Part Three - It is the not knowing that makes life intriguing

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This was the last part of the story about how I eventually participated in the quarterly healing service at the church.  If you haven't read part l and 2, please click here I said 'no' three times on this Sunday and Archangel Metatron and the healing session.

On Dec.2, 2007, I went to the Unity Church.  I learned they would have the Christmas play on Dec.16.  They had invited some women from the shelter to come and watch the play.  I planned to join them, and prayed to be a channel of healing on that day.

In the morning of Dec.16, it suddenly dawned on me that my wanting to be at the Unity Church might not necessary be right.  The intention was good, but it was the human way of thinking.  On many occasions when I was being used as an instrument, I had no idea they were going to happen at all.  Unity Church would have a loving service and a large attendance with or without me.  On the other hand, I foresaw that there might not be many people at the small church.  Most people were more likely shopping for gifts for Christmas than going to church.  I changed my plan.  I went to join my brothers and sisters at the small church.

As expected, it was a very small gathering.  The service was wonderful.  The speaker, a pastor, was an exceptional spiritual teacher and speaker.  His truthful voice led us into his experiences and past life stories as if we were going through them with him.  He was very loved and respected at church.  His talks always touched our hearts, and on a few occasions brought tears to our eyes.

When the service was over, I saw one of the pastors ** (not the speaker) walked out of the chapel.  Strangely, it 'came' to me that he wanted to talk to me. 

After the service, the pastors normally stayed in the chapel to chat with those that came.  There was no pastor at the door to say goodbye as some churches did.  I was usually among the first ones to leave during my first few weeks there.  Though small, this church had ten active pastors, and most were present on Sundays.  They supported the church / their spiritual home with their time and money.   

** When I visited the church for the first time, I was late.  The service had begun. The congregation was singing.  I went to stand by the wall next to a small column of pews.  A gentleman came to stand next to me with a song book.  He offered to sing with me.  It turned out he was a pastor and the speaker of that Sunday.  He is a wonderful brother who is wise and kind. 

The pastor was by the door when I walked out of the chapel.  He said he knew I had been attending the service for a while, but the church knew nothing about me.  He asked about my religious belief and how I started on my spiritual journey.  At the end of our conversation, he wanted to experience the healing art I learned.  He said he was in good health, but he was open to receive.  The energy that came through was very subtle.  I was at peace.  (I am a channel.  I do not concern myself with the outcome, and I do not take credit for any healing.)

On Jan. 6, 2008, the pastor talked to me about the effect of the healing session.  He gave me the phone number of Pastor K who was in charge of the quarterly healing service, and suggested that I called him to ask for his permission to participate.  I did not expect this to happen.  In many ways, I had the same hesitation as when the owner of the holistic center asked me to be the on-site healer in 2007.  I summed up my courage to make the call because I thought the pastor had already talked to Pastor K.

I was wrong.  Pastor K was obviously surprised of my call.  He asked me to talk to him on Thursday night when he facilitated the healing prayer service.  After the phone conversation, I decided I would tell Pastor K on Thursday that it was quite alright if he felt that I should not participate in the quarterly healing service for whatever reason.

The church was in a residential area, and did not have its own parking lot.  On Sundays, we parked in a parking lot that belonged to another facility about half a street away.  On weekdays, we were supposed to park on the street.  The street was not sufficiently lighted at night.  Since I was not comfortable driving at night, I planned to tell the pastor that I would not come to the prayer service again.

As it turned out, all that I planned to say was unnecessary.  That night, Pastor K said he could not facilitate the service anymore because he had other things to do on Thursday nights.  Another pastor did not want to open the door at night by herself because the street was dark.  The pastors moved the healing prayer service to Tuesday morning, and I joined them on most days for about 3 years.

On Jan. 27, 2008, I participated in the quarterly healing service for the first time.  The healing energy surged me and moved me to begin before Pastor K had finished his prayer.  Furthermore, the Energy guided me to work on not just the one who sat on my chair, but on different people in the congregation.  Understandably, some people who did not know me thought that I was either too nervous or I had a big ego.

As a channel, I knew the importance of putting aside my ego.  When I began a session, I never imagined powerful energy flowed into me.  I simply centered myself, and let go let God.  I did not concern myself if the healing energy was powerful, strong, subtle, hot, warm, or cold.  I had found the loving energy knew exactly what the recipient needed.  When the healing energy did not come through, I was honest about it too.

After the service, some people came to thank me.  I told them I wasn't the one who healed, and all credits went to God.  One person asked if I knew why I was guided to work on her knee for a long time.  I told her honestly that I did not know why.  She rolled up her pants, and showed me the long scar on her knee.  She was in an accident, and her knee was badly wounded.  Another person told me her pain was gone.  She wanted to book for two more sessions.  I offered to work on her at church in the coming Sundays for free.

On Nov. 25, 2007, I changed my plan, and had an interesting Sunday which led to a healing session by Archangel Metatron.  When I went to the small church instead of the Unity Church on Dec.16, 2007, I never envisioned it would lead to my first participation in the quarterly healing service as well as joining the healing prayer service for the next three years.

In one of my posts, I related the following words from my spirit guide -

"You want to know what's to come before it comes.  You want us to confirm what you think you know.  The 'real beauty' of life is 'what you do not know'.........."

He is right.  It is the not knowing that makes life intriguing and amazing.  It is the not knowing that give us an opportunity to handle whatever happens with creativity and our true emotion.  According to my guide, that is what life is all about.

Enjoy your life journey!  Keep in mind that God is expressing through you and me!

Love,
Q of D

Part Two - Archangel Metatron and the healing session

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Click here to view the previous post I said 'No' three times on this Sunday

On Monday, I picked up Marla.  Over lunch, she told me her story.  I would not get into the details because it was her story.  In brief, after a dramatic event, she suddenly found herself opening up to the divine.  She was guided to attend many workshops, learn healing, and uncover her gifts within such as channeling spiritual truth and wisdom.  Then the angels who worked with her, specifically Archangel Metatron, asked her to quit her job.  She worked in a corporation, and she liked her job.  It was not an easy decision to make, but she chose to follow the guidance.  She was told to travel to different places as a messenger for Archangel Metatron to meet up with some people whom she had never met before.

Before she and her friend flew here, they did not know anybody except Marla was told to contact the owner of a big holistic store.  After they met, he let them use one of his cars during their stay.  I had heard of him.  Now I understood why the license plate of the car they drove on Sunday was with his name.

As we talked, she said Archangel Metatron wanted me to have a healing session because I still regarded God was outside of me.  Her schedule was filled that afternoon.  She asked me to call her at 7 p.m. to schedule a session on Tuesday for they would be leaving on Wed.  I asked about the fee for a session.  Immediately, Marla said she heard Archangel Metatron said she should not accept any money from me for I could not afford it.  When I asked about the cost again, I learned it was $120 a session.  She made it clear she would not accept money from me.  She said the angels wanted me to learn that healing modality too.  She told me to go online to find out more about it.  (I did not subscribe to the Internet until Nov. 2010.)

Her story was incredible.  If what she said was true, it took lots of faith and courage to quit her job and go to people that she did not know.  I did not know if I was one of the people she was guided to contact.  In my case, I had said 'No' three times.  It showed how challenging her task was even with the help of the angels.  I listened to her story with a non-judging mind.  She did say two things that struck a chord.

In the car, she suddenly said: "You are here (i.e.  XX state) to stay.  You do know that, don't you?  You will spend the rest of your life here."  I was stunned.  Before I left Y state where we lived since moving to USA, the teacher of the Thursday circle had also told me XX was where I would spend the last phase of my life.

However, five years later (i.e. in 2012), we are back to Y state.  As a mother and a grandmother, I am happy I can see my loved ones often now.  Our third grandchild was born recently.  Holding him in my arms, I thanked the Loving Divine for such a great blessing with all my heart and soul!  It may be there is a change of plan.  Will I return to XX?  I don't know.  I do know that wherever I am, All Is Well.  ( Re Life is as God Is - Turbulence is a life force ) 

 After lunch, I drove Marla back to the hotel.  Out of nowhere, she said: "You always think your husband is very important (in your life), but he is not."  I was shocked.  I had not said anything about my husband.  It reminded me of the reading in March, 2006.  Near the end of the reading, the psychic medium said, "You always think you need your husband, but you don't need him.  He doesn't want to drive you, or he doesn't support what you want to do.  It means nothing.  You can go where you want to go and do what you want to do."

Whenever I wanted to go anywhere I had never been to, I asked my husband to drive me.  Sometimes he obliged.  Other times, he said 'No'.  He did not go inside the church or other places with me.  He was not interested in knowing how my day was at church, or if my workshop went well.  He did not want me to go among other people.  He wanted me to remain within the family or the way I was.  He rarely asked how our loved ones were doing too.  It was his way of being.  However, I would always remember the times he waited for me patiently outside for an hour or two.  I agreed with a friend's view that most of us tried to handle life the best way we knew how.  It was the case with my husband.  Although his inexpressive way might not meet our expectations, he loved us in his own way.  

At home, I decided I would not call Marla to schedule a session.  I always had a hard time accepting anything without paying.  So I did not call her at 7 p.m., but, Marla called me later that night.  She asked me to meet her at 4 p.m. on Tuesday.

On arrival, she said she got it before the session that I needed a healing from Archangel Metatron.  She asked me to sit on one end of the couch, while she sat at the other end with a laptop.  She stored all the questions she was guided to ask me in the laptop.  She asked a question, and waited for me to say yes or no.  For example, she asked -

                          Do you believe you are a spark of the Creator?

I agreed with all the statements because they were the truth as far as I knew.  Marla said I would receive a download from the Loving Divine, and new thought would replace my old thought.  I did not feel anything special during the session, or during the night after the session.  (She did not accept any money.)

On Thursday morning, I woke up from a good night sleep.  I felt the healing energy going through my chakras.  I lay very still in bed taking in the experience.  Suddenly, I realized the questions that were being asked during the session were actually in relation to all my chakras!  This realization brought me joy!  Later, I got out of bed singing the song  'We Are One'.  I sang it slightly different from the tune we sang at church.  We sang this song at church all the time, but it had not evoked the feeling of oneness.  However, as I sang the song that morning, I felt the at oneness.  It was so beautiful!

I sang the song over and over again during the day.  My husband saw the smile on my face.  He asked why I smiled.  It was too complicated to explain.  I just looked at him with the joy in my heart.  In the afternoon, I stood in front of the mirror and sang the song.  It resonated with my whole being.  Finally, I knew how it was that God and I are One, and how wonderful it is that I am never alone.

Incidentally, my husband and I both dreamed before we woke up.  My husband rarely talked about the dreams he had.  He always said he could not remember them or his dreams were nothing special.  It was very unusual that he actually described his dream vividly that morning.  My dream was short.  His dream was long.  I understood my dream as well as his dream. 

Over time, I could no longer recall the feeling (or understanding) of oneness on that day, but the experience bore witness to the truth of oneness.  The healing session by Archangel Metatron was very much needed.  About two months later, I participated in the quarterly healing service for the first time at church.

Strangely yet not so strangely, I felt the pulsation or vibration of energy when I wrote to the part "On Thursday morning.......I felt the healing energy going through my chakras." It may be you can experience it too as you read my post, because my experiences are not just my experiences.

Thank you, Archangel Metatron.  To Marla and her friend, thank you for what you do.  They flew back to their state on Wed., and I never saw them again in the years I was in XX state.

To all of you, I send my love. (Click to view The last part of the story)

Many blessings,
Q of D

Part One - I said 'No' three times on this Sunday

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Since posting My Big Moment of Embarrassment, I realized what happened was in perfect divine order.  It used to take me quite some time to open up to people in a new environment.  When the incident occurred, I was embarrassed.  However, I also found the whole thing hilarious.  With that feeling, I was able to break the 'ice' (which was formed by me and nobody else), and be more at ease with my new friends.

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Five months before I moved to that state, I finally following the guidance.  I went to a 2-day spiritual energy healing workshop.

A few days later, I told the Thursday circle that I had learned a healing art.  The facilitator who was then also the owner of the center immediately asked me to be the on-site healer on Wednesdays.  I was shocked.  I said I was not qualified.  The on-site healers on other weekdays were wonderful, long time professional healers.  Besides, some of my friends at the circle were Reiki Masters and had learned other healing modalities.  However, she said, "You need a place to start (the healing work), don't you?"  Meanwhile, all my friends encouraged me to accept.  Reluctantly, I said "yes".

The following Thursday I talked to the facilitator again.  I told her I was very grateful for the opportunity, but I was indeed not qualified.  I suggested that I would be at the center for a month, and then she chose someone else.  I mentioned our friends who were healers.  She looked at me for a while.  She said, "You may see yourself as an ordinary Chinese woman, but you don't see what I see.  You want to be like every one else, but, you are not.  You have to accept that you are different.  As long as you want it, Wednesday is yours."  I told her I could not charge money for the healing sessions because I was only learning.  In other words, I could not contribute financially to the center as the other healers did.  Kindly, she let it be my choice.  I was able to practice healing for almost five months before moving to another state.

For her love and support, I am eternally grateful.

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As you have read, I was not a participating healer in the 2007 October quarterly healing service.  I was new to the church.  I was usually among the first ones to leave the church when the service was over.  Though I was told to step forward, I could not see myself teaching and writing.  As for healing, I felt a powerful surge of energy from time to time when I sat among people.  A few of my clairvoyant friends had seen the sudden surge of energies around me.  In many ways, I did not see myself as a healer for God is the Healer.  I am an instrument.  I was comfortable to remain unnoticed.

After the healing service, I continued going to both churches at will.  On Nov. 25, 2007, I had planned to go to the Unity Church.  However, as I prayed for guidance that morning, I was told to go to FIL.  I followed the guidance, and it turned out to be an interesting day.

As soon as I sat down on the second last pew, the joy in me expanded.  Powerful energy began flowing into me.  My hands moved, and at one point my body turned to send energy to those who sat behind me.  I had to totally let go of the sense of embarrassment (or my ego) because I had made a vow to be of service.  As the energy flowed into me and through me, I was at ease and in peace.

During the service, the pastor asked those who came for the first time to stand up and say their names.  There were two ladies who came from another state.  They sat near the front.  I could not see or hear them well from where I sat.

When the service was over, a woman came to me.  She said she represented the church to officially welcome me in.  I found it strange since I had been coming to the church for some weeks.  She told me she was a retired minister of the church, and would move back to the state where she came from soon.  She said the psychic medium mother and daughter at the Unity Church had emailed her about me.  She said she saw me filled with the Holy Spirit during the service.  She asked about the healing art that I practiced.  (In later years, she visited the church once or twice a year.  I eventually learned she was clairvoyant, and was quite connected to the Divine.  I also mentioned her in my post The Lesson of Importance.  The last time we met she gave me a few words of advice on relationship.  I am grateful for her advice.)

Afterward, I walked to the front of the chapel.  I wanted to talk to a friend, but she was talking to a lady in her 30 s whom I had not seen before.  I waited by the wall.  A woman stood near them.  She looked at me and asked, "Are you waiting to talk to Marla (not the real name)?"  I said, "No."  I did not know who was Marla.  I finally let the friend know I would talk to her some other time.

I talked to another friend for a while.  I walked to the lobby.  I saw the same woman sitting on a chair.  She said to me, "If you want to talk to Marla, she is outside the door of the church right now."  I thought she must have mistaken me for somebody else.  Again, I said, "No."

The lady in her 30 s walked in from outside.  She sat next to the woman.  The woman asked me for the third time, "You want to talk to Marla, don't you?"  I responded with "No" in an impatient tone.  The lady in her 30 s looked at me.  She stood up and went to the washroom.

I thought, "Oh, Q of D (me), the woman who keeps asking if I want to talk to Marla is saying it out of friendliness.  Be kind."  In order to ease the situation, I tried to start a conversation with her.  I told her I prayed for a message from the Divine as what my life purpose was, and what happened on last Sunday.  The woman said, "See, I know you need to talk to Marla.  She brings messages from the angels.  Why don't you ask Marla what you want to know?"  It was then I learned the lady in her 30 s was Marla, and they were the two ladies who came from another state.  I was surprised and embarrassed.  I had said 'no' in front of Marla who was still in the washroom.  I told her friend I would talk to them next Sunday, but she said they would fly back to their state on Wednesday.  She insisted for me to stay and talk to Marla.  I decided to stay because I felt the divine was at work.

When Marla came out, we had to leave for it was time for the church to close the door.  Marla told me she worked with Archangel Metatron.  It seemed she had a busy schedule during her stay.  She asked me to call her at night to schedule a meeting on Monday.

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Energy did not pour into me every time I sat among people.  It only happened occasionally.  On that particular Sunday, the energy that came through was exceptionally strong.  I would not have met Marla, her friend, and the retired minister if I had dismissed the guidance and went to the Unity Church.  We might have planned our life before we came, however, we really had to thank our guides and angels for their hard work behind the scenes.

I will continue to share with you the story in my next post.  (Click to view the next post Archangel Metatron and the healing session )

Have a nice night!  

Love and Peace,
Q of D
            

When we forgive

Greetings!

I knew my English was barely enough for me to express my thought, relate what I understood, and share my experiences.  Thank you for your patience in reading my blog.

I found this entry in my journal.  Something must have happened, but I had not recorded it.  In the simple words that I knew, I did write down that day what I understood about 'when we forgive'.

From my journal dated 11/6/2007

When we forgive others, we are forgiving ourselves.  The truth is nobody can hurt us mentally except if we allow them to.  When somebody makes us angry, or we let their words hurt us, we are subjecting ourselves to their opinion.  However, we are responsible for our own well being.

Many times when people act negatively, they are in fact angry at themselves.  They do not know how to deal with their emotion, and vent their anger outwards blaming others for their misery.  Our immediate response can be anger for anger.  It is like we are suddenly being pushed, and we immediately want to push back.  We have to understand the anger is in him (or her), and not in us.  We don't have to react in the same angry way.  When we forgive, it does not mean we condone what others do. When we forgive, it does mean we release our reactive hurt, pain, or anger, and return to the whole me.

Love,
Q of D