We Are Multi Dimensional Beings

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                      We are not just Earthlings; We are Multi Dimensional Beings

After I published my last post, I went to bed and woke up remembering a dream that I had years ago.  In this dream, I was observing the me in the dream.

  

I was sitting on a beach *.  I sat there patiently.

* The observing me assumed it was a beach because all that I saw was an endless white ground which I assumed was covered with white sand.  I did not see water, tree, hill or anything else in sight.  I got the feeling that I had sat there for quite some time waiting for something or to catch something.

Suddenly, I felt a little movement deep beneath. I pulled out a tiny shrimp like living thing.  It was transparent.  In the dream, this tiny living thing seemed to be a great or an important find.

Next scene.  I was back in a lab.  The laboratory was a simple structure.  A few people worked there.  They began to examine the tiny living thing.  We knew each other.  We were a team. 

As far as I knew, there was no planet in our solar system that was covered with white sand / white stuff.  But then, the human I knew very little.  I did not know why this dream came to my mind.  I chose to share it even though I did not know the significance or if there was any significance of sharing it. 

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In Life's challenges do not break us, but build us , I wrote about the good that took place during the pandemic years.  

For years, I only went to spiritual events near me.  I never thought of joining meetings online.  Before our state issued the stay home order due to covid, I had signed up for a series of lectures.  After the first or second lecture, we had to meet online for the rest of the series.

During in-person gatherings, I usually sat near the back.  Sitting at the back behind many people gave me the sense of ease as I observed what went on.  I soon found out it was a complete different matter to meet on zoom.  The names and/or faces of all the attendees were on the screen!  Learning that the lectures were going to be recorded, I decided to turn off my camera except when I had to turn it on.  

The lecturer, though young (in his late 30 s or 40 s), was a good spiritual teacher / speaker.  After an out of body experience at 16, he wanted to find out more about life.  He read spiritual books, and learned how to meditate.  He meditated six hours or more everyday.  His innate abilities opened up.  Other than his in depth knowledge in spiritual matters, he was an exceptional clairvoyant and psychic.  He treated all equally, and never showed any sense of superiority.  His approach or communication with those that attended was always that of compassion and with the intention to help.  After the lectures, I joined some of his webinars too.

One day I asked about the constant pulsation of energy above my head.  He said it was because my 8th chakra was open and active.  It was then I remembered I had my aura photo taken months ago during a holistic festival.  The photo looked different from those on the display board.  There was a colored sphere a little distance above my crown.  The aura photo reader did not say much, and I let it go.  

On another occasion, he talked about my healing energy.  Then he said, "I can still see you even though you turn off your camera.  I know you don't want to be seen.  But . . . if you don't want others to see you, how are you going to do your work or do what you come to do?"  It was a wake up moment for me because I knew he was right.   In time, I thought of joining zoom meetings hosted by spiritual groups that were founded in other states.  It was because of his words that I challenged myself to leave the camera on.  I felt quite uncomfortable in the beginning years, but was more at ease now.  For meetings that were going to be recorded, sometimes I stayed for the meeting with the camera off.   

     

Joining online meetings was a new experience for me.  Later, I heard quite a few said that they were new to zoom as well.  This was another good outcome of the pandemic.  Zoom meetings dissolved the distance or the boundary lines between states and countries that were shown on maps.  It was particularly so in spiritual zoom meetings where we treated one anther with acceptance and respect; where we lived, our skin colors / ethnicities, and our difference in beliefs did not matter as we listened with our heart and embraced one another.

During spiritual zoom meetings, sometimes psychics/channels offered to give free, short readings.  There were also times they offered to read at an affordable price for small group setting.  At first, I was hesitant to join on the list that wanted to be read.  Since I stepped outside of my family in 2005, I had heard this or that about me.  Sometimes I found what others said of me quite unsettling especially from strangers that I did not meet again.  Therefore, I was not that eager to hear more.  However, seeing how joyfully others were in receiving whatever messages that came through, I gradually opened up to join in the fun too.  

In 2022, a channel offered to channel messages for free for those that attended.  When it was my turn, an ancient one came forth saying "you are one of the ancient ones who have walked in many places, and have walked the River of Gold; it is through the River of Gold the mastery lies.  This River of Gold is otherworldly; it is not found in this world . . . ."  In the reading, he asked me to hold his hand so that we ( with my soul) could move away from this world to observe Terra (Mother Earth) which was known as a gem for its beauty in the universe.  He said,  "We are observers, and we must rise above that which our soul inhabits.  So that we may see, truly see, that which is more."  It brought a smile on my face because I had always regarded myself as an observer.  (The channeled reading lasted for eight minutes.  Free, short readings normally lasted for a minute to a few minutes.  I usually just listened.  However, that day I had turned on my phone to record it.  With my memory, I would have forgotten some if not most of what the being said if I had not pressed the button on my phone.)  Here were some of the messages - the being said everything was about energy/vibration, and I had the power to ground words of wisdom on earth through writing / speaking; Earth held its own energy of the river of gold in different sacred places, but had not been fully physically manifested; I might touch these places by going to them; or I might call the vibrations of these places to me in my quiet time, so that they would be apparent to where I lived and worked.  

In one of my posts I wrote that I held the stance of neutrality toward readings.  I thought that was the right attitude because what came through a reading might or might not be true/totally true.  As I was writing this post, I realized I had used the wrong word.  My attitude was actually that of detachment / disregard.  I rarely meditated, and had not called forth the energy of the river of gold on earth as I had been advised.  When the Stone Reader talked about my smile, I put it behind me as well.  (Re Who Smiles? Who Sees? )  Though what came through readings might not necessary be true / totally true, my attitude of detachment / disregard was wrong.  This pattern / attitude neither helped me in my journey of self discovery nor helped me to step into the power of my truth.  It was indeed important to Be Observant of Our Pattern/Attitude .

The being said I could ground the energy of wisdom on earth.  An incident that happened while I was with the Thursday Circle came to my mind.  I believed most of us had heard the phrase 'All Is Well'.  One Thursday Circle, I shared with my friends the dramas in my life that had caused worries and stress.  At the end, I told my friends what I learned from my experiences.  I realized I did not have to stay in that emotional state; I could always pray for help and grace; all would come to pass no matter how dark the situation might seem to be; most of all, I learned 'All Is Well' in the Loving Divine.  Days/weeks later, a friend shared this experience.  The friend was deeply troubled by a situation.  She felt sadder and sadder the more she thought about it.  Hoping to return to peace, she sat down to meditate.  As she got into the meditative state, she saw a big tablet.  On it were the words ALL IS WELL with my name and year*** below.  Immediately, she felt peace.  (*** I had not looked up the incident from my journal.  I believed she said she saw 2006 on the tablet.  If you have time, please click to view Feeling okay in all situations is a big step in life )

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I joined two zoom meetings today (i.e. Nov. 22, 2025).  I enjoyed the meetings, and both hosts were amazing.  And, I had something to add to the above where I saw fault in myself for not following the advice to call forth the energy in my quiet time (meditation).  During the second zoom (2 - 4 pm), I suddenly got this from my guide "But, you have done that in your dream state."  Since the reading was not short, I had simplified the messages.  Below were the actual messages.

The River of Gold is otherworldly.  It is not found in this world except through vision and through travel, through space-time, within a dream.  Your dream world is firmly established.

I chose to share with you this experience because the source in Edgar Cayce's readings had talked about the importance of not to condemn others and not to condemn self.  In other words, if there were something we should improve on, we worked on them instead of dwelling in fault finding.

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Now let me get back to 'we are multi dimensional beings'.

One day I joined a zoom meeting during which we were going to connect with our ancestors or soul families.  It was a paid event.  The fee was very affordable.  The host was an experienced and gifted channel.  Sometimes she spoke light language during her channeling.  A few connected with their human ancestors such as grandparents and great grandparents.  A few were star seeds, and their star families came through.  When it was my turn, the host said a wide variety of soul groups showed up because at different points of my sojourn I was a member of these groups.  They sent me love and support.  I was reminded to use 'abracadabra' in manifesting because it was truly a powerful, magic word.  Caught by surprise, I broken out laughing.  I had heard this word on TV during magic shows, but did not know that it really carried magical power.  (With the way I laughed, my older son had said I might get into trouble if I happened to stand in front of the one who was in power now 😃.)

One year the professional psychics, mediums, channels, and healers of a wonderful spiritual group offered mini sessions at discounted prices such as 40 - 50% off on 11:11 (i.e. Nov. 11, the 1111 angelic day) to raise fund so that they could continue to hold zoom meetings throughout the year.  I booked 3 mini sessions - one for energy clearing, one with a psychic that I had never met, and one with a channel who was well loved and highly respected.  During the session with the channel, I was surprised to learn that I had a Mantis guide and a guide from Andromeda in addition to the spirit guides that I knew.  The channel said the Mantis spirit guide stepped forward saying that I had learned healing from them, and he was here to work with me in my healing work.  It was then I thought of my meeting with the long, tall being and other beings that appeared in different forms in a dream.  (Re my last post.)  The channel asked if I knew why I had a spirit guide from Andromeda.  I said I had no idea.  She said an aspect/higher aspect of me was the one who helped setting up the governing body in Andromeda; she was very loved and respected in Andromeda.  That was why a guide from Andromeda was here with me.  The channel paused for a while to get more information.  Then she said, "Oh, she is an oracle!"  Near the end of the reading, the channel asked if I had any questions.  I had no questions because I did not know what to think of all of these.  After the reading, I wondered if that was the reason that I 'got' the word Lyra.  (Re my last post)  From the information online, I learned some beings from Lyra later settled down in Andromeda and the Pleiades.  

I usually get a link or a recording for my readings from the readers afterward.  Before the reading, the channel said for me to follow the instructions on the screen after the reading was over, and I could save a copy of the reading.  I must have missed a step.  The reading was not saved.  I am way behind in modern technology.  I saw people held the phone and typed messages with one hand.  On zoom, I saw people used Chat with ease while watching the meeting.  Both I could not do.  Sometimes I did not know there was a message for me on Chat.  

According to Edgar Cayce's readings, we had experiences in other planets such as Venus, Mercury, and etc. except those experiences might not necessary be in body form as we were on earth.  In my understanding, it might be a cycle for us to go through the planets.  Some might be more in touch with their intuitive because they had experiences in certain planets.  Some of us might think the Akashic Record was god's judgment of us - good or bad, gained or lost.  In Edgar Cayce's channeled messages, it was our higher self / god self / the self that was of the Creative Forces who patiently wrote/kept those records.

While writing this post, I had pondered if I should skip some of my experiences that might give out the impression of self importance.  

I always held the attitude that I was neither inferior nor superior, and that  

  We are equal by nature.  No one is more important than another.

Everyone's life story was unique.  Over our numerous lifetimes, all of us must have experienced the highs, lows, ordinary and extraordinary.  In my sleep state, I had dreams of other lifetimes, e.g. I struggled to raise my brothers because the mother in that lifetime was not actively present, had husband(s) that did not have much emotion, was a wife/mother/daughter-in-law in an ordinary family with just enough means to live by and we lived in warmth and harmony, a healer, and a respected counselor to some families.

I re-read my post.  This post was about 'we are multi dimensional beings'. The experiences I shared were relevant, and they were not of self importance.  It might be I had not fully learned The Lesson of Importance .  

Coincidentally, in different zoom meetings I joined recently, two people happened to share their experience of meeting the higher aspect of themselves in another dimensions.  Both concluded their higher aspect and them were living parallel lives.  One said his higher aspect looked very different from the human self.  It was exciting to see/hear many people with special gifts and abilities had stepped forward to fulfill their purpose to serve others/humanity during this time on earth.  

Life is a journey of self discovery.  We are multi dimensional beings, we are.

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

We are not just Earthlings; We are Multi Dimensional Beings

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Continue from I am not just my personality & we are not just earthlings - 1 and 2 .

According to Edgar Cayce's channeled readings, we have two experiences while living a physical life on earth.  

One experience is our human self in the awake state going about our daily life.  The other experience is when we are dreaming, in a deep meditative state, or in an unconscious state (e.g. near-death experience).  The other experience is as real if not more real than what we experience while awake.  It is the scientific fact that everybody has dreams except some may not remember their dreams.  Dreams are not easy to decipher with our human mind or logic.  Therefore some people do not pay much attention to their dreams.

In Seth Speaks (channeled through Jane Roberts), Seth said most of us only used a small portion of our energy* to live a physical life on earth.  (* The universal life force or the Spirit of our being.  I could not remember the percent mentioned in the book.  I believed it was between 10% to 15%.)  Seth said he once infused a few percent of his energy into a dog to experience what it was like living as a dog; he also had a life as a soldier who died young in the desert because the energy he took on for that lifetime was not enough to survive the severe weather in the desert.  I used to look at my dreams as either my past lifetimes or future lifetimes on earth.  Over the years, I had changed my view.  Time was only relevant on earth.  In some of my dreams, it was obvious that what went on was in another dimension or on another planet.  From my experiences, I came to understand that 'we are not just earthlings, we are multi dimensional beings, and are having multiple lives simultaneously in different dimensions'.  

Please know that I am on my journey of discovery as most of you.  The above is my understanding, and may not reflect the whole truth.

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In order to write this post, I read some of my old journals.  As I read my journals, I realized I had forgotten some interesting events.  I also noticed I had forgotten to include in my journal a few wonderful happenings that I remembered clearly.  I did not write my journal daily.  Some days I did not write anything at all.  Sometimes I was so focused in recalling an important event that happened a day or two earlier, and forgot to record something wonderful that happened on that day.  

I began to write down some of my dreams and things that happened in my life in the latter part of the restaurant years.  I did not know that I would one day share some of my experiences in a blog.  I used about 8 to 10 notebooks a year.  I might remember this or that event happened during the Thursday Circle years, but could not pinpoint the month/year.  It was the same with the years that I was with the small church, and the years since I moved back to this state.  In recent weeks, I spent some time reading my old journals every day.  I realized there was no way for me to read that many notebooks to write this post.  I decided to stop reading and write from my memory (particularly dreams) if I had to.  Below are some of the correlations between my dreams, what I heard years ago while I was with the Thursday Circle, and readings/channeled messages in later years.

On Aug. 25,2005, the teacher of the Thursday Circle wanted us to practice our psychic ability.  We were supposed to take turns standing in the front, and let things come to us such as images and messages; we then related what we received to the one we thought the messages were for.  The teacher was the first one to go to the front.  Then it was the owner of the center.  They were both amazing.  Next was a woman whom I met for the second time.  

The first time we met was a month and a half ago.  The teacher said the woman was a long time professional healer.  The healer said she rarely attended spiritual circle in the morning.  

Upon entering the center that day, the teacher gave each one of us a small piece of paper to write down our name, fold it into a tiny square, and put it in a small velvet bag.  After meditation, the teacher told us we were to practice giving readings; we took turn to get a tiny square from the bag, held it in our hands, said the images/information that came to our mind, and then unfolded the paper to see whose name was on it.  When it was the woman's turn, she said, "Wisdom, truth, and this person is a healer."  

Incredibly, she had randomly drawn her own paper!  Both times she and I happened to sit next to one another.  I could feel her exceptional energy.  She was indeed a powerful healer, wise and truthful.   

That day the owner of the center happened to draw the piece of paper with my name on it.  She saw vivid images of what I would do.  I had a hard time of accepting what she saw of me.  I thought, "I am just the simple me. I could not be the one she described." 

The healer went to the front.  She began to give readings.  Then she asked if she could give readings for each one of us because she was receiving a lot of images and information.  She said she had never done that before (i.e. read many people), but was prompted to do so.  We gladly opened to receive.  When it was my turn to be read, she said -   

Ancestors history

Ancient, Ancient, Ancient

I see a yin and yang symbol

I see you riding a big, white elephant with shiny, long white tusks

I see that you have planted many seeds, and you should wait for the harvest 

You often feel uncertainty and think what you are told are impossible; 

you work too hard like a candle that is lit on both ends. 

She talked about a man that would be important to me 

She asked me to drink Oolong tea, wear jade, and buy a small lucky bamboo tree.

My response to her reading was joy because I thought how interesting it was for her to see all those images.  (She had said she was clairvoyant and often saw symbols.)  It was true I often felt uncertainty, and thought what I was told was impossible.  She was the third person that said I worked too hard.  In my quiet time, my mind was not quiet 😊.  As regards to the man she talked about, I had no recollection of what she said at all!  Incidentally, a little while back, a psychically gifted friend, holding my rosary, suddenly asked me, "Who is Joseph or whose name starts with J?"  I told her I did not know anyone whose name started with J.  In my heart, I thought, "Could it be Jesus?"  My friend said for me to remember that a man whose name started with J would be very important to me.  In respect to being 'ancient', I always felt being an old soul did not mean much; life on earth was like a school, we all went through the stages.  When I was home, I began to doubt because jade, Oolong tea and lucky bamboo tree were popular in the Chinese culture.  I used to wear a jade pendant, but stopped wearing it because the necklace was broken.  I continued to drink Ti Quan Yin, my favorite tea.  (I did not subscribe for the Internet until Thanksgiving of 2010.  I eventually learned Ti Quan Yin was a type of Oolong tea.  )

If I recalled correctly, she did not come again until months later.  It was the last time we met.  After the circle was over, she talked to me.  She kind of admonished me for not wearing jade as she had told me.  I told her I used to wear a jade pendant, but the necklace was broken.  She said it was important for me to wear Jade, and that I could simply use a string for the jade pendant.  I could sense her sincerity and truthfulness.  I felt sorry that I had doubted her advice.  Later, I happened to see a discount coupon of a jewelry store near me among the coupons I received every week.  I went there to have the necklace fixed.  

On Nov. 27, 2010, I had an Akashic Record reading by a well respected brother in the small church in another state.  He was a trance channel and a wonderful spiritual teacher.  In his trance state, he saw my Book of Life.  He said it was a thick ** book with a lavender cover; over the cover was a screen with diamond shapes of jade, and carved ivory in circular patterns as swirls of light and breeze.  (** correlated with ancient ?)  I realized the words that came through the healer whom I met in 2005 were quite accurate.  Wearing jade helped to activate, enhance and magnetize my energy.  The 2010 channeled reading answered the questions I had about the surge of energy when I sat among people.  For years, I thought that my limited English was my shortcoming, and being a Chinese woman in a western culture was a disadvantage.  From the reading, I learned that my views were wrong, and it was by design that I came in this way.  (Re Our Self-perceived Shortcomings and Disadvantages )

In 2006, other than The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the Second Reading , I had a third reading.  Without a job/an income, I had not thought of having another reading.  The owner of the center had always treated me with much kindness, and insisted on paying for me for a reading by the Stone Reader.  (Please read the postscript at the bottom of Who Smiles? Who Sees? about the Stone Reader.)  Some might wonder how I could have forgotten about the Stone Reader's words about my smile.  It was because there was more to what he said of me.  

Upon entering the room for reading, I saw a table full of stones and crystals.  The Stone Reader asked me to pick 4 to 5 pieces.  I let my energy guide me to pick 5 of them.  The psychic, holding one stone at a time, related the messages that came through the stone.  At one point, the Stone Reader talked about a few of my lifetimes.  In one lifetime, I came on earth as a male monk in the place we now called Indonesia, taught a few students about transpersonal consciousness and stuff; I left not by death but by dissolving the body.  He saw a picture of me (a male monk) with the date 422 B.C.  Afterward, I did not know what to make of the reading, and put it behind me.

In my journals of 2005, there were entries of UFOs or spaceships that I had long forgotten.  (Times flies!  Twenty years had gone by.)  For example, on Nov. 17, 2005 there was a short entry that I had a lot of dreams including I seemed to be in a spaceship, or from one spaceship into another.  On the morning of Dec. 15, 2005, I held two quartz crystals in one hand with both pointed ends facing outward because I had read that a crystal that was pointed at both ends was for recharging energy.  I closed my eyes, and had an experience.  I did not know if I had fallen asleep or had a vision.  This was the account of the experience in my journal.

I entered into another state.  I was somewhere looking up at the blue sky with some white clouds.  Suddenly, I saw a round spaceship flew past something.  I called out for others to look up.  Right then I saw a bigger spaceship flew past the same area.  I called out for other people to look up again.  When others heard me and looked up, the spaceships had disappeared.  Since they did not see what I saw, they wondered if I really saw the spaceships.

Next I was out of there.  I felt my 3rd eye area was glowing or lighted up.  I felt anxious.  I did not want to see the spaceships again.  I had some fear or anxiety that I would enter that state and see the spaceships as clear as day again.  It was just too much for me to see one spaceship sped past another spaceship.

Then I was somewhere else.  I was on my way to work.  I was descending down the stairs to get to work.  In contrast to seeing spaceships in broad daylight, the scene descending/walking down the stairs was dark.  (In my dreams, dark setting was symbolic to mystery or something unfolding that was not supposed to be known to the human self.)  After a flight of stairs. we turned and walked another flight of stairs.  We were descending down the stairs to go to work, and might not go to the same place.  There was no talking as we walked.  As we were walking down, some were walking up; one of the women seemed to greet us.  The end.

Incidentally, after I woke up, I saw in the mirror a big bump on my forehead.  It did not hurt, but it was big.  I did not write about the bump again in my journal, and believed my forehead must have returned to normal later.

FYI - There was one entry in my journal that sometimes big spaceship might signify a major event on earth.  I did not know if I really got this from my guide. 

On Dec. 25, 2005, I had a dream that I was somewhere visiting.  I walked to someone and someone walked toward me.  We hugged.  There was so much love that words could not describe.  

When I wrote my journal, I began to judge my dream experience with my human mind.  I wrote all the people or beings there did not look like regular people.  There was something abnormal in each one of them.  Their physical features were different.  Then I wrote, on further thought, they were just different and appeared in all forms.  

In the dream, I was full of love / shone with love and so was the long being.  He looked very strange, long, and irregular.  As we hugged, there was so much love.  In fact, the whole place and every being was filled with love, and full of love.  

There was a big, big camera on a movable stand.  There was a being behind the camera.  It was as if a camera man making a documentary / movie on earth.  As the beings and I hugged, the light of love expanded.  The camera was a tool there to keep a record (of my visit?).

In life, I would have refrained from doing what I did in the dream because I did not want to be in the spotlight. 

However, in the dream, love was so natural.  The pure energy of love was overflowing, and everyone there was love.  I knew the camera was there, and it did not bother me at all.  (This was the dream I still remembered.)

I read a couple more old notebooks, and decided to stop.  In later years, I knew I had other dreams such as realizing I was inside a spaceship and worked there.  However, in 2005, I looked at them as dreams, and regarded myself as only a human being.  In later years, I remembered one morning I woke up with a word 'lyra'.  That was all.

I will continue to share my story of discovery in my next post since this post is already too long.  (Next post We Are Multi Dimensional Beings )

Love and Blessings,

Q of D

I am not just my personality & we are not just earthlings - 2

Greetings!

Fall is my favorite season. 

The weather has been nice.  There have been lots of construction near where I live.  As a result, Geese and ducks rarely stop by the school fields anymore.  I have seen a few cicadas clinging onto trees in the process of getting out of their old skins, a big monarch butterfly, a beige leaf-like moth about 2"x2", and a larva with special pattern* crawling across the track right in front of me.  *I had seen the same patterned larva two other times over the last 13 years.  I could not find a match online.

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Since I published my last post I am not just my personality & we are not just earthling - 1 near the end of July, I had been working on this post on and off for weeks.  I thought I could finish it on the 29th of August.  After I signed in to my blog, I decided to read an old post.  When I went back to the draft, I must have pressed a wrong key or did something wrong.  Everything was erased.  I tried all that I knew of such as clicked on the undo arrow and tried to retrieve the content from the time stamp in history.  It did not work.  Not long after, there was no Internet for the rest of the day.  Luckily, it was the new me; otherwise, I would have felt very frustrated.  In some ways, I felt good to start the post anew.

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On zoom, I had heard people said that they felt earth was not their home since they were young.  Some of them eventually found out from channels that their souls were originated from other star systems.

Growing up, it never crossed my mind that I was anything else other than a human being.  In our Chinese culture, we believed in the afterlife and reincarnation.  When someone died, the soul left the body and went back to the other side waiting to be born again.  For those that lingered on earth, we called them ghosts.

Since young, I observed the lines on my palms looked different from my siblings and other children.  Mine were deep and more complicated than theirs.  In my teens, I read a few books on palmistry.  There was a time I read others' palms so as to practice what I learned.  I seemed to get the hang of it.  After I got married, I put all that I had learned behind me.  As I aged, the lines on my palms were no longer deep.  They looked pretty normal now.

As a small child, I had long, vivid, story-like dreams.  Upon waking up, I was eager to share my fascinating dreams, e.g. I dreamed about a story in which I was riding a horse in vast land and dreams where I flew instead of walking.  My family thought that my dreams were my imagination.  I had not learned to read, and there was no television until many years later.  I had always been observant.  I knew who was sad or happy.  When I observed others were not really interested to hear my dreams, I began to keep them to myself.  Gradually, I tried not to think too much about my dreams except when I had those out of nowhere dreams that captured my attention.  Anyway, that was how I got the nickname 'the Queen of Dreams'.  

In I was nicknamed the Queen of Dreams , I shared a dream about my grandfather.  A dream also played an important role in my marriage.  I remembered some of those out of nowhere dreams clearly even though I had not written them down.  I only began to write down some of my experiences and dreams after 'Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream' - an incredible phenomenon in the restaurant years.

I worked for some years before I got married.  At work, I put my observer mode on hold, and focused on doing my job.  In Edward Snowden, and, the line between right or wrong , I had shared some of my work experiences.  

I felt blessed when I became a mother.  I observed my sons were quite different in personalities, but were wonderful in their own way.  Watching them grow brought me joy.  I was a simple Chinese woman.  I was not into fancy clothes or luxurious things.  Fame, fortune, and winning / success were not important to me.  I had a part time job working 28 to 35 hours a week during the day.  I was happy that I did not have to work at night.  My husband was a cook.  He worked six days a week from morning to night, and came home around 11 pm.  To me, it was very important that I was home to cook and take care of our sons.  I was content with my simple life.  

Then came the restaurant years.  

From what I had shared, you probably understand that I did not want to get into the restaurant business.  One of these day I might (might only) share more about my experiences during those years, and the unexpected challenges before and after the restaurant was opened.  (In retrospect, many of our experiences could be 'quite a story' if we looked at them from an impersonal standpoint.)  My husband had high hopes for the business.  With the unexpected problems one after another, he slowly blocked out the situations, and left them for me to handle.  Here came the lesson of resentment because he was the one who insisted to have a restaurant.  However, seeing how he was, I could not help but looked at him with compassion.  With nowhere and no one to turn to, I began to pray / turn within; as I prayed, I included other people / families that I met (e.g. I saw someone was sad or sick, or when I heard of a divorce / death in a family).  (In my post  "In the name of God, heal!" , I prayed for the customer/friend and the worker in the store with all my heart because I truly cared about them.  All healing were the Grace of the Loving Divine.)

One night, I invited highest loving beings from other dimensions as well as loving beings on earth to join hands with me to form a big Circle of Love around the world; I prayed for world peace and those that were suffering.  (I had written about the Circle of Love in More on my journey as a channel of spiritual healing energy ) 

In the last quarter of 1999, I found myself being pulled out of my sleep to see 4:44 a.m. again and again.  One morning in the early hours, I heard a man's voice loud and clear saying the strangest sentence that I had ever heard.  Meanwhile, I happened to see 444 quite often, e.g. cars with 444 license plates, invoice with the number 444, and 4:44 p.m.  One day, I found a small green bible in my sons' room.  As soon as I picked it up, a page number came to me.  There was a name on that page.  Then I 'got' another page number, and the same name was on that page.  (Re The background of the significant experience of the birds )  These incidents caused me to look for answers.  I began to borrow spiritual books from the library.  From books, I learned that we all had spirit guides and angels supporting us, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love.  We sold the restaurant business in 2004.    

From the restaurant years, I learned -

No matter how dark the situations may seem to be, all will come to pass.

Don't dwell in our own misery, look beyond it; look at others with love and compassion, and we will realize we are not the only ones that are suffering; there are others, to a lesser or greater degree, that are dealing with their own pain / suffering / challenges too.  As we connect others with love and compassion, the heaviness in our heart is lightened because love modifies all that is not of love.  When we look past our own suffering, We can all be the love and support to one another no matter what situation we are in.  When we open to love, we open ourselves to recognize the beauty, grace, mercy, synchronicities, wonders, and magic of life.  We begin to see life in a new light.  

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In late May, 2005, I spotted an ad on a spiritual magazine about a circle that met every Thursday morning from 10 to noon.  That center was not far from where I lived.  I wanted to join the circle, but part of me was afraid to step outside of my comfort zone.  I had a hard time falling asleep on Wednesday night.  I tried to talk myself out of it, e.g.  my English was not good, I was not a psychic or a healer.  Hours went by.  Finally, I said to myself, "I am not going to the circle."  And, I fell asleep. 

I was soundly asleep when the phone rang.  It took me a while to get out of my sleepy state to grab the phone.  On the phone was a woman who sounded as sleepy as I was.  She said, "I must have the wrong number."  Then she hung up.  I was upset because her call woke me up.  I looked at the clock.  It was past ten o'clock.  I 'got' that it was my spirit guide's way of waking me up to go to the circle.  I hurried up to get ready.  I asked my husband to drive me because he drove faster than I did.  Arriving at the parking lot, it was far too late to join the circle.  I told my husband I just wanted to go inside and have a look; I would be out in a minute.  The owner of the center greeted me warmly, and insisted for me to stay.  The energy of the circle was wonderful.  I told my husband to pick me up later.

When I joined the Thursday Circle, I saw myself as a novice on the spiritual journey.  Whenever someone new came, we took turns to introduce ourselves.  I often said, "I am XXXXXX.  I am simple."    (Sometimes I said 'I am a simple Chinese woman'.)  On Day 1 some at the circle said that I was a healer.  They said they could see that in my energy field.  I did not know what to think of it.     

During the time I was with the circle, sometimes spiritual teachers, workshop facilitators, psychics/mediums, healers, channels and radio spiritual talk show host dropped in.  I did not know them, but some regulars at the circle did.  (They might have held workshops or classes in the center at night.  I rarely went to the center at night.)  On a few occasions, some of them said things about me that I had not expected to hear.       

For example, one day a woman walked to me after the circle was over.  The teacher of the circle had told us that she was a famous psychic who had her own radio talk show.  The woman asked, "You write, don't you?"  My immediate response was, "No, I don't.  My English is not good."  She said, "You do write down what happens in your life."  I was somewhat surprised and wondered how she knew.  (Ah! I forgot she was psychic!)  She said, "You may think what you have written down are simply your personal experiences, and nobody is going to read them.  One of these day many people are going to read them.  Use the Internet . . . ."  I told her I did not have Internet.  She encouraged me to keep writing.       

It was interesting that I just recalled this incident as I was writing today (9/22/25)!  My guides and angels had told me to teach, write and most importantly to sit among people without delay in my Dec. 2001 reading.   After the reading, I told my younger son about it.  I myself did not think I could/would ever teach or write.  In August 2007, my older son asked us to move to another state with him.  (Re The Amazing Prophetic Dream of Moving - Story 1 )  As a result, we and our younger son's family lived in different states over 700 miles apart.  Before Thanksgiving of 2010, my younger son convinced me to buy a new computer and subscribed for the Internet so that I could video chat with his family.  Not long after,  he urged me to create a blog.  Knowing me, he insisted that I must set a deadline when I would publish my first post.  I was reluctant to do that, and gave myself ample time (3 months!).  I made it on the last day.  

During my two years (May 2005 to August 2007) with the circle, I had heard things about me that were hard for the human me to take in or accept.  Some people might be overjoyed in hearing he or she was this being or that being.  It was not me.  It had much to do with my mentality or personality.  I liked being the simple me, and observed what happened around me.  

In elementary schools, I did not join small groups as most little girls did.  When there were conflicts between groups, sometimes my classmates came to ask for my opinion.  They often listened to what I had to say.  In different elementary schools,  I had been chosen by my classmates or appointed by the teachers as the captain of the class.  I had not wanted to be the captain, and would have been happy for my classmates who had wished to be the captain.  

The psychic that gave me a reading in March 2006 ** described how I felt accurately.  Near the end of the reading, she looked at me with compassion, she said, "You come to live as an ordinary person; indeed, you want others to see you just like everybody else, and nothing more; but you also have to accept the truth that you are . . . .and, this has been a challenge for you.  You don't see what I see.  You are a wondrous light.  Place your trust in God.  Just be, let yourself be."  (** I went to a holistic festival.  I put my name in a jar for drawing.  Days later, I learned I had won the grand prize.  Re The Grand Prize (a $100 gift certificate) and the Second Reading  )

In 2016, ten years after the March 2006 reading, the spiritual master who came from another country said to me, "When you accept who you are, you will be much more and can help many people."  (Re Day 1 of the one-week evening spiritual retreat )  

The spiritual master's words drew a strong reaction within me that night.  Nine years had gone by.  Soon it would be 2026.  I believed self-acceptance and The Lesson of Importance could be the challenge I chose to overcome in this lifetime.

Due to the pandemic, I ventured into something new.  I began to join meetings on zoom.  The groups I joined were founded in other states.  I felt more relaxed because people did not know me.  I had heard many wonderful personal stories.  There were so many people with amazing gifts and abilities.  Once in a while, healers offered free healing sessions, and psychics/mediums/channels offered to give short readings / messages for those that attended.  Incredibly, I found the messages that came through correlated with some of my strange dreams and things people said about me during my time with the Thursday Circle.  

                                           Life is a journey of self discovery.

I used to think I was just a human being.  As my journey continues, I discover my old view of self may not be correct.  

In my next post, I shall share some of the correlations between my dreams, what I heard years ago, and readings/channeled messages in recent years.   (Next post We are not just Earthlings; We are Multi Dimensional Beings )

  

Love and Blessings,

Q of D