caused me pain or fear.  (Click to view What do we do when we have dreams of fear? )

The experience I had this morning was totally new to me.  Wonderful thoughts / affirmations simply flowed in my heart at the very moment that I came out of the dream.  As the positive, creative thoughts took hold, the emotions in the dream faded away.  I realized I had experienced a shift in my consciousness.  What a way to begin on the first day of summer!

Have a wonderful summer!


Many blessings,
Q of D

P.S.  I have not published any post for almost a month.  In recent weeks, I have been doing some self-examination as why I always feel I do not know what to do with my healing work.  It is good that I take some time to reflect.  I understand now why I feel that way.  (Re He said, "Go to work now!" ) 

If we love Jesus, how can we slight the one he loves the most?

Greetings!

In The background of the significant experience of the birds , I wrote -

However, other strange incidents occurred.  For instance, one day, I saw a small green bible in my sons room.  I had never seen it before.  Strangely, the number of a page came to me as soon as I picked up the bible.  I turned to that page.  It was about an incident, and there was a name.  I held the bible to my heart, and asked for another page number.  I was given another number.  I was very, very surprised that the page was about the same incident with the same name but in a different gospel.  I knew my son was not into any religion, and wondered where did this little bible come from.  Later that night, my son told me over the phone that some people handed out those pocket-size bibles on campus.  He took one home and put it on the computer desk.

In the above post, I did not mention the name was Mary Magdalene.  In  I had brought home the wrong book, I also left out her name.  If not for the recent Old Luggage Bags  incident and the number 153, I would probably keep it that way.  As human beings, we all had some experiences that we deemed as personal and did not want to share them.  I was too.

There was more to my conversation with my younger son that I had not shared in my post.  After I told him about what had happened, I said, "I did not understand why it happened.  All I know about Mary Magdalene was that she was the one that visited Jesus' tomb.  I did not see any connection between her and the message I received in the last quarter of 1999."  My son said, "It was said she was the companion of Jesus."  I said, "What do you mean by 'the companion of Jesus'?"  He said, "It may mean she was his wife."  I was stunned.  I had never heard it before!

My son read a wide variety of books since he was young.  Therefore, he was knowledgeable of a lot of things.  In later years, he bought me two books on Mary Magdalene as his gifts for me on Christmas or my birthday.  I was grateful for his thoughtfulness.

For quite a long time, I did not read those books.  Subconsciously, I felt reading books about Mary might tamper the truth.  I would rather know nothing than reading this or that from different books.  From the way I handled things, my son sometimes said I was stubborn.  It might be I was.  Besides, I still wondered if I really heard the sentence / message.  In my mind, I thought there was no way the message was for me or about me.

In Dec. 2001, I had a phone reading by a known angel channel that lived in another state.  During the reading, I summed up my courage to ask about the message and my connection with Mary.  I had expected to hear clear, direct answers.  However, I felt I had more questions than answers after the reading.  For examples, I did not understand why it was important for me to go among people, how could I teach and write, and why they (guides and angels) said I could recall Mary's past life as my own while we were two separate beings.  (About the reading, please click to view The Beauty of A Bouquet of Flowers ; as for the events that led me to make an appointment for the phone reading, please view Seeing the birds . . . )

In 2004, I finally stepped outside of my family to sit among other people.  From time to time, I could feel powerful energy poured into me, but had no idea what went on around me.  Sometimes my body and / or hands were guided to move in a certain way / direction.  Not wanting to draw any attention, I often chose to sit near the back.  On a few occasions, I stopped the flow of energy because I did not want to be looked on as weird.

In time, I did read the two books that my son had gifted me.  I also read a few more books on Jesus Christ and Mary.  Below were some of the things I learned from the books.

• In the Jewish tradition, Jesus must have been married since people called him rabbi.
• As regards to the resurrection, Pope John XXIII had issued a proclamation in 1960 indicating that Jesus might not have died on the cross.
• In Jesus' time, there was no place named Magdala.  Magdala only appeared on maps much, much later.
• The Magdalene might be a title.  From the books I read, Mary Magdalene came from a good family.  There were other women named Mary in the bible, and Mary Magdalene was not a woman of the street.
• In 1969, Vatican had quietly and officially cleared Mary's name.
• In a book, the author recalled his lifetime with Jesus.  He was a devoted disciple of Jesus, but was not one of the twelve in the bible.  He saw Luke was a young man suffered greatly from jealousy.  It explained why Mary was portrayed differently in Luke's gospel.

Some of the authors had obviously done a lot of research.  I read with an open mind.  I found their stories truthful and interesting.

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In March 2007, I finally followed the guidance to learn a healing art.  In July 2007, my younger son got married.  The day before the wedding, my older son was offered a job in another state.  Near the end of August, my husband and I moved to that state to live with our older son.  Later, the teacher of healing called me and told me to go to a Unity Church.  While there, a woman and her daughter who were both mediums told me to go to another church.  They believed that small church was for me.  (Hey, how likely does one go to a church and is told to go to another church?  The divine plan is truly inconceivable.)

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By March 2009, I had been with the small church for one and a half years.

A month earlier, I had held an introductory healing workshop in a holistic store with a friend.  How this workshop was manifested was truly unthinkable.  (Re A beautiful pink fish on the back of a white dove )  I did not see myself as a qualified healer.  I stressed out and became sick.  I was made well the day before the workshop.  I felt very relieved when the workshop was over.  I thought I would never hold another healing workshop again.  (In later months and years, I did facilitate a few healing workshops.  The human I had not planned for those workshops.  I learned to accept whatever came my way with appreciation instead of too quick to say never.)

A couple of weeks later, it came to me to hold a follow-up gathering so that those that had participated in the workshop could practice.  We were grateful the church allowed us to use the chapel for free (the follow-up gathering was free).  As I drove into the parking lot ** that morning (Saturday, March 28, 2009, exactly one month after the workshop), seagulls flew low above my car!  Immediately, I gave thanks and knew it was going to be an auspicious day.  We had a wonderful healing circle.  The energy during our practice was exceptional.  (** The small church was in a residential area.  A school nearby had kindly allowed us to use their parking lot.)

On Sunday, March 29, 2009, I went to the service at church.  For those of us that were in yesterday's circle, we continued to bathe in a wonderful field of energy.  At one point during the service, I zoned out.

Last Easter, the senior pastor picked the Mary Magdalene song (as a sinner) for another pastor to sing during service.  Her voice was beautiful, yet I could not clap.  I felt it was wrong.

Later, another sister sang I don't know how to love you which she said was a Mary Magdalene song.  As I listened, I thought of Mary Magdalene.  In my heart, I called out to Jesus Christ.  Suddenly, I drifted to the time when Jesus came back from his travel.  (It was said he traveled to other countries.)  There stood Mary Magdalene looking at the sudden appearance of Jesus who had been away for 3 years (?).  I thought how did Mary feel at that moment.  All of a sudden, I was filled with joy mixed with all sort of feelings such as the suffering of missing Jesus and thinking about him.  Tears filled my eyes, and I cried.  Tears flowed down my face.  I tried to stop my tears.  I got some tissue paper to wipe my tears.  Afterward, I sat very still hoping nobody had noticed that I cried.

The experience shook me.  All those emotions that flooded me seemed so real.  Was I really experiencing how Mary Magdalene felt at the moment she saw Jesus again?  I thought of next month's Easter.  What would the service be?  Many churches portrayed Mary as the sinner during that time, but I had expected our small church to be different.

Did my brothers and sisters at church know Vatican had cleared Mary's name in 1969?  Most of all, if we loved Jesus, how could we slight the one he loved the most?

On Monday, I decided to speak up on Tuesday (March 31, 2009) when I participated in the healing prayer service.  Two pastors were always there during the service.  I also wanted to talk to another pastor that might be working in the office that day.

After I made the decision, I prayed that everything would be received in harmony and love.  I saw 3:33 p.m. in the afternoon.  At night, my whole being was enveloped in a strong field of energy.  I happened to walk into the bedroom and saw 11:11 p.m. too.

Have a good night!  (Next post The Magdalene )

Love,
Q of D   

The number I set for the locks of 3 old luggage bags

Greetings!

A while back, I cleaned up the closet.

I took out all the luggage so that I could vacuum the closet.  We had three old luggage bags.  They were heavy and had combination locks.  We bought them when we immigrated to USA.  In later years, we bought new, lightweight luggage bags that had no locks for travel.  We used these old, heavy luggage bags for storage.
   
A few times each year I took out these old luggage bags.  I threw away things that we no longer needed, and put in things that we bought in recent months / year.

That day I was doing the same thing.  After I was done with two of the bags, I put them back into the closet.  I proceeded to open the third one.  As I was turning the numbers on the lock, I suddenly realized I had overlooked something incredible all these years!  The 3-digit number I spontaneously set for the locks long, long time ago turned out to be a very significant number in my search for truth in recent years.

I had set the combination locks for all the bags with the same number.  It consisted of three different digits.  In our tradition, we liked to use words that meant (or sounded like) good luck, good health, good fortune, long life, abundance and prosperity.  It was the same with numbers.  Seven (7) and eight (8) stood for good luck and good fortune respectively.  However, the number I used did not include 7 or 8.  When it was time to set the locks, I simply used that number for no particular reason.

I did not pay much attention to numbers until my 444 experiences in the last quarter of 1999.  (Re Words of Christ - Part 1 )  In a book I borrowed from the library, I learned 444 meant the power of God's love.  In addition to 444, I also began to see 111, 1111, 222 and 333 accidentally every now and then.  Seeing those numbers lifted my spirit especially during the challenging restaurant years.  In May 2005, I joined a spiritual circle that met on Thursday mornings.  Some months later, I bought an angel number book.  (I believed I bought the book in Jan. or Feb. of 2006.)

The number I spontaneously set for the combination locks was 153.  In order to write this post, I tried to remember my first significant experience with this number.  I thought the experience must have happened after I bought the angel number book, for I believed I needed to know the meaning of the number to find the experience incredible.  I reread two of my old journals around the beginning of 2006.  I did not find anything. 

Every year I used six to eight notebooks to record some of my experiences.  I recalled some interesting experiences about 153 that happened while I was living in another state.  However, I normally did not remember the dates or year that they took place.  I had two big plastic totes of notebooks, and did not know which notebook to reread.  I left the luggage bag incident as a draft.

Since I could not finish the post, I decided to edit some of my old posts.  I was glad I did.  (Angels and guides, thank you for your guidance!)  I found what I looked for.  I had my first significant experience of 153 in 2003!

Here is an excerpt from my post The Broken Alarm Clock -

"After dropping off our son at home, we went back to the restaurant.  In the afternoon, I walked into the kitchen and saw 3:37 pm on the clock.  I thought the clock worked!  A few minutes later, I walked into the kitchen again.  I was surprised the time had changed to 1:53 pm.  I realized the clock still did not work.  I did not change the time, and 1:53 remained for the rest of the day.

Strangely, my husband seemed to panic seeing 1:53.  He rushed to communicate with his source through automatic writing . . . "

At the time (2003), I did not know the meaning of 153.  Not knowing the meaning and power of 153, I noted the panic on my husband's face when he saw the time on the clock.  Looking back, it was in not knowing that made our realizations on a later date even more profound and awe-inspiring.  

Why was 153 significant?

In The background of the significant experience of the birds , I went to my sons' room and saw a small green bible.  A page number came to me as soon as I picked up the bible.  I saw a name on that page.  I asked for a confirmation.  I 'got' another page number, and the same name was on that page.  In I had brought home the wrong book , the same thing happened.  The name on those pages was Mary the Magdalene.  In Doreen Virtue and Lynnette Brown's Angel Numbers book, 153 was the only number that mentioned Mary Magdalene.  If fact, throughout this 300 pages book, it rarely mentioned any name.

153 - The ascended masters are pushing you to make the changes you've been considering.  This powerful and sacred number sequence also signifies the holy Trinity, Mother, the goddess, Mary Magdalene, and/or forgiveness.

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Over the years, I had locked and unlocked those old luggage bags many times.  It was interesting that I only realized the significance of the number until that day.  I used to think my mystical experiences began in the last quarter of 1999 with the 444 happenings and when I heard the voice of my guide.  After the sudden realization of the significance of the number I set for the locks, I realized I was wrong.

I would like to close this post *** (see P. S. ) with words of Archangel Zadkiel channeled through Natalie Glasson ****.  

A Note of Fulfilment

It is important to realise that there is not one experience, purpose or situation in yourself that will create fulfilment for you.  Spiritual growth is a process of continuous awakening and therefore continuous activations and experiences of fulfilment, that expand your understanding of fulfilment.

Love and blessings,

Q of D

P. S.  When I wrote this post, I did not know I would be writing four more  posts that were in relation to 153 or The Magdalene. 

           Mary the Magdalene  ,

           If we love Jesus, how can we slight the one he loves the most ,

           The Magdalene ,

           and She saw an image of a motherly figure .

**** Natalie Glasson is a great spiritual teacher, channel and author of many books.  She created The Sacred School of OmNa.  You can look up her info online.  I had been watching her videos on YouTube for some time before I finally subscribed to her newsletter.  I could feel the energy, love and truthfulness that channeled through her from the Ascended Masters, Archangels, Goddesses, Mother Earth and other loving beings.  In the past months, I chose to open my email and read the messages to take in the guidance from the loving beings. I just looked up the date I subscribed to her channel.  It was on an 1111 Angels Day, Nov. 11, 2016!

   

Our Angels and Guides Do Not Judge Us

Greetings!

On Christmas Day 2017, one of the gifts I received was Messages from Your Angels Oracle Cards by Doreen Virtue.  My loved ones also got some beautiful crystals for me. 

This is my fourth deck of angel cards.  (Please click to view My Three Decks of Angel Cards )  I love Doreen Virtue's angel cards.  The boxes and cards are beautifully designed.  Knowing that loving angels are always around us, I feel joyful and grateful for the gift.

Now let me share with you an experience.  It happened while I was living in another state.

Our Peace Circle met once a month.  The facilitator was a nationally-recognized speaker on earth changes and many other topics.  She was an author, spiritual coach / consultant, and a wonderful musician.  One month, she decided to have the meeting on the beach.  Many people came.  Some I had not met before.  Some came with drums and other musical instruments.  During the gathering, a sister volunteered to sit in the center of the circle to receive healing for herself as well as for Mother Earth.  With music playing, people randomly walked forward one by one to give healing.  I decided not to walk forward.  I prayed for healing energies to pour through me as I remained sitting where I was.

The healing went on for a long time because we had the biggest gathering since the Peace Circle was formed.  At one point, the thought of stepping forward came.  I countered this thought with the decision I made earlier.  In my heart, I said, "I do not want to walk to the center.  The gathering is almost over.  Sorry, Angels, it must be very difficult for you to work with me."

Soon the gathering was over.  Some people left.  Some people went to thank and hug the facilitator.  I did not leave right away for I wanted to thank her too.  She was truly a wonderful light on earth.  When I finally got to thank her, most people had left.

As I was walking away, a woman stopped me.  I recognized her.  She was a spiritual teacher, and was very gifted psychically.  She lived a couple of hours away, yet attended the monthly meeting regularly.  This really showed her intention of service.  During our meetings, her stories and insights captivated us.  I respected her way of being, but we had not talked to each other personally outside of the circle.  Looking into my eyes, she said, "Your angels want me to tell you that it is very easy to work with you for your heart is pure.  I can see 17 angels around you.  The archangels and angels are working with you . . . "

I walked away feeling very grateful for the loving words of the angels.  I knew our angels and guides did not judge us, yet I apologized to them earlier as if they were judging me!  Who judged me (or us)?  It was none other than myself (or ourselves). 

If you have time, please view my old post "We don't judge you. You judge yourself. Don't be too hard on yourself."

It is cold.  Please take care.

Many blessings,
Q of D

A Hornet came whenever I stepped onto the school fields

Greetings!

There was a special occurrence before and during the spiritual discourses in July.   I saw a big "bee" every time I stepped onto the school fields!

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Three days before the July discourses were to begin, I wanted to get myself mentally ready.  I woke up early to go for a walk in the school fields.  I wanted to take in the calm and peace of the early morn.

A year ago, a solid, tall fence was installed to replace the rusted see-through metal chainlink fence that separated the apartments and the schools.  There were two openings for people to walk in.  One of the openings was close to where I lived.

It was a beautiful morning.  As soon as I walked past the fence, I saw a bee.  I had never seen such a big bee!  I saw small bees in the fields all the time, but this one was more than two inches long.  It had a long abdomen with black and white stripes.  Its head was yellow and black.  It had long reddish wings.  I stood there appreciating its beauty as it remained flying near me.  During that time, it landed on a small piece of amber color glass over and over again.  After a couple of minutes, it flew out of the fence toward the apartments.  Seeing the beautiful bee, my heart was filled with delight.

When I was home, I told my husband about the bee.  He listened to my description of the bee.  He said it was not a bee but a wasp.  I did not know much about insects, but he did.  I went online to look for pictures of wasp.  What I saw was a hornet.

The next morning, I did not wake up early.  I went for a walk after breakfast.  The second I stepped onto the school field, the hornet flew in from the apartment side of the fence.  I thought what a coincidence that the hornet and I came to the field at the same time.  Then I thought it might be the hornet flew in and out the fence / school fields throughout the day.  Again, I stood there to observe the hornet.  After a while, it flew away just as the day before.

As I walked, I saw small bees, small butterflies, and other insects every now and then.  I looked for the hornet every time I walked past the opening, but it did not fly in again.  I did not see any other hornet in the fields. 

On the third morning, I decided to take a camera with me.  The hornet appeared again just as I walked in.  I took a few pictures of the hornet at close range before it flew away. 

During the discourses, I took a walk every morning.  When the discourses were over, I continued to go for a walk if the weather was good.  I brought the camera with me because of the hornet.  As far as I could recall, I might have skipped a morning or two due to the rain.  Incredibly, the hornet always showed up when I came.  It stayed there for a while, and then flew away.  Strangely, the hornet never stayed inside the fields where there were many trees and some wild flowers on the grass.  After it flew out of the fence, it never came back even if I stood at the same spot waiting for it to return.

For over half a month, I saw the beautiful hornet every time I walked past the fence onto the school fields.  The last time I saw the hornet was on July 31.

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In 2007, I saw bumblebees on three separate occasions.  On the last occasion, I found a big bumblebee clang onto the handle of our screen door when I arrived home.  I did not want to scare the bee.  I waited for it to fly away.  For a long while, the bumblebee stayed there without any movement.  I thought it might be dying or too weak to fly.  I tried to touch it with a small piece of paper, and it flew away in a swift.  During that time, I happened to see BEE license plates all the time.  2007 was the year that we moved to another state.  A move that the human I had not foreseen.  It was in that state I participated in healing service and facilitated workshops that I had never thought about since I did not regard myself a healer.

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Is there any spiritual significance in the sighting of the hornet?  Time will tell.  All Is Well in the Loving Divine.

Many blessings,
Q of D

 

Living in the Joy of Living

Greetings!

My last post The Unfolding of A Test was first published in 2013.  I edited it and published it again because there were two more interesting incidents that happened on the same day.  I did not include them in that post because I felt they had nothing to do with the test.  As I read what happened on that day again, I felt I should share those two incidents to complete the story of that remarkable day.

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It was a chilly morning.  At times, the wind was gusty.

Before I drove to the Center for the Thursday circle, I had to drop off my husband at a big shopping center.  His friend who owned a restaurant in the mall needed his help in the kitchen.

As I was driving away, I saw a shopping cart flying in the parking lot.  The wind was blowing hard.  The stray cart was about to hit a car or some cars.  Immediately, I parked my car.  I ran as fast as I could to stop the cart from hitting any car.  I brought the cart to a shopping cart corral.

I got back into my car, and turned on the radio.  My favorite music *** started.  My heart was filled with tenderness and gratitude for the love of the Divine.  On my way to the Center, I kept thanking my angels, angels, and God.  I said, "God, I already have my first miracle of the day.  I have not heard this piece of music on the radio for many months!  Thank you!"

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*** Other than "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream", this piece of music also gave me much love and comfort in the challenging years.  While "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream" opened me up to the wonders of being in relationship with the Divine, this piece of music touched me deeply on a heart level.  As a human being, sometimes I did not understand why this or that happened in my life.  When it happened, I felt unsettled.  One day, I turned on the radio, and this piece of music was playing.  As I listened, my feelings within began to flow in sync with the music as if it was the music in my heart.  I did not get to know the title of the music because the radio continued to play other jazz music.  Knowing my love for the music, my loving angels were at work again.  I got to hear that music in a special way or as a special treat once in a while.

What was the title of the music?  It was "Here in My Heart" by Eric Marienthal.  I supposed you could guess how surprised I was when I finally heard the title.  Here in my heart was how I felt when I listened to the music!

One year, my loved ones bought the CD for me as a gift.  "Here in my heart" was #7 in Eric Marienthal's CD.  He used "Walk Tall" (#3) as the title of his CD.  Interestingly, I found this comment on YouTube - Too bad the title of the video is messed up.  It should be "Here in my heart."  I composed this for Eric.  He did a nice job on the sax part.  Rob Mullins.

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After the Thursday circle, I went home and ate lunch.  Later, I picked up a spiritual magazine.  Holding the magazine in my hands, a thought came to me, "I am not going to just read any page.  I am going to pray that I shall turn to a page that means something to me."  Then I prayed to turn to a page that I was supposed to read.  Here came miracle #2.

I read an article.  It was a very good article.  (It might be a book review, but I did not write down what it was about in my journal.)  When I read to the last paragraph, my mouth opened wide.

The author wrote - Oh, there's a message for someone I was "told" as I read the book.  To paraphrase it "Keep on going ahead, a step at a time.  There is someone waiting for you around the next corner.  Don't stop now."  Do the words in this article speak to you?  I wonder, is it a coincidence that you are reading this today?

Wow!  

Both psychics in my 2006 readings had told me to take one step at a time, and hinted that someone at the other end or around the corner was waiting for me.  After the readings, I had taken small steps such as signed up to be a volunteer at two places, but my effort only led to frustration.  For example, after interviews and other necessary procedure, the woman in charge of volunteers in a hospital asked me to buy a uniform.  However, she did not schedule me to go in.  When I called, she was never there.  After two months, I went to the hospital, returned the uniform, and asked for a refund.  All of these happened before I read the article.  I felt discouraged, and had given up the idea of volunteering.

Life's coincidences had always amazed me.  Reading the article particularly the last paragraph renewed my strength and will to keep going on my spiritual path.  About two months later, I began volunteering in a soup kitchen.  In March 2007, I participated in a 2-day healing workshop.  

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When I finally settled down to record the happenings of that day, I wrote "What a day!" on the top of the page.  I regarded my shopping trip to the store and the sighting of a car with 111 license plate (angel number) as miracle #3.  Though I was trembling all the way home after I spoke up during the lecture, I eventually looked at the whole experience as miracle #4.  (Re my last post The Unfolding of a Test )

To me, it was indeed a remarkable day.  Most people probably did not see these incidents as miracles.  I lived in the joy of living.

With my experiences of "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream" and "Here in my heart", I knew what a blesssing it was to hear the music right from the beginning.  I had not heard "Here in my heart" for many months.  It was very special that I heard it after I brought the stray shopping cart to the cart corral.  

Did I think the message in the article was just for me?  No.  I believed there were others that read the article felt the message was what they needed at that time of their lives.

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My friends, since you are reading my blog, I am passing this message to you.

"Keep on going ahead, a step at a time.  There is someone waiting for you around the next corner.  Don't stop now."

Love and blessings,
Q of D