Part 2 - The Gathering

The posts in June and The Unexpected Incident published on July 5 are related.  If you haven't read them, please click to view them.  Now let me continue with the story.

In the afternoon (11/30/2008), a friend called.  She wanted to know how I was doing after the incident.  I sensed something was bothering her.  Suddenly, she asked, "Do you think it is bad to wear black color clothes?"  I said, "No.  I wear black trousers and sweaters sometimes.  To me, what matters the most is how we live our life.  Why do you say that?"  She said sometimes she wore black too, and agreed with what I said. She was troubled because the angel channel had talked quite a bit on colors, e.g. the colors of the clothes we wore and the colors of the cars we drove.  According to the channel, black was a bad color, and we should always choose the color white.  It explained why the woman (i.e. the channel) wore white clothes most of the time.

It was then I remembered the woman had announced during Sunday service that she had received some very urgent and important messages from the angels.  She urged everybody to stay behind so that she could share the messages.  I was the first one to leave the church because of The Unexpected Incident, but many people had probably stayed behind to listen to her talk.

My friend thought I might not go to church after what happened.  She called to pass on the messages so that I would be prepared for what was to come.  The angel channel said there would be the worst ever snowstorm around Christmas of 2008 in where we lived and many parts of the country.  The computer system would collapse because there would be no electricity for many days.  As a result, banks would be closed during that time, and people could not use their credit cards.  Stores would only accept cash.  The channel asked people to withdraw some money from the banks before it happened.

I thanked my friend for caring about me.  I said I really did not believe in what the channel said.  I said we should not bind into the mass consciousness of fear.  Still, my friend said for me to have some cash on hand just in case it happened.  After hanging up the phone, I had no intention of following the advice.  The church had invited many wonderful spiritual teachers to speak to the congregation.  All of them said 2012 was not the end of time, but an exciting new beginning.

At night, I could not sleep.  I wondered why I was moved to stand up and do the healing during service.  Why?  What should I do now?  In desperation, I picked up a pen and asked my guide for answers.  My hand moved and wrote (i.e. I mentally got the message and wrote it down)

                                           do go to Bob (*not the real name)

I asked again.  I got the same answer.  Bob was a wonderful spiritual teacher, Reiki master, scientist, performer (or actor), an international speaker and expert on UFO.  He was the office manager of our church.  It was a part time job, and he worked in the office every Tuesday.  Coincidentally, the healing prayer service which I had joined for almost a year was also on Tuesdays.  I decided to talk to Bob when the prayer service was over.

On Tuesday, Dec.2, 2008, I told Bob I was guided to come to him.  He said he was not surprised.  He listened patiently with a non-judging attitude.  He said a group of people who had near-death experiences met at a pastor's house every Tuesday night. They were gifted with abilities such as psychic and healing after their near-death experiences.  He said I might be able to get some answers from them.  I said I was not familiar with the roads especially at night.  Bob was very kind.  He offered to drive me there.

Before I left for the meeting, I prayed for answers and guidance.  I prayed for a confirmation that Source (or the Loving Divine) was working through me that Sunday during which I stood up to work on five people.

There were quite some people at the gathering.  I recognized a few faces, but most of them I met for the first time.  The friend who thought I was wrong to allow an external force to control me was also there.

People sat around and chatted casually.  There was no meditation or talk on spiritual matters.  Later, a brother from church walked in.  Before he sat down, he excitedly said, "Our church is so fortunate to have the angel channel!"  He related similar messages as my friend had told me over the phone -  there would be lots and lots of snow; there would be no electricity for a week or two;  as a result, people could not use their credit card or ATM cards, and stores would only accept cash.  Then the brother related the most disturbing message from the angel channel -

"If you can, it is good to get a loan from the bank now.  It is very possible you do not need to pay back the loan at all.  Due to the collapse of the electrical and computer system, there will be no record of your loan.  It would also be good to apply for credit cards and obtain cash for you do not have to pay back the money."

I was stunned!!!!

As much as I did not want to speak, I raised my hand and said, "Oh, my brothers and sisters, please don't do that.  Our integrity is very important.  We cannot go to the bank for a loan knowing that we may not have to pay back, or withdraw money with our credit card with the same intention.  There is nothing that we do is not known to the Divine.  We are spiritual seekers, we should know the importance of our integrity.  Honesty and integrity come hand in hand."

I talked and talked for quite a while.  I came right out to say that the church as a spiritual center should never feed fear to the people.  We should not bind into the mass consciousness of fear, but should focus on spreading love.  Yes, there would be changes.  However, what we focused was what we got.  We should focus on love for love modified all things.  

The brother said that the big corporations such as banks and credit card companies had made huge profits by charging us outrageous interest.  Therefore, there was nothing wrong for us to take advantage of the situation.

Someone also countered what I said.  He said the end of time was indeed near.  Soon there would be no need of a government and no need of money because what we needed could simply be manifested.  He said that I was wrong to say that the messages brought fear.  He had no fear of what was to come.  Instead, he was excited about the future.

I said he might not have fear, but we should be mindful of the possible fear that most people might have when we spread those words.  I said, "What if what she says do not happen this winter?  What about the integrity of our church?"

When I finished talking, I saw the pastor nodded at me with a smile.  For the rest of the night, I did not say anything.  I realized I was not there to get guidance or answers.  I was there to speak up.

People started to leave around 9 p.m.  My friend who knew me as quiet was obviously very surprised to see the other side of me.  She said, "I would never speak up as you do."   I understood what she hinted.  My words were not heard by some and had offended some.  But, for the love of God and my love for my brothers and sisters, I could not keep quiet when I knew there was no way those words came from the angels or the Source of Love.

Bob lay down on the couch, and put himself into a trance.  I knew he really wanted to get some answers for me.  He seemed to be mentally talking and listening to a source.  He nodded his head from time to time.  After a few minutes, he stood up, and we left the pastor's house.

Bob did not talk much.  On our way there, he only said a few words whenever I raised a question.  As he drove off, out of nowhere, he suddenly said, "It is definitely the Holy Spirit and or the Divine One is working through you."  For the rest of the way, he did not seem to want to talk.  I respected his right.  It was a peaceful night.  Before I got off, I sincerely thanked him for driving me.

After I spoke up at the gathering, I thought I would not get any answer that night.  Bob did not know I had prayed for a confirmation from the Divine.  For the quiet him to say that the Holy Spirit or the Divine One was working through me was an answer to my prayer.

When I looked back at what happened, I realized the divine plan was at work.  

The woman came from another state.  She said she was a healer and a channel for the angels.  For over two months, she had shared her angel messages at church after Sunday service.  I attended her first talk during which I spoke up because I sensed the fear of some in attendance.  I maintained we should not live in fear but love.  I held a neutral attitude towards her talk.

On the second Sunday, I wanted to stay behind to show my support as a fellow spiritual sister.  However, a new friend wanted to know more about me.  She did not care to hear her talk after the first meeting.  She asked me to go out for lunch.

On the third Sunday, a friend who had been away from church for a while wanted to catch up with me.  I asked her to stay for the talk, and then we would catch up.  She said if I wanted to attend the talk, she would catch up with me the following Sunday.  I chose friendship over the talk.  With these coincidences, I decided I would not stay for the talk again.

By Nov. 30, 2008, the angel channel had been giving talks after Sunday service for many weeks.  She had acquired a following.  Many went to her for healing sessions because of their concern for ascension or the adaptation of the new energy.  Twice she had run after me outside of the church to tell me I must have healing sessions with her.  On two other occasions at church, she came to me and urged me to book healing sessions.  I never did because the response I got from my spirit guide was a firm 'No'.  During those weeks, I never asked or nobody ever told me what she said in her talks.

If I wasn't moved to stand up and work on five people that Sunday, I would not have gone to Bob.  With Bob's suggestion, I went to the gathering.  It was in the gathering I learned of the disturbing messages by the angel channel.  Obviously, some people received the messages as a godsend.  My speaking up at the gathering was very much in the divine order.

As Bob was driving me home that night, my heart was peaceful.  I wasn't trembling as I did six years ago when I was prompted to go to a lecture and speak the truth.  (Click to view The Unfolding of A Test)

I continued to stay home on Sundays.  One day, a pastor called and asked me why I did not go to church.  I told him about the unexpected incident.  He paused for a long while.  He said most churches would not allow that to happen during service.  I said I understood, and that was why I did not go to Sunday service.

It was a warm Christmas (2008).  There was no snow in where we lived.  I took a walk on Christmas Day.  I had not gone to church on Sunday for weeks.  Strangely, I did not miss church for in some ways I knew I was never away.

When did I go back to church on Sunday?  What made me go back?  It was because of a powerful dream which I would share with you in my next post.


                                        ~     ~    ~  to be continued  ~    ~     ~ 

Click to view Part 3 - The Dream of 99 on four corners of big dollar bills and
                     Part 4 - Afterthought of the whole experience