Writing Is Healing

Greetings!

Last night, there was a severe thunderstorm.  We drove to the airport to pick up our son.  As we were driving home, the windshield wipers could not move fast enough in the pouring rain.  The visibility on the highway was very poor.  Luckily, I was not the old me.  I was calm and peaceful for I knew everything was going to be alright.

Years ago, I worried a lot.  When the sky was gray, and so was my mood.  When I learned the roads would be icy or there would be heavy snow, I would worry about the safety of my loved ones.  I lived in fears and worries.  Looking at the sky or the sea at night, I shivered.  If I saw similar scenes on the TV (i.e. scenes of the ocean or night sky), I immediately wanted to turn off the TV.

One morning, a sentence came to my mind at the very moment I woke up.

                      On a cloudy, gloomy morning, I go looking for the sun.

Strangely, I could not get the sentence out of my mind.  For the following days and weeks, I continued writing or expanding on this 'thought' whenever I had time.  I was surprised at the strong urge within to keep writing.  I had no specific idea how the writing was going to evolve.  In the last days before I was done with the writing, the emotion was very intense.  I wondered how the writing was going to end.  When I finally finished writing, the feeling I had was indescribable.  The writing ended with a sense of hope.  It touched on the light within, and the love that connected us even though we might not have known each other.

It took me about four weeks to finish the writing.  The writing was very elementary or childlike.  After I finished the writing, there was a change in me.  I no longer felt down or worried on gloomy, cloudy, rainy, or snowy days.  Furthermore, the scenes of night sky or the sea on the television did not bother me any more.  

Nowadays I can look up at the night sky with peace in my heart.  I feel that there are healing elements in the writing.  I hope to share with you, but it is too long.

Writing is healing.  Are you troubled by worries, pain, doubts, fears, or phobias?  It may be writing can help you too.  If you are willing, please pick up a pen and write (or you can use the computer).  I would love to hear your story of how writing or drawing has healed you.

I guess this is my last post in June.  It has been a good month.  Have a happy July 4!

Many blessings,
Q of D

P.S.  I published the writing as the first post in July since there seemed to be healing elements in the writing that I needed to share.  Please click to view On a cloudy, gloomy morning, I go looking for the sun

Giving and Receiving Love Must Be Balanced

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Today I facilitate a healing workshop with two other friends.  We pair up to practice sending and receiving love.  Not surprisingly, most of us find that it is easier to give than to receive or accept love.  We are mothers, daughters, sisters, and aunts in the family structure.  We are used to love, comfort, take care, and nurture others.  We often put our wants and needs at the bottom of the list.  However, we have to understand that taking care of ourselves is just as important if not more important.

Here are some words of wisdom from my spirit guides and angels when I asked them years ago about how to live my life.

"Life is like a sea, its ebb and rise are constant.  It is the mental view of self that sees it differently.  Everything is in perfect order as is.  What we want you to do now is to be more outright in the front.  State how you want your life to be.  You have always planned your life as if you are responsible for everyone.  No, you are only responsible for yourself.  In being responsible for your own well being, you influence others in a way that is much more than what you can perceive.  Don't spend too much energy wishing how the others will be or to be.  In doing so, you are not allowing others to learn their lessons.  You can ask or pray that they learn their lessons with ease and grace, but not the way you think things would be or should be."

I would like to share with you this experience.  It happened during the challenging restaurant years.

Most of our business came from carry-out orders.  Customers picked up their orders and left.  A few regulars often left a tip.  I served all with love and respect.  I never took into account if they gave me tips or not.  One day, almost all the customers that came to pick up their orders left me a big tip.  They did not say a word.  They just looked at me with love and compassion.  While my husband was driving us home that night, I was overwhelmed with emotions.  Tears dripped down my face.  In my heart, I said, "I am grateful for their (customers) kindness, but what have I done to put myself in this pitiful position!"  I 'heard' a 'sigh', and my spirit guide said, "Don't you know giving and receiving must be balanced!"

Tonight I would leave you, especially my sisters, with this thought - it is alright to be loved, and let us open our hearts to receive.  May we live a balanced life of giving and receiving love.  

Many blessings,

Q of D

Who are we and the meaning of life

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In my previous posts, I mentioned I joined a circle in a holistic center on the last Thursday of May, 2005.  We met every Thursday morning from ten to noon.  The facilitator was an exceptional psychic and a wonderful spiritual teacher.  The founder of the center was a bright light whose love and warmth had helped many on their spiritual journey.  She joined the Thur. circle regularly.

On July 14, 2005, the facilitator asked us to write a simple vision statement for our next meeting.  Since this was a holistic center, we had people walked in and joined us from time to time.  Whenever there was a new comer, we took turns to introduce ourselves.  Most of my friends at the circle were long time spiritual seekers and professional light workers.  They were very much at ease in saying who they were such as spiritual teachers, healers, psychics, and writers.  They also shared a story or two about their spiritual journey.  When it was my turn, I always said, "I am xxxxxx.  I am simple."  This was how I felt about myself.

Some of my friends told me they could see I was a healer.  In readings, the channels said I had been a Speaker, a teacher of the Word, a scribe, a scholar and so on for many lifetimes.  To me, I was a simple Chinese woman with only a high school education (not from USA) and who could not speak English fluently.  I could not identify with what other people saw of me or said who I had been.

For days, I could not come up with a word for my vision statement.  I felt frustrated.  I said to myself, "Don't be too serious about it.  Who cares what my vision statement is?  Just write something."  However, I just could not write a vision statement without myself believing in what I wrote.  After a few days, I decided to let it go.  If the facilitator asked about my statement, I would say I could not come up with anything.

On Wed. July 20, 2005, the day before our Thur. circle, I turned on the TV to watch Sylvia Browne on the Montel Williams Show.  It was a rerun.  I had watched it before.  I decided to turn it off.  Before I turned it off, I felt I wanted to know what the next woman was going to ask Sylvia.  The woman said her grandma (or mom) used to tell everybody she would leave this world with a big bang (=loud boom).  Nobody took what she said seriously.  At the time she died, there was indeed a big bang as if a massive bomb had exploded.  According to their local newspapers, the sound was so loud that the army and the police had investigated.  They could not find the source of the big bang.  The woman asked if it was really her grandma's doing.  Sylvia Browne confirmed it was.  She said, "We are all very powerful beings, but most of us forget who we are."  Immediately, something in me clicked.  "If everybody is a powerful being and so am I!"

I turned off the TV.  With my arms up in the air, I proclaimed -

I am a powerful, beautiful, loving being created by God.  I am love, peace, and joy.  I allow my light to shine brilliantly and lovingly, and be extended to all who come upon my path.  May God's blessings and healing be.  Amen.

Instantly, electricity was all over me.  Tears ran down my face.  I found myself in a powerful field of energy, and I felt light radiating from me in all directions.  I sat down and wrote my vision statement.  Throughout the day, I was in an expansive field of energy.

When I said my vision statement on Thurs., the facilitator said, "You may see yourself as an ordinary woman, but you don't see what we see . . . ."   To D and M - There were times I wanted to give up in this spiritual search for I felt that I was going nowhere.  Then I thought of both of you.  I knew everything was going to be alright.  Thank you for your love and encouragement.

I would like to close this post with "At Peace In the Light" by Dannion Brinkley, p.138. The Being of Light stood by and kindly told Dannion the meaning of life.  

"Humans are powerful spiritual beings meant to create good on the earth," he said.  "This good isn't usually accomplished in bold actions, but in singular acts of kindness between people."   The little things count because they show who you truly are.  You do it spontaneously. 

With love and gratitude,
Q of D

Happy thoughts produce a happy you

Greetings!

One summer day long ago, I sat inside our restaurant looking through the window.  The sun was shining.  The sky was beautifully blue.  I thought how nice it would be if I could go outside and enjoy this gorgeous day.  For seven years now, we had been working seven days a week and 11 to 13 hours a day.  I felt I was trapped in the restaurant.  I sighed.  I said to my guides and angels: "How can I return to peace?"

Let the beauty be inside of you
And you are looking from within
Feel it, Q of D
Feel the blue sky within you
Feel the trees and flowers inside you
Hear the birds' singing
See the birds flying happily in you
What you see is not outside of you
It is within you, Q of D

It is not the environment that is affecting you
It is what is within you
You can feel peace and calm in a thunderstorm
You can also feel unrest 
when you stand in front of a lake and there is no wind or sound

What you hold in your mind matters, Q of D
Happy thoughts produce a happy you
What does it matter what happens to you in the future
It is how you feel now, right now

Be happy, Q of D
You think too much
Quiet your mind
Don't be too critical of yourself
Smile, Q of D, smile

"Oh, I thought I was trapped, but I am not!" I smiled a happy smile.

So how's your summer so far, my brothers and sisters?  Great?!

With love and a big smile,
Q of D