Why are some people born with a life crippling condition?

Greetings!

Have you ever wonder why some people are born with a physical challenge or have life crippling diseases early on in their lives that may never be healed?  I find this entry dated April 5, 2006 in my journal.

We always associate healing with one's physical well-being, but it is not necessary the case.  There are healing in many levels.  One may come into this life with a physical challenge that may never be healed because it may be a choice he made.  Healing can take place among his loved ones while taking care of him.  Or, he may have chosen the physical challenge to have an experience.  Instead of totally dismantled because of his illness, he accepts, prospers, and lives a good life. 

The above were written under the date.  I did not record the reason or situation.  I supposed I must have asked a question, and I wrote down the words that came to me (probably from my inner self, guides or angels).

Some people looked at life as a system of punishment and rewards.  However, we should bear in mind that, as humans, we did not see the big picture behind every situation.  It helped to look at others with a positive, non-judging attitude.  (Please click to view Life is a wowing experience )

Peace,
Q of D

My heart knows the answer

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On Day 8 of Oprah & Deepak's Desire and Destiny 21-Day Meditation Challenge, we were guided to connect within by repeating a question.
                               
                                      "What do I want?  What do I want?"

The centering thought of the day was -

                                            My heart knows the answer.

The Sanskrit Mantra was "Om Varunam Namah" which meant "My life is in harmony with the universe".

So there I was, breathing in and breathing out, asking myself "What do I want?"  I repeated the question 3 or 4 times, and waited to hear an answer.  After a while, I affirmed "My heart knows the answer" and mentally chanted "Om Varunam Namah".  Then I started over again repeating the question, listening, affirming the centering thought, and chanting the Sanskrit Mantra.  This went on and on.  Suddenly, I had a flashback of an occurrence, and I knew it was true that "My heart knows the answer".

When the meditation was finished, I looked up the incident in my journal.

In the morning of Oct. 8, 2009, I woke up early.  Sitting on the night stand next to my bed were books that I had borrowed from the library days ago.  Randomly, I picked up a book.  It was "Soul Development - Edgar Cayce's Approach to a New World" by Kevin Todeschi.

In the quietness of the morning, I began to read the book.  Soon I was reading a story about a man who in his recent life was a warrior that attacked the Inca Indians.  He was not interested in simply destroying and overtaking the people of the land, but his counsel had been overruled.  As a result, he witnessed the horror and barbaric of war.

Up to this point, the me that was reading the book was very peaceful. 

I continued to read.  I read "Although the experience had been deeply troubling, it had also led to a soul longing to become a champion of hope and equality among all peoples."  The words touched every core of my being and vibrated within me.  I found myself becoming very emotional.  I wanted to read out loud "a soul longing to.....", but I could not.  Tears filled my eyes.  When I was finally able to say those words, my voice was shaking with emotions.  I knew deep inside me I had the same longing as him.  I wanted to be a champion of hope.  I wanted peace and equality among all people.  That was why I kept writing in my journal "I am here to spread love, peace, and joy; to connect hearts to hearts; to inspire and bring about the awakening that we are one."  

I know I am not alone.  Many of us want peace and equality among all people.  Deepak says there is no right or wrong in the answer to "What do I want?"  One's answer can be a house on the beach.  On the surface, the answer may seem materialistic, but we can ask for further insights.  When we move from our mind to our inner truth, a house on the beach may mean a desire to strengthen one's connection with nature or Life.  (If you want to hear the exact words of Deepak's insight of our desires, go to their website, log in and listen to Day 8 of the Meditation Challenge.)

What do you want, my friend?  What is your deepest desire?  Ask and you will know for your heart knows the answer.

Love,
Q of D

P.S.  Kevin Todeschi is the executive director and CEO of A.R.E.  I just go online and find out the above mentioned book is now printed under a new title "Soul Growth". Since 2000, I have read many books by different authors on Edgar Cayce and his readings.  Most of the books are inspiring and helpful on my spiritual journey.

42 angels. 92 angels. What is the dream all about?

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A few mornings ago (probably on Nov.11 or 12), I woke up from some dreams.  One dream in particular stood out because it was unusual.  I had intended to write down all the dreams, but I did not.  I wrote at will, and did not write in my journal daily.

Last night I sat down to write.  Immediately, the dream came to my mind.  Tried as I might, I could not recall any other dreams I had that morning except this one.  This was the dream.  
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In a big place, there were lots of people.  It looked like a spiritual conference or gathering.  The teacher or facilitator was a woman.  She said there was one among us who was most tuned in to the Divine.  She said a name and asked that person to stand up.  A slim, young lady in her 20s stood up.  "She can see and talk to the angels," the teacher added.

The next scene - The young lady was standing in front of me.  She said, "I can see 42 angels are working with you.  But, you need to increase the number of angels to at least 92 in order to do what you have to do or to achieve clarity."  She suggested I should invite more angels into my life.  The end.

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I recalled I found the dream kind of funny when I woke up that morning.  42 angels?  92 angels?  Where did these numbers come from?  It was one strange dream, I thought.

After I wrote down the dream, I looked up the numbers in my angel number book.

42 - Your angels ask you to keep the faith that your prayers have been heard and are answered.  If you need to, ask the angels to increase the level of your faith.

92 - Have faith in yourself and your ability to fulfill your Divine life mission.

*** I have only one angel number book.  It is a small pocket size book by Doreen Virtue and Lynnette Brown.  The cover is pink with a picture of an angel.  The title of the book is 'ANGEL NUMBERS'.  If you have the same book, you will notice the numbers near 42 or 92 do not include the word "faith" (e.g. 40, 41, 43, 44, 90, 91, 93 & 94).  It is no coincidence that 42 and 92 are paired up for the purpose of the message.  The numbers in the dream are symbolic.  I personally think they do not really mean the number of angels.

The messages were right on!  I really needed to hear them especially at this time. Despite of my strong sense of service, doubts had recently surfaced in my mind about myself and what would.  It was true I needed to increase the level of faith and have faith in myself.  Last night, I intentionally woke up from my sleep to talk to the Loving Divine.  I prayed for strength and help to continue living in faith.

"Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe..................Saint Augustine"

In love and faith, I share with you my experience.

Love,
Q of D