WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 2

Greetings!

We bought a new modem and router combo.  The internet connection was excellent in the beginning.  Since then, there had been interruptions.  Luckily, most of the interruptions did not last long.  Sometimes I did have to unplug and restart everything.  A while back, the internet connection was lost while I was on zoom, and it took me 25 minutes to rejoin the meeting.  

 

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I got the title 'What is our focus' two days before I finished my post Incredible Coincidence of Releasing Frustration .  

For many months, my friends were into prophecies of catastrophic earth changes.  They read books and invited speakers on this subject.  They eventually began to stock up necessities so that they could help other people when disasters hit.  Reading their emails, I thought my friends had misplaced their focus.  I thought we should focus in the now instead of worrying about what might happen.  Above all, as a spiritual group, I believed we should not spread words that might cause fear.  Therefore, I found the title 'what is our focus' that came through to be relevant.  

As mentioned in WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 1, the situation had resolved by itself when the host read a book on Jesus in which Jesus said to live in the now instead of worrying about the future.  As a result, my friends' focus on what were to come and on stocking up necessities had stopped.

Now that the internet was stable, I wanted to work on part 2 of What Is Our Focus, but soon realized I did not know how to go about writing the post.

Many spiritual teachers / masters had written books, and had given talks on how to live our life.  They had taught about the importance of living in the now.   Nowadays, we could watch videos of their teachings/lectures online in the ease of our home.  In this lifetime, I was a simple, ordinary Chinese woman.  I read stories of other people's spiritual journey, but was not interested in reading about spiritual laws/theories.  What could I write about 'what is our focus'?  Weeks and months went by.  I tried to forego writing 'What is our focus - part 2', but the title stayed with me.    One day it came to me that I could share some of my personal experiences.

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In life, we went through numerous situations.  We had different personalities, did not think alike, and handled situations differently.  We might go through the same/similar situation, but each one of us might come out of the situation with a different view/version of the experience.  No two persons on earth had the exact life story, and everyone's life was unique in one's own way.   

In Life Must Be Experienced , we had a power outage.  Without electricity, I decided to use the time to throw away old mails, newspaper clippings, and old magazines.  At one point, I prayed for power to be restored by 10 p.m.  Then I remembered we should always add "not my will, but Thy will be done."  Right after these words came out of my mouth, the sound of the TV came on.  I turned to look at the TV.  Evening news was on, and the time was 6:26 p.m.  I stood there in awe of what happened.  Many might not feel how I felt when they went through similar incidents;  they thought those incidents simply happened by chance.  There was no right or wrong in how one felt.   As for me, these coincidences often brought me joy and the sense of wonder/magic that helped me see life in a new light.  (e.g. Stories of Birds, Bees, and other signs from the Divine and Recognizing Moments of Wonder/Magic is a blessing to ourselves )

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Many years ago while I was struggling with life challenges, I asked my guides and angels how to live my life.  Below were their words of wisdom - 

"Life is like a sea, its ebb and rise are constant.  It is the mental view of self that sees it differently.  Everything is in perfect order as is.  What we want you to do now is to be more outright in the front.  State how you want your life to be.  You have always planned your life as if you are responsible for everyone.  No, you are only responsible for yourself.  In being responsible for your own well-being, you influence others in a way that is much more than what you can perceive.  Don't spend too much energy wishing how the others will be or to be.  In doing so, you are not allowing others to learn their lessons.  You can ask or pray that they learn their lessons with ease and grace, but not the way you think things would be or should be."

It was true that I had always focused on the well-being of my loved ones.  I was not alone.  In a healing workshop, most of my friends found it easier to give love than to accept love.  We were daughters, sisters, mothers, and aunts in the family structure.  We were used to take care, comfort, and nurture others.  (Re Giving and Receiving Love Must be Balanced )  A sister in an energy healing share gathering in 2007 was a good example.  She had learned many healing modalities.  She worked in a hospital's children department.  At work, she loved and comforted all the children the best she could.  She had no children of her own.  She showered her nieces and nephews with love and gifts.  She took great care of her aging parents.  Her voice was gentle.  As we listened, we could feel her genuine love for others. When I worked on her, powerful and joyful energy came through.  Meanwhile, I kept getting the message "Tell her that she is very, very loved."  (FYI I rarely got any message during healing sessions.)  The message did not make any sense to me.  She was such a loving person; of course, she was very, very loved.  When it was my turn to share what I got, I decided to share the message 'as is'.  She showed no reaction to the message.  Later, we took a break to have lunch.  During that time, the sister told us some more about how she loved and took care of others.  Then she said she never felt she was loved.  She was so focused in giving love, and did not realize she was very loved.  (Please also view Her face was bright with light; she said she saw Jesus )

Writing this post made me realize that I had not paid enough attention to my focus while I went through situations in life.  I would like to share with you the Thou shalt provide experience.  

It happened during the challenging restaurant years.  Our sons attended different universities.  Our family had only one old car.  In other words, our sons did not have a car.  We drove to see them every few weeks.  I always brought food and frozen meals for them.  I bought those frozen meals when they were on sale in stores, e.g. buy one get one free.  

For days I noticed the tube of facial cleaner was about to run out.  Business had been extremely slow.  A new tube of cleaner only cost a few dollars, but I would rather use the money to buy two boxes of frozen meals for sons.  

One morning, nothing came out of the tube no matter how hard I squeezed it or pressed it against my other hand.  There I was holding the tube and feeling somewhat depressed.  Suddenly, the little child in me thought: it was said Thou shalt provide.  I held the tube with both of my hands in a prayer position, and prayed.  Afterward, I squeezed the tube.  I was all smiles seeing a dab of lotion fell onto my other hand.  It was not watery.  It was a normal dab of lotion.  I joyfully and gratefully thanked the loving divine.

I did the same thing on the second day, i.e. I prayed and a dab of lotion came out.  On the third day, I began to doubt.  I thought there might still be bits of lotion here and there inside, and what happened was nothing magical.  I shook and squeezed the tube, but nothing came out.   I held the tube in my hands, and prayed wholeheartedly again.  A dab of lotion came out.  I stood there in awe and gratitude.     

I did not recall how long this went on.  It was probably about 6 to 7 days.  One morning, with the tube of lotion in my hand, I looked into the mirror.  I was swelled with gratitude for this incredible experience.  Meanwhile, I felt it was time to move on and buy a new one.  I threw away the tube.  I felt free and peaceful.  

At the time, my focus was on the lack because we struggled to pay bills.  With the wrong focus, a few dollars seemed like a big deal.  If my mind was clear, I would see it really did not matter how I spent the few dollars; my sons would be fine and I would be too.  It was through grace that I decided to move on and buy a new tube of lotion when I looked at the mirror.  There was no reasoning going on in my mind.

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As I was writing, I 'got' that - A lot of times, our sufferings were like that.  We dwelt in the emotions that kept us down/stuck, e.g. worries, pain, hurt, anger, sorrow, sadness, guilt, shame, resentment, feeling lack / not enough, not being loved and etc.  We held onto those emotions as if they were part of us.  For instance, some people continued to live in the shadow of bad experiences that happened decades ago; some lived in sadness after a loved one died such as I was after my mother passed away. (Re Happy Mother's Day to all the loving mothers and grandmothers.)  We failed to realize that we were hurting ourselves when we held onto those unwholesome emotions. 

During the challenging years, I worried a lot.  One morning, I looked at the me in the mirror.  I suddenly realized how much I had aged!  My eyelashes were almost gone or sparsely visible.  The hair on my eyebrows was thin and sparse.  I had lost some teeth.  One of my front teeth was broken and the remaining portion was black / badly discolored.  It was a wakeup call for me to take care of myself! I loved my sons, and wanted to be there for them.  (Re Who Smiles? Who Sees? )

Fortunately, I eventually learned that I was not alone.  In the last quarter of 1999, I found myself being awoken to see 4:44 a.m. again and again.  Later, I happened to see 444 quite often such as cars with 444 license plates, 4:44 p.m., and invoices with the number 444.  One morning in the early hours, I heard a man's voice saying one strange sentence loud and clear.  I had many inexplicable experiences of the loving divine too.  In order to find answers, I began to borrow spiritual books from the library.  From books, I learned our spirit guides and angels were with us, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love.  Two years later, I booked a phone reading with a known angel channel who lived in another state.  (I had written many posts about incidents that led up to the reading.  Please view Seeing the birds, I had no doubt God had shown me the sign )  I had those strange experiences because my guides and angels wanted to shake me out of the rut.  Their loving presence and wisdom made a huge difference in my life.  For examples - 

• My guide's timely intervention helped me greatly in my relationship with my older son.   (Re Love! Love! Love! Just love him and nothing else. Simply love him )  During a few small gatherings, I had shared this experience.  In later days, some people told me what I shared had helped them when they found themselves in a difficult situation/relationship.  When they changed their view of the person/situation, the outcome changed too.   
• One night I was filled with negative emotion dwelling over the situations we were in.  Suddenly, I heard 'you can be happy no matter what'.  
• On another occasion, I felt pain thinking about my relationship, and my guide said  You feel pain because you let pain be . 

I could not take in what my guide said right away.  I thought 'In the situation I was in, how can I be happy?'  It was also hard for me to accept that 'I feel pain because I let pain be'.  It took me years to realize that his guidance was invaluable.

Many of us knew/might agree that we were responsible for our actions, i.e. what we chose to do / not to do and its consequence.  However, we might not have realized that it was also our responsibility to take care of our own well-being that included our physical, emotional, and mental well-being.  For example, my sons cared about my health, and suggested for me to exercise more. I always said I was not the exercise type.  I saw others easily picked up a 24-pack of bottled water.  I knew I might be able to do the same if I exercised regularly, but held onto the thought / excuse that I was not the exercise type.  When it came to my emotional / mental well-being, I used to think it was natural / normal for me to worry / feel pain because of the situations / relationship I was in.  I recalled one day my younger son, seeing how worried I was, asked me, "Mom, does it help to worry?  If it doesn't help, why worry?"  I agreed worrying did not seem to help, but found it hard to get out of my old pattern/worrying mode that I was used to.   

Edgar Cayce, the Sleeping Prophet, had also said 'why worry since we can pray' during one of his channeled readings.  (In 2004/5, I went to a small psychic fair.  The host said those who came had a chance to win one of three donated prizes.  My name was drawn!  I won a thick book (used) - The Edgar Cayce Collection, Four Volumes in One.  I had been a member of A.R.E. in recent years.  I had won The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the 2nd Reading and other prizes when I went to spiritual events.  Looking back, it was not simply luck; it was the encouragement from the loving divine.  I am deeply grateful.)        

Earlier, I had mentioned that I could not take in my guide's words right away.  However, his timely advice on those occasions had an effect on me.  (Throughout the years, I only heard his voice a few times.)  

When I found myself in a negative mood, I thought of his words.  It caused me to pause my negative reactive emotion to a situation / a person, and looked at what happened from different perspectives.  I took responsibility when I found myself to be part of a misunderstanding.  (e.g. Let Us Start from Ground Zero )  When I saw no fault on my part, I tried *** to let the whole thing go.  In other words, I began to pay attention to my state of being, and took responsibility of my emotional well-being.  (*** I used the word 'tried' because letting go was a lesson in life that was not as easy as it sounded.  Sometimes it took time to truly let go, and we had to be patient with ourselves as well as with others.)

From my observation, there were many underlying conditions in additional to one's personality that caused some people to appear rude/mean/hostile.  For instance, some bullies might hold something within that they did not feel good about themselves or might feel less/inferior to others in certain aspect; they bullied others in order to have that false sense of power and superiority.  In some cases, it could be  a repeat of a cycle.  For example, in  To forgive is first and most of all for the good of ourselves , a woman felt unloved and rejected by her mother as a child because her mother only loved her brother; when she became a mother, she could not show any affection toward her daughter.

As I became more observant of my reaction, I gradually learned not to take things personally because what happened before me might not reflect the whole truth.  (If you have time, please view Sometimes what we assume can be far from the truth )  I also realized my thought / what I held in my mind was indeed important.  For instance, I still worried once in a while; since I paid attention to my thought, I knew to replace it with positive affirmations; sometimes I had fun projecting good outcome too.  In Is our thought a secret known only to ourselves , I sensed the cashier's irritation.  I thought, "Oh!  No.  The cashier is in a negative mood."  Right then, another thought rose to counter my first thought, "Of course, she feels irritated because she has been busy all day.  I should change my view of her.  I should be understanding, and should look at her with love."  I looked at the cashier with love and understanding.  At that very moment, she looked in my direction and let out a broad smile.  Everything Is Energy, and so is our thought.  It was said new thought replaced old thought, and good thought replaced bad thought.  How true!  This incident corroborated what my guide said 'In being responsible for our own well-being, we can influence others in a way that is much more than what we can perceive.'  

 

As regards to our physical well-being, I found this entry in one of my old journal.  I had shared it in my post  Why are some people born with a life crippling condition?   

We always associate healing with one's physical well-being, but it is not necessary the case.  There are healing in many levels.  One may come into this life with a physical challenge that may never be healed because it may be a choice he made.  Healing can take place among his loved ones while taking care of him.  Or, he may have chosen the physical challenge to have an experience. Instead of totally dismantled because of his illness, he accepts, prospers, and lives a good life. 

As human beings, most of us have experienced discomfort and illness.  Our thoughts matter in all situations.  It helps to remind us to have a positive attitude.  In my experience, the attitude of gratitude helps me a lot as I go through life's situations.  Furthermore, look at others with love and compassion.  Love, and love freely.  Don't dwell in our own misery.  If we think our life is miserable, we are not alone because many people are suffering too; it is in giving love, we receive love; and, know that life is not only livable, but lovable and wonderful. 

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After I finished sharing the Thou Shalt Provide experience, another experience came to my mind.  It also happened during the restaurant years. 

I went to a store to buy something for the restaurant.  That day was my husband's lunar birthday.  (Many older Chinese like my husband and me remembered/celebrated our birthdays according to the lunar calendar.  Oriental stores sold Chinese calendars in the beginning of a new year.  We celebrated our sons' birthdays according to western calendar.)  

In the old days, only birthdays of the older generations such as great grandparents or grandparents were important and sometimes celebrated with a feast. (Re I was nicknames the Queen of Dreams)  My husband had always said there was no need to celebrate his birthday.  He said he rarely remembered his birthday, i.e. when he was single.  (He was not into remembering our birthdays, but always went along with me to buy gifts for sons' birthdays.)  Despite of what he said, I never forgot his birthday.  He said he did not want any Christmas present as well.  We always bought him gifts, and saw him smile when he opened his gifts.  

I saw lobsters were on sale.  My husband loved seafood.  Despite of the money situation, I decided to buy two lobsters to celebrate his birthday.  At the checkout counter, I was all smiles when the cashier told me the total was $33.33!  (333 or 3333 is the ascended masters' number.)  My heart was filled with joy.  When I walked by the lottery counter near the entrance/exit, I decided to buy a $2 instant ticket.  Later, I found out it was a $50 winner!                                            

In this incident, I chose to look beyond the lack.  In a joyful mood, I bought a $2 instant lottery ticket which turned out to be a $50 winner.  In retrospect, it was another Thou Shalt Provide experience for $50 was more than enough to cover $33.33!

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Finally, this post is finished!  

Wherever you are, do something that brings you joy.  In love and joy we connect.

Many blessings,

Q of D

WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - Part 1

Greetings! 

Two days before I finished my last post Incredible Coincidence of Releasing Frustration , I woke up and got that 'What is our focus' would be the title of my next post.  Lying in bed, I felt very grateful for the active, loving presence of my spirit guides and angels in my life.  They knew I had been troubled by the emails from some of my friends in recent months.  

Most of the people in this group met in person.  I did not live in that state, and only joined them once in a long while on zoom.  Years earlier, I had emailed my opinion on some matters.  I had also spoken up once.  (Re Prophecies, and What We Need the Most At This Time - 2 )  I had not joined their meeting for many months.  I did not think I should join a meeting just to express a different view.  Therefore, I prayed for the situation involving my friends to be resolved by itself.  Of course, I had not planned to write about it.

Under the title of my blog Loveshines, I wrote 'In faith, I share with you my experiences.  My experiences are not just mine and yours are not just yours for in truth We Are One.  Let LOVE shine through the blog as the title has intended.'  However, the human I still found it challenging from time to time to share some experiences that I regarded as personal or experiences that involved my friends/loved ones.   

Reading the emails, I had thought my friends had misplaced their focus.  After 'What is our focus' came through, I saw how relevant the title was.  In truth, what we focused on was pertinent in life.  I changed my mind, and decided to share the experience.

For months, my friends were into prophecies of earth changes.  They did research, and collected data from online and from books.  They invited speakers to give talks on the same subject.  The more information they collected, the more they believed catastrophic earth changes such as traumatic flood and earthquakes were going to happen.  They began to focus on keeping track of the signs of earthquakes and unusual floods.  Gradually, they held discussions as what to do in case these disastrous events occurred.  They started to stock up the necessities, and advised others to do the same.  They had good intention.  They wanted to help as many people as they could when disasters hit.

The emails reminded me of a woman's story that I read about decades ago.  She believed in the end of time talks.  Fear and stress might have caused her to die early.  After she passed away, people found her basement packed with bottled water, canned food, and equipment for survival.  It also reminded me of the so-called angel channel's prophecy 17 years ago.  That winter was warm and beautiful instead of what she had prophesized.  Weeks later, a pastor said, "Despite of what happened, the angel channel had good intention.  She had taken out thousands of dollars from banks and credit cards, and had bought lots of medical supplies so that she could help many people when disasters hit."  She (the pastor) felt sad that the channel might be in debt because of her good intention.  It was worth noting that the woman had probably believed in her own channeled messages - the great power outage that winter would erase all record of loans/debts from the computer system of banks and credit card companies, and people would not have to pay back the money.  Besides, many people had gone to her for healing because she claimed the angels worked with her.  Her healing sessions were not free.  Worse yet, since she opened herself up to an unknown dark force, she had brought harm to some that came to her for healing.  (Re Prophecies, And What We Need the Most At This Time - 1 ) 

In retrospect, I wondered why she came to me four different times insisting that I must book healing sessions with her - 2 times inside the chapel after Sunday service was over; 2 times when I had already walked outside of the church, and she ran after me urging me to go to her for healing.  I declined.  Some people who always tried to be nice or polite might have said 'yes' in similar situations.  It came to me that we should not be too easy to say 'yes' or 'to make promises that we know we may not keep'; we should not give in to others who claimed to be much more powerful/superior than we were; the true masters knew the truth, and would not present themselves that way.  We could always ask our higher selves/guides/angels for guidance before making a decision.  If you have been reading my blog, you know I am not someone who thinks 'I do not need healing from others'.  When I held the monthly healing circle, we all practiced giving and receiving healing.  When the clairvoyant healer offered to give me healing, I gladly and gratefully accepted.  (Re The clairvoyant healer gave me a healing session ) 

Just like what happened in The Gathering seventeen years ago, my friends' emails stated that they had no fear of the prophesized earth changes; instead, they were looking forward to the future/golden age.  I always felt we should never join in to spread news that might cause mass fear.  In one zoom meeting, a woman said she lived in one of the southern states that would submerged under water according to the prophecies; she asked if her family should move to another state now.  I could hear the fear in her voice. 

In recent weeks/month, the Internet connection had been very unstable.  Many times the connection was lost a short while after I was on the computer.  We had a few gusty wind blowing days, and there was no Internet.  I talked to my son about it, and learned the provider had called him about upgrading the equipment and signing up for another plan.  My son said 'No' because there had already been price increase.  I did not know much about the Internet or the computer.  I searched online, and learned that our modem and router were indeed out of date.  We needed to buy new ones in the coming days.

Other than the Internet interruptions, I found myself stalled in writing.  I realized part of me still thought I should not write about my friends' experience.  On Easter Sunday (April 5,2026), it dawned on me that 'any time I / we had a strong reaction to a situation, it was no longer their experience/his experience/her experience; it became our situation/our experience; in order to move forward or move past the situation, we must resolve our reaction, come to term with what happened, and learn from it.  That was why I was inspired to write a post on What is our focus.  Again, it is true that my experiences are not just mine and yours are not just yours.😌.  \ 

I must have some help today that the Internet interruptions were far less than other days.  Before I continue with What is our focus, I am happy to report that the situation had resolved by itself quite a while back.  The host was guided to read a book in which Jesus talked about living in the now instead of worrying about the future.  As a result, the focus on what were to come and the discussion on stocking up necessities had stopped.

I receive an email from a sister about Pope Leo XIV has invited the faithful to a special Prayer Vigil for Peace in Saint Peter's Basilica on Saturday, April 11, 2026, at 18:00 (6 PM Rome time) to pray for lasting peace.  As the sister says, prayer is energy.  

May the Spirit of Peace unite us all.  May we live in Peace, Harmony and Love.  

Love and Blessings,

Q of D                                                    (Next post WHAT IS OUR FOCUS - part 2 )

I am not just my personality & we are not just earthlings - 1

Greetings!

A while back, I went to a spiritual gathering.  I had gone there for lectures and attended their service every now and then.  However, with my human nature (or personality), I had as yet come out of my shell to truly socialize with others.

I usually left when some people began to leave.  On that particular day, I sensed someone/others might want to talk me.  For a brief second, I hesitated if I should stay, but decided to leave anyway.  As I walked out, I could feel my action had caused some misunderstanding.  

In the beginning weeks at the small church in the other state, I was often the first one to leave the chapel when Sunday service was over.  It took The Big Moment of Embarrassment  to break the ice (formed by myself) that I began to feel more comfortable sitting among my new friends.

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When I was home, I thought of my action that had caused some misunderstanding.  

I recalled an incident that happened years ago.  

My husband and I went to a gathering.  When we entered, I saw some members of a family sat on long sofas.  I rushed forward to greet a woman who had treated me with kindness.  As we embraced, I saw from the corner of my eyes the frozen smile of a woman that stood next to us.  Her hands were still up as if she was ready to give a hug.  I realized she had thought I rushed forward to greet her.  I greeted her next.  She no longer smiled, and acted distant.  She probably felt embarrassed and hurt a little.  We did not know each other well.  In later years, she remained somewhat distant on the occasions we met again.  I looked at her with understanding.  Some people believed talking to one another could solve any misunderstanding.  In my experience, it was not necessary so.  In life, there were lessons here and there, and sometimes a situation might not be a lesson for both sides.  We could not please everyone or fix everything.  However, we could always look at others with discernment and understanding.

Life dramas were plentiful.  If we were observant and truthful to ourselves, we might find that we easily formed opinions and judgments from our experiences about situations, others as well as ourselves.  Sometimes we let negative opinions / judgments take hold and disrupt our peace of mind.  As a human being, I had my share of letting what happened disrupt my peace.  However, I agreed with my guides that we were responsible for our own wellbeing which included emotional wellbeing.  (Re You feel pain because you let pain be  and Happy Thoughts produce a Happy You  )

After recalling this incident, I decided "I am not just my personality, and will make some adjustments next time I go there."  

There was a purpose for the personality we took on for a certain lifetime.  Our personality did not represent our whole/true self.  In my December 2001 reading by a known angel channel, I was told "to go among people without delay, and don't play small . . ."  However, my personality was I just wanted to observe quietly, and did not want to draw any attention.  And, I always saw myself as simple.  In my 2006 reading, the psychic said, "You come to live as an ordinary person, and in many ways, you want to live an ordinary life as an ordinary person, you don't want others to see you otherwise; but you also have to accept who you are . .., and it has been a challenge for you . . ."  (These might not be the exact words.  It took too much time to find the journal of that time.  Re The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the 2nd reading and other posts on the reading)  

Indeed, the human I found it challenging when others particularly strangers suddenly said this or that about me.  I often did not know how to respond while he/she walked away which left me feeling unsettled afterward.  (For example, She said, "It is a shame that you have retired." )  A few years ago, a lecturer who was clairvoyant and psychic suddenly said on zoom, "Q of D wants to hide her light."  I did not turn on the camera.  The lecturer always said he could see us even if we turned off the camera.  It was embarrassing yet funny.  In 2020s, I joined different zoom groups.  Thanks to him, I challenged myself to leave the camera on during most zoom meetings.  Then one day another psychic and clairvoyant began to talk about me / my light on zoom.  The good thing was I did not know much spiritual stuff such as spiritual terms, laws, modalities and etc.  I truly enjoyed other people's talks/presentations.

I had many past life dreams as well as dreams in other dimensions.  In one of my dreams, I was a young female (late teens).  The me in the dream was walking with a few males of her age.  She was outgoing and talkative.  If I remembered correctly, she wore an amber pendant.  

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At some point of writing this post (some days ago), I began to share some of my life stories.  Some of my friends saw me as shy, but I did not see myself as shy.  I wrote about what I learned from my dreams and readings about myself.  I wrote that 'life is infinite, and we are all multi-dimensional beings'.  I had planned to use words like 'Life is infinite, and I am not just my personality'  as the title of this post.  In the morning of July 19/20, I woke up with these words 'I am not just my personality, and we are not just Earthlings.'  I found these words to be a better title for my post than what I had planned.  

As I continued writing, I realized there was more to share about our multi dimensional selves than I had anticipated.  The post would be too long, and I did not know when I could finish it.  I decided to skip the part about my life stories and we were all multi-dimensional beings.  I thought I would publish a post under 'I am not just my personality' and delete 'we are not just earthlings'.  I tried to delete the title twice, but IT DID NOT WORK! I surrendered.  As a result, I added 1 to the title.  I would be working on 2 after this post.

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Six days after the possible misunderstanding incident, I went to a gathering in another spiritual center.  Tables had been set because we would have some food before the main event.  5 to 6 people sat by each table.  When I walked in, most tables were filled except one table to the left near the back.  One man sat there.  I walked to sit by that table.  We greeted each other, and talked a little.  A man came from another table to join us.  Soon three men from other tables came.  The six of us had a conversation on food, religion and so on.

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About a week later, I went to the other center again.  I stayed behind, and took the initiative to talk to the others.  I had not intended to build walls.  It was good to Be Observant of Our Pattern/Attitude , and made some adjustments.   

Next post We are not just earthlings -2 

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

  

The Changes In Our Life

Greetings!

We are halfway through 2025.  How is your 2025 so far?

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2007 was a year of many changes to our family.  For examples -  

In late March 2007, I finally went to a healing workshop.  Back in July 2005, the teacher of the Thursday Circle had related a message from my spirit guide for me to learn healing, but I did not follow.  I saw myself as an ordinary Chinese woman, and it was hard for me to envision working as a healer in the western culture.  (Re Did I feel qualified as a healer? and  We are all much more than who we appear to be )  

In July 2007, my younger son got married.  On the day before the wedding, my older son was offered a job in another state.  He asked us to move there with him.  I knew moving to the other state was very much in the divine plan.  (Re The Amazing Prophetic Dream of Moving - Story 1 )  However, I was overwhelmed with emotions during that time.  For over 20 plus years, the family of four had lived in the same state.  I could not imagine how shocking it was for my younger son to learn right before his wedding that his parents and older brother would soon move to a state that was about 750 miles away.  

As always, major changes brought in a new beginning.  2007 was a year of many changes and a new beginning for our family.

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2016 was a year of changes too.  My older son began working in a company that he still worked for now.  For a while, I worked as a caregiver.  In June, I went to a gathering.  (Re Two powerful healer came from another state , The Clairvoyant healer gave me a healing session and I asked to be a channel of healing to the others, and I was )  Since moving back to this state in 2012, I seldom went out by myself at night.  It was because of those meetings that I began to attend discourses at night given by a spiritual master from another country in later months in 2016 and in 2017.  (Yes, I stepped outside of my comfort zone again! 😃😃)  Most importantly, in 2016, I met Matthew, my brother - an incredible story of mystical dreams and reincarnations.  (Re A Strange Dream and other posts published in 2016 and 2017)  In the last months of 2016, my husband had A Chance Meeting in A Restaurant .  To be able to sit among friends every morning helped my husband a lot *.  To me,  2016 was a year of grace.  

* During the pandemic years, the restaurant closed its door for dining in.  My husband could no longer get together with his friends in the restaurant.  It definitely had an adverse effect on his wellbeing.  

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Before 2025 arrived, I knew changes were coming except I had no idea of when / what.  (The sum of the digits of 2007, 2016 and 2025 is the same.) In a phone conversation with a loved one in March, I learned changes had already started.  Luckily, I was no longer the me decades ago.  I had (have) faith in the Loving Divine; I fully trusted All Is Well and only good came (or comes) out of all situations.  In April/May, I also learned of the big changes that were occurring to a family that I had indirectly come to know.  At night, I prayed for those that were going through these changes.  

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As human beings, sometimes we ask / pray / long for changes while at other times, we dread facing changes in life.  Changes are part of our life.  Spiritually, changes are opportunities for us to overcome something, learn life lessons, and / or to go on a new path.  However, in our human forms, it is hard for us to look at life situations that way.  Sometimes we spend our time blaming others / finding faults / dwelling in unwholesome emotions such as anger, pain, hurt, shame, and hate.   We trap ourselves in darkness.  We forget we are responsible for our own wellbeing.  We forget we have a free will.  We can choose to move forward with courage and a positive outlook of the future.

During the challenging restaurant years, sometimes I sat on bed thinking about the problems with tears dripping down my face.  One night, I heard (my guide said) "You can choose to be happy no matter what."  It did not go well with me then.  Over the years, I gradually found what he said was true.  It was one of the best pieces of advice about life.  When I dwelt in the lack, I continued to live in the lack.  When I lightened up my heart, I allowed grace, miracles and wonders to come into my life.  My heart was filled with gratitude and awe because of these touches of the Loving Divine.  

In any life situation / change that involve others, it is important to look within if we need to adjust / change / improve on our views or the way we live our life.  Love ourselves and bless others with good wishes.

If you have time, please click to view To Let Go Is . . . . 

May all of us go through life's changes in the ease and grace of the Loving Divine.

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

  

Prophecies, and What We Need the Most At This Time - 2

Greetings!

I would like to start this post with words of wisdom from my guides in The 'real beauty' of life is 'what you do not know' published on 9/23/2011 -

You want to know what's to come before it comes.  You want us to confirm what you think you know.  The 'real beauty' of life is 'what you do not know'.  For instance, if you know you will be very rich in May, you will look forward to May.  What happens in between now and May you will not handle them with emotions of not knowing.

With not knowing, you will handle whatever happens with creativity.  You will deal with them with your true emotions.  And to do that - living your life truthfully - is what life is all about.

I began writing this post on Jan. 23, 2025.  I just realized I received the above guidance on Jan. 23, 2003 which was exactly 22 years ago!  In  It is the not knowing that makes life intriguing , I shared some interesting experiences of not knowing too.

I supposed it was our human nature that we wanted to know what lay ahead.  If we searched online, we might find lots of videos on what were to come.  The end of time talks were nothing new.  Decades ago, I heard this story.  A woman lived in fear because she believed in the 'end of time' talks that she had heard.  She spent her money getting ready for 'what were to come'.  She died when she was around 40 years old.  People found her basement filled with packs and packs of bottled water, lots of canned food, and equipment for survival.  In another news many years ago, a group of people came to USA from another place.  They gathered on a mountain top.  Their (cult) leader had told them that a spaceship would come to pick them up by a certain date; they were the chosen ones to be saved.  That date came to pass.  They eventually went home.  

I did not say all prophecies were false.  There had been notable true prophets throughout history.  However, we should not simply believe in everything that others said particularly words that caused us to live in fear.

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The guest speaker's dreams did not stir fear in my heart.  Pease note that it did not mean I disputed his dreams.  I decided to join the meeting with an open heart.

The host had sent out emails inviting others to email him before the meeting what they had received in dreams or visions about what were to come.  He would compare the data to the speaker's dreams.  The host himself had read many books on prophecies and earth changes.

When zoom started, the host introduced a woman who corroborated with the guest speaker's dreams.  If I heard correctly, she did not live in USA.  I supposed she might have similar dreams / visions / she could be a psychic.  

The guest speaker began by sharing some of his stories that we had already learned from the host's email and attachment.  Later, he talked in depth about what the world would look like after the mass destruction and the safe havens.  He said there would be only a few safe havens, and his country was one of them.  He suggested for people to move there so that they would be saved.  He shared his views why USA and its people would come to a horrific tragic end as he saw in his dreams. 

When I wrote to this point, I felt I should pause before I continued.  I did not want to put this brother in a negative light.  He joined the meeting believing that a nuclear war was imminent, and wanted to warn others ahead of time.  As far as I knew, he did not gain anything by joining the meeting.    

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I had wanted to go straight to 'what we need the most at this time'.  I did not want to write about the guest speaker's personal views of USA which might put him in a negative light.  That was the reason for the pause in writing.  However, I had come to understand the value of sharing his views.  His views / experiences mirrored part of us in our reality.  In truth, his experiences were not just his experiences.  If we set aside our judgment, we could all learn something from OUR experiences.

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The guest speaker told us what he saw in his dreams - USA was totally destroyed and its people were massacred by people from different countries.  He said it was because USA had done lots of wrong to other countries and their people.  Hearing what he said, I realized his dream world might have been tainted by his personal views.  Everything Is Energy .  What he held in his mind (i.e. his views of USA) could have been reflected in his dreams.  (In The Conclusion of the Great Gray Cat , all of us in the family had dreamed of the cat after he moved on, and our dreams were different.)   

As grown ups, we saw ourselves as independent individuals. (Definition of independent - free from outside control; not depending on another's authority).  

However, our upbringing as well as our experiences had an effect or even an impact in how we looked at the world and life (e.g. the environment we grew up - the country we lived in, our culture, the society, church / temple, religion / no religion, what we learned from our parents / teachers / schools, our experiences with our family / relatives / friends / others and etc.).  At times we formed judgment / wrong views, but were not conscious that we did.  (e.g. In She loves her daughters more than her son , the waitress formed a view against her son simply because of other people's experiences.  In A talk among girls about the Criteria of an Ideal Husband, some girls were not aware that they had let a wrong view take root in their mind.)

I must add that some * people that lived under extreme dictatorship might not / could not be as free or as independent as they could be.  Sometimes they were being brainwashed since childhood through the educational system.  (*Some only.  There were always free thinkers that did not abide to what they were told, and fought for their freedom from whatever harsh conditions they were born into.)    

The speaker had told us he was in his 50 s.  USA and the country where he was born had long regarded each other as the prime enemy.  When he was in his late teens / around 20, that country dissolved into different countries.  By then, he had probably taken in the political views of his country about USA.  He now lived in one of those countries that declared independence during the dissolution.

The brother was not any different from us.  We had all taken in other views (incl. political) as if they were our own, e.g. a country's political stance, views from our family / friends / the society, and even cult leaders' / dictators' views.  In order to understand his views about USA, I could not simply think that he was wrong.  Upon contemplation, I realized he was not alone in his views against USA.      

The 2001 9/11 Terrorists Attacks came to my mind.  I remembered I was shocked and sadden because of what happened.  Every morning before I went to the restaurant, I sat in front of the TV watching the latest news.  At night I did the same after coming home.  Sometimes tears flowed down my face listening to the stories.  How could the terrorists do that?  My heart went out to those that had lost their loved ones during the attacks.  I prayed a lot at night.  I did not remember much about USA anti-terrorist wars in other countries.  I did remember I cheered as most did seeing the statue of Saddam Hussein, the dictator of Iraq, being pulling down to the ground in 2003.  By then, I was going through my own challenge watching my husband spent his time practicing the moves day and night.  Terrorist attacks still drew my attention, and I continued to pray for people that suffered when such incidents happened.  

The brother's words about USA led to my pause in writing.  As days went by, I realized there was far more to terrorism / hatred toward another country / its people.

In the name of righteousness, many wars were declared.  However, were there not wars fought mainly to maintain a country's political dominance in the world?  Yet, the same country / countries had turned a blind eye to great injustice such as the massacre of a certain race in another country.  There were also wars started for revenge.  Who suffered the most during wars?  The common people.  How many times we watched on the news that men and women held onto the dead bodies of their loved ones crying in the war torn zones.  Most people carried the sadness for the rest of their lives, but resigned to the brutality of wars.  Some grew up in hatred waiting for their time to avenge.  They blamed the country / countries that bombed their country, destroyed their homes, and caused the deaths of their loved ones /  friends.  Hatred blurred the sense of right or wrong.  Later, they joined terrorist groups or carried out terrorist acts on their own.   They did not realize their terrorist acts killed innocent people just as what happened in a war.  

Like the guest speaker, many of us had taken in a country's political stance or the doctrine of a church / a religion as if they were our own.  In a political climate where one country easily called another country the enemy, we might have unknowingly regarded another nation and its people as our enemies too.  Therefore, it should not be that hard to understand why the guest speaker said USA and its people had done lots of wrong to the other countries.  Many cheered after the death of Saddam Hussein the dictator, and felt victorious over terrorism.  BUT, most of us might not have given much thought / attention to the price of war - the innocent lives that were lost.  I searched online, and learned that 4.5 to 4.7 million people had died directly and indirectly as a result of the post-9/11 anti-terrorists wars in different countries, including over 7,000 service members of USA.  How would you / we feel if we were the ones that lived through the wars seeing our homes were being destroyed and our loved ones getting killed?  

In August 2021, US withdrew its military from Afghanistan.  After a long 20 years, the wars seemed to be over.  Was the war against terrorists really over?  The soldiers came home, but many carried the scars of wars physically and / or mentally for the rest of their lives.  Could we have taken another approach instead of starting a war?

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After the guest speaker talked, people were quiet.  It might be we had not expected to hear what he said of USA.  One person asked when the nuclear war would take place.  The speaker said it would happen in 2 to 3 weeks.  I had something to say, but did not want to raise my hand.  Knowing my English was not sufficient, I hoped and prayed someone else would speak up in response to what the speaker said. 

A few minutes before the meeting was about to end, the host asked one last time if others had any questions or wanted to say something.  I finally raised my hand.  I asked the speaker if it was possible that what he perceived as a nuclear war was an explosion of a natural cause.  He said it was possible.  I was nervous.  I did not recall all that I said, but my messages were always that of 'peace and do not live in fear'.  Unexpectedly, I heard someone cheered after I finished talking.  It kind of eased my nerves.  It was not that I was proud.  What was there to be proud of anyway?

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I paused writing this post because I did not want to put the brother in a negative light.  While trying to understand why he felt that way towards USA, the 2001 9/11 Terrorists Attacks came to my mind.  During the restaurant years, my husband and I worked 7 days a week from morning to night.  When we arrived home, it was almost 11 p.m.  Except during the 9/11 period, we did not spend much time watching TV.  Therefore, I knew very little about the other wars that USA was in.  In retrospect, the pause in writing and the surface of the 9/11 incidents in my mind were very much in divine order.

Many of us went through life seldom examined our views / attitude / patterns.  At times we thought that we were in the right, and others were wrong.  If we examined closely and truthfully, we might find that we were not that right either.  In writing this post, I realized it helped to listen to others with an open heart, and the importance of spending some time to examine the views we held. 

These days the world seemed to be in chaos particularly in USA.  Some of my friends said they had stopped watching the news.  

Sorry, it takes me a long time to finish a post.  I hope to finish 'What we need the most at this time - 3' before the end of February.  (Next post What We Need the Most At This Time - 3 )

Peace and Love, 

Q of D

Be Observant of Our Pattern / Attitude

Greetings!

There had been lots of Internet or Wi-Fi interruptions in recent weeks / months.  The connection was lost on and off throughout the day.  At times there was no Internet for hours or even for a whole day.  As a result, I could not join a few zoom meetings that I had signed up for.  In the last few days, the connection was better than before.  

 

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In my last post She said, "It is a shame that you have retired  (from healing work)."  I could not respond right away because her words caught me by surprise.  I wanted to talk to her, but she did not seem to want to talk to me anymore.  I decided to let it go.

I had not been a professional healer.    

In late May of 2005, I joined a spiritual circle that met every Thursday from 10 a.m. to noon.  Whenever it was my turn to introduce myself, I said, "I am XXX XXX.  I am simple".  Some at the circle were psychics, mediums, healers, and channels.  They said that I was a healer.  I did not take it to heart even though I occasionally felt a surge of energy when I sat among people.  To me, I was a novice on a spiritual journey.  Two months later, the teacher of the circle told me that my spirit guide had been prompting her to tell me to learn healing.  My English was not good.  It was already unconceivable that my guide told me to teach and write.  I did not follow the guidance.  I just could not imagine myself working as a healer in a western culture.

A year and a half later, I finally told my guides, "I am ready to learn healing.  Please bring me a teacher."  Near the end of March 2007, I went to a 2-day healing workshop that was held in another center.  

The teacher of healing came from another state.  (Posts about the teacher We are all divine instruments from time to time and Their Way of Being Inspired Me )  Originally, she had said the workshop would be held in our center in April 2007.  After a mini session with her during the psychic night, I had decided to attend her workshop.  However, I had not told her.  On the last Thursday of February, a friend rushed in.  She did not come regularly because she lived in a city that was not near the center.  The teacher of healing sent her to tell me the workshop would be held in another center and in March instead of April.  At the time, I had not subscribed for the Internet, and did not have an email address.  Both the friend and the teacher did not know my phone number.  I would have missed the workshop if the teacher did not send the friend to tell me.   The teacher of healing had said she was in constant communication with the Divine (e.g. archangels and ascended masters).  Indeed, she was.

When I told my friends that I had learned a healing art, the teacher *** of the Thursday Circle asked me to be the on-site healer on Wednesdays.  (*** By then, she was also the owner of the center.)  Some people might be excited about the opportunity, but I was not.  The other on-site healers in the center were experienced healers.  Besides, a couple of my friends in our circle were Reiki masters.  They were qualified healers.  I just went to a healing workshop.  I could not be an on-site healer.  The teacher of the circle who was a long time professional psychic said Wednesday was mine if I accepted.  She saw more in me than I saw myself.  I said I would not accept money for sessions because I really did not know much about healing.  She said it was up to me.  To my teacher and friend, thank you for your love and support.  (Re More on my journey as a channel of spiritual healing energy )

Five months later, we moved to another state because our older son found a job there.  (Re The Amazing Prophetic Dreams of Moving - Story 1 )

Soon after the move, the teacher of healing called.  She told me that two Unity ministers that had gone to her healing workshop would be visiting a Unity church in the city I lived in.  The teacher said it might be the three of us could offer healing after Sunday service.  It did not happened because the two traveling ministers were there for their own agenda.  However, going to Unity Church was very much in the divine plan.  While I was there, I met a mother and daughter who were both mediums.  They gave me the address of a small interfaith church.  They said that church was for me.  They were right.  I eventually called the small church my spiritual home.

Later, the teacher of healing came to the city that I lived in to attend some events in a big spiritual center.  She called me, and we met in a restaurant.  She encouraged me to work as a healer.  She suggested for me to go to different spiritual / healing centers to present (or promote) myself.  I could not follow through on her advice.  With little earthly qualification, I thought no center would allow me to work there.  Above all, I did not know how to promote myself.   (Re Their Way of Being Inspired Me )         

On the last Sunday of Jan. 2008, I participated in the small church's quarterly healing service as one of the healers for the first time.  (Re It is the not knowing that makes life intriguing )  

In Oct., 2008, I had a vivid dream. I did not know how to interpret it.  It so happened I visited a holistic store a couple of days ago, and took its brochure home.  After the dream, I learned from the brochure that there was a free dream interpretation on that day.  A few months later, I was shocked to learn that the store had printed out its Feb. brochure that I would be holding a healing workshop at the end of Feb.  Though I understood divine plan was at work, I was stressed out and got sick before the workshop.  I was made well the day before the workshop.  (Re A beautiful pink fish on the back of a white dove )

I was very, very relieved after the workshop was over.  I thought I would not hold another workshop again.  I did not know I would be holding the second workshop 8 months later, and would go through a drama of misunderstanding.  Eventually, my friends and I held two more workshops before I left that state in 2012.  Many people talked about creating vision boards.  In my case, the human I had not envisioned holding any healing workshop at all.  (Re  Cooperation and the human drama of misunderstanding )  

After the first two healing workshops, the church kindly allowed me / us to hold a healing circle once a month after Sunday service.  Many people had gone to healing workshops, but did not have a place to practice what they had learned afterward.  The healing circle was open to people that wanted to receive healing as well as those that wanted to give / practice healing (any healing modality).  There was no charge.      

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The incident (i.e. She said, "It is a shame that you have retired") happened in 2023.  It reminded me of a similar incident while I was with the small church.  After the quarterly healing service, a woman walked to me and said, "You are a healer!  Why do you work in a cafeteria?"  I was not good in remembering faces and names.  She looked familiar to me, i.e. someone I had seen at church.  While I tried to remember who she was, she walked away.  I wished both of them had taken the time to talk to me.  I would have been very grateful if they did.

The woman said it was a shame that I had retired from healing work.  First, I had not been a professional healer.  Second, I always held the pure intention of service, and was opened to be a channel of healing and divine blessings to the others wherever I am.  I did not think I had retired or would ever retire from being a channel of healing.  

I had not shared with my friends at church about how I came to work in a cafeteria.  It had something to do with a dream.  In a reading some months later, the channeled message confirmed there was a purpose for me to work in the cafeteria.  However, the plan did not come to fruition.  I had to leave that state because of my husband's condition and my son found a new job in another state.  As for the caregiver job, I thought of not accepting the job while I was driving home after the interview.  Lo and behold, the license plate of a car in the next lane drew my attention.  It was with the name of my angel!  And, I changed my mind.  It was the same with working as a volunteer for a Chinese charity group.  Week after week, there was nothing to do in the office.  The phone rarely rang.  I could not help but wondered why I was there.  The human I might not know the reason, but the Divine knew.  (Re I saw no purpose of being there )

   

When the 2023 incident resurfaced in my mind, I did not think much about it.  A few days later, two past dream experiences came to my mind.  

1.    In the dream, I kept asking myself, "Why am I here?"  (published on Feb. 15, 2021) and the subsequent post Have a Great New Beginning 

2.    The pattern in my life that needed to be changed (published on June 9, 2012)

It was a shocking realization that years and years had gone by, and I still went through life with similar attitude / pattern.  In August 2016, the spiritual teacher had said to me, "When you accept who you are, you will be much more and can help many people."  (Re Day 1 of the one-week evening spiritual retreat )  In recent years, I was at ease and at peace with myself / life.  I thought I had accepted who I am.  Obviously, it was a false assumption since I doubted myself even in my dream.  The resurfacing of the 2023 incident was a reminder for me to work on myself, to be observant of my action and thinking, and to let go of patterns and thought that did not serve me.

Nov. 28, 2024 will be Thanksgiving Day.  Happy and peaceful holidays to all of you!

Love and Blessings,

Q of D