Greetings!
The one-week spiritual retreat began a day after the healing workshop was over.
We were supposed to meet in Samuel and Beth's house at 7:30 p.m. During the second day of the healing workshop, Samuel announced the retreat would start at 8 p.m. instead of 7:30 p.m. Two days later, the starting time was changed to 8:30 p.m.
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Samuel and Beth's house was not far from where I lived. It was a big, beautiful house filled with wonderful, peaceful energy.
I seldom went out at night. With age, my eyes' receptivity to light was down. I had no problem driving home after work in the evening because I was familiar with those roads. They were main roads, and were well-lighted at night. I knew I would be fine driving to their house since the sun was still up. However, I felt anxious about driving home afterward because most residential areas did not have sufficient lighting.
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When I entered the house, some people were waiting to greet the spiritual teacher.
There was an old Chinese saying that we should follow other people's customs when we were in their house / community. In other words, we should respect other people's culture and tradition. When it was my turn, I showed the teacher my respect with all my heart and soul. Samuel talked to the teacher about my energy. In response, the teacher said to Samuel, "She is an instrument." He turned to me and said, "When you accept who you are, you will be much more and can help many people." He blessed me by placing his hands over my head. Other people were waiting to talk to him. I did not ask him to explain, but his words drew a strong emotional reaction within.
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A woman said the teacher would give his discourse in the basement. I decided to walk downstairs since I did not know most of the people there.
In the basement, there was a table with two big pictures of the globally known spiritual masters that had moved on, and a small picture of the teacher. (Re my last post) I bowed and prayed.
A few men were setting up video and audio equipments. There were different columns of chairs. In the main column, four or five rows of beige chairs were placed in the front. Behind those beige chairs were rows of orange-tan chairs. I decided to sit in the center of the first row of orange-tan chairs. There were seven chairs in that row, i.e. three to my right and three to my left.
Gradually, people walked into the basement and sat down. Then the teacher came. I thought I could see him during his discourse since he sat directly facing the main column. I was wrong. The master healer sat in the center of the first row. His friend sat next to him. They were both tall. Besides, people took up all the seats in the front rows. My view of the teacher as well as the pictures of the two masters was blocked.
In the beginning, five people (incl. me) sat in my row. The chair to my left and the chair to my right were unoccupied. Some people sat in the rows behind us. Later, more people came. Some looked at the empty chairs next to me, but they went to sit somewhere else. (To me, that was interesting.) I knew I might have a better view of the pictures or the teacher if I moved to sit on either chair next to me. Somehow, I remained sitting where I was.
After the teacher finished his discourse, Samuel said the teacher asked us to sit on the same chair throughout the 7-day retreat. I could not recall the exact words of what Samuel said. My understanding was we formed a connection with the Divine from where we sat (or the chair retained our energy after we sat on it); appropriate / unique high frequency energies that were beneficial to our spiritual evolvement would continue to flow into us throughout the evenings of the retreat; therefore, it was imperative for us to sit on the same spot.
I left the house soon after the discourse was over. It was dark outside. I had to press the button on my car key in order to find my car. I plugged in the GPS. I struggled a little bit to follow the instructions on the GPS to make some short distance turns to get out of the subdivision. I was relieved when I arrived at the parking lot of our apartment.
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At home, I thought about what the teacher said.
In my unawakened state, I really did not know 'who I truly am'. I might get a hint here and there, e.g. in readings and mystical experiences. I had said affirmations about my divinity from time to time. Still, I could not say I knew 'who I am'. "Since I do not know who I am, how can I accept who I am as the teacher said?" Other than this reaction, part of me felt I had accepted who I was.
My older son was not interested in spiritual matter, but I needed someone to talk to. I briefly told him what happened. I said, "I have followed the guidance to sit among people. I had allowed myself to be an instrument on some occasions even though I knew some might misunderstand / judge me. I thought I have accepted who I am." My son thought for a while. He said,"Mom, you have not accepted who you are." I asked him to explain. He simply repeated his comment, "No, you have not accepted who you are." He went back to what he was doing.
Anytime when we (or I) had a strong reaction to something, there underlay a cause we needed to deal with. (Re Part 4 - Afterthought of the Whole Experience ) That was my case with the teacher's words. "What does it mean when I accept who I am? How do I accept who I am? Who am I? How is it that I have not accepted who I am?" I did not have the answers to these questions. However, there was one thing in my heart that had never changed. I had always wanted to be of service. The teacher said, "When you accept who you are, you will be much more and can help many people." I did want what the teacher said to happen. In the quietness of the night, I prayed to the Divine for help.
Love,
Q of D
Sunday, September 18, 2016
Saturday, September 10, 2016
The Beauty of A Bouquet of Flowers
Greetings!
In my last post The Unveiling of A Divine Plan, I wrote that the prophecy of a divine plan that Matthew related was an answer to one of the questions I had since my Dec. 2001 reading.
Here is the story.
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In the last quarter of 1999, many times I woke up during the night, and was told to look at the clock. It was always 4:44 am. I did not know what to make of it. At the time, I was going through the challenging restaurant years. I had not begun to read spiritual books. I did not know we had spirit guides and angels around us all the time.
One early morning, I woke up hearing a man's voice loud and clear. He said only one sentence. I thought I must have overheard a neighbor talking, but everywhere was very quiet. It was the strangest sentence that I had ever heard, and there was no way it came from my mind / my imagination.
Not long after, I had more unexplainable mystical experiences. For instance, I saw a pocket size green bible in our sons' bedroom. (Our sons lived on campuses, and came home once every few weeks.) I picked up the little bible. The number of a page came to my mind. I saw a name on the page. I asked for another page number. The same name also appeared on that page. Months later, I had a similar experience when I held a book I borrowed from the library. I saw the same name again. These occurrences bothered me a lot. Not knowing what to make of it, I tried to put them behind me.
Meanwhile, I happened to see numbers such as 444, 222, 333, and 1111 from time to time, e.g. time on the clock, total on receipts, invoice numbers, and license plates. I eventually learned from books that they were sacred / angelic numbers, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love. I also learned we all had our own spirit guides and angels.
The "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream" Phenomenon " experience opened up a whole new relationship between the Divine and me. The Grace of God experience touched the core of my being. I was grateful beyond words. I wondered what was my life purpose and how might I serve.
Near the end of 2001, I finally made an appointment for a reading by phone with a well known intuitive / angel channel. (We lived many states apart.) Her voice was sweet, clear, and pure. I was nervous to speak in English, but her voice calmed me. (Re Seeing the Birds ... )
Through her, my spirit guide confirmed the early morning message was not my imagination. He said that to me in order to shake me out of the rut. (At the time, I worried a lot because of the challenging situations in the restaurant.) My angels and guides said there was no time for me to play small, and I should go among people without delay. They said I should teach more, write, and share my wisdom.
When I asked about my connection with the name, the channel saw an image of a woman taking me under her arm as her personal child; however, we were not related by blood. My guides / angels explained we had lived similar lifetimes trying to prove we belonged to circles or families while others said we did not belong. They said we had the same courage and strength. Then the channel paused. She said my guides and angels said I could recall the woman's past life as if my own. They were showing her that it had something to do with the energetic template I brought with me in this lifetime, but she did not understand what it meant. At that moment, the being (i.e. the woman) appeared. The channel related her advice for me. She talked about discernment, and said that I should not care what others said of me.
I asked about my life purpose. They said it was very important for me to sit among people. My guide also said, "Your individual divine plan stands and shines alone, yet it is part of a bigger divine plan. It is like a beautiful bouquet of flowers. The beauty of a bouquet of flowers comes from the beauty of each individual flower, with each flower complementing one another . . . ."
Since I was not comfortable speaking in English, I often listened without asking questions. I had lots of doubts about what I heard, yet I did not say anything.
After the reading, I had more questions than answers. I had not asked my guides and angels to explain why it was important for me to sit among other people. They asked me to teach, write and share my wisdom. My English was not good. How could I teach and write? Besides, what wisdom did I have? What did it mean that the being took me under her arm as if her personal child yet we were not related by blood? How could I recall her past life as if my own since we were two separate beings? The channel said my guides and angels showed her an energetic template (?) that I brought with me into this lifetime, but she did not understand what they were trying to show her. What did all of these mean? For years, I also thought about the bigger divine plan mentioned in the reading. What was it? When would I join the others?
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On the first day of the August workshop, a woman suddenly asked if anyone knew what 444 meant. She said she kept seeing 444. Before I said anything, Matthew excitedly said he often saw 444 in the beginning of his spiritual journey. At that time, he did not know what it meant. Now, he still saw 444 as well as 1111 coincidentally from time to time. He said 444 and 1111 were sacred angelic numbers. I smiled. I did not say anything because it was the master healer's workshop. "444, what a connection!" I thought.
On the second day, the spiritual teacher signaled for Matthew to relate the prophecy and the divine plan. It was a total surprise to me. However, I knew the bigger divine plan was finally revealed. (See P. S. 4)
In love and truth, I share with you my experience.
Peace and blessings,
Q of D
P. S.
1. In the 2001 reading, my angels and guides said I would soon enter a period of influx. They told me what to do / pray for. Instead of feeling excited and following their advice, I did the opposite. I shared that experience in my post Do you really mean what you pray for? with the hope that others might learn from my mistake.
2. After we sold the restaurant, I gradually stepped out of my comfort zone to sit among people. Many times I felt powerful energy flowed into me. I understood I might be a conduit of healing, but I did not know how the energy worked. In June of 2009, I borrowed some books from the library. One of the books was interesting yet difficult to read. It was by a great channel. There were many things that I had never heard of. Some terms were challenging to my mind. Sometimes I had to reread a page. At night I went to bed with that book. Later, I happened to read two pages that answered most of the questions I had mentioned above. It was a night I would never forget. ( About the night of June, 2009, please click to view The Conclusion of the Mystery of a Sister )
3. In 2011, I used the words of my spirit guide on "The beauty of a bouquet of flowers" in my talk at church.
In my last post The Unveiling of A Divine Plan, I wrote that the prophecy of a divine plan that Matthew related was an answer to one of the questions I had since my Dec. 2001 reading.
Here is the story.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
In the last quarter of 1999, many times I woke up during the night, and was told to look at the clock. It was always 4:44 am. I did not know what to make of it. At the time, I was going through the challenging restaurant years. I had not begun to read spiritual books. I did not know we had spirit guides and angels around us all the time.
One early morning, I woke up hearing a man's voice loud and clear. He said only one sentence. I thought I must have overheard a neighbor talking, but everywhere was very quiet. It was the strangest sentence that I had ever heard, and there was no way it came from my mind / my imagination.
Not long after, I had more unexplainable mystical experiences. For instance, I saw a pocket size green bible in our sons' bedroom. (Our sons lived on campuses, and came home once every few weeks.) I picked up the little bible. The number of a page came to my mind. I saw a name on the page. I asked for another page number. The same name also appeared on that page. Months later, I had a similar experience when I held a book I borrowed from the library. I saw the same name again. These occurrences bothered me a lot. Not knowing what to make of it, I tried to put them behind me.
Meanwhile, I happened to see numbers such as 444, 222, 333, and 1111 from time to time, e.g. time on the clock, total on receipts, invoice numbers, and license plates. I eventually learned from books that they were sacred / angelic numbers, and 444 meant the Power of God's Love. I also learned we all had our own spirit guides and angels.
The "Night Vision - Pieces of a Dream" Phenomenon " experience opened up a whole new relationship between the Divine and me. The Grace of God experience touched the core of my being. I was grateful beyond words. I wondered what was my life purpose and how might I serve.
Near the end of 2001, I finally made an appointment for a reading by phone with a well known intuitive / angel channel. (We lived many states apart.) Her voice was sweet, clear, and pure. I was nervous to speak in English, but her voice calmed me. (Re Seeing the Birds ... )
Through her, my spirit guide confirmed the early morning message was not my imagination. He said that to me in order to shake me out of the rut. (At the time, I worried a lot because of the challenging situations in the restaurant.) My angels and guides said there was no time for me to play small, and I should go among people without delay. They said I should teach more, write, and share my wisdom.
When I asked about my connection with the name, the channel saw an image of a woman taking me under her arm as her personal child; however, we were not related by blood. My guides / angels explained we had lived similar lifetimes trying to prove we belonged to circles or families while others said we did not belong. They said we had the same courage and strength. Then the channel paused. She said my guides and angels said I could recall the woman's past life as if my own. They were showing her that it had something to do with the energetic template I brought with me in this lifetime, but she did not understand what it meant. At that moment, the being (i.e. the woman) appeared. The channel related her advice for me. She talked about discernment, and said that I should not care what others said of me.
I asked about my life purpose. They said it was very important for me to sit among people. My guide also said, "Your individual divine plan stands and shines alone, yet it is part of a bigger divine plan. It is like a beautiful bouquet of flowers. The beauty of a bouquet of flowers comes from the beauty of each individual flower, with each flower complementing one another . . . ."
Since I was not comfortable speaking in English, I often listened without asking questions. I had lots of doubts about what I heard, yet I did not say anything.
After the reading, I had more questions than answers. I had not asked my guides and angels to explain why it was important for me to sit among other people. They asked me to teach, write and share my wisdom. My English was not good. How could I teach and write? Besides, what wisdom did I have? What did it mean that the being took me under her arm as if her personal child yet we were not related by blood? How could I recall her past life as if my own since we were two separate beings? The channel said my guides and angels showed her an energetic template (?) that I brought with me into this lifetime, but she did not understand what they were trying to show her. What did all of these mean? For years, I also thought about the bigger divine plan mentioned in the reading. What was it? When would I join the others?
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
On the first day of the August workshop, a woman suddenly asked if anyone knew what 444 meant. She said she kept seeing 444. Before I said anything, Matthew excitedly said he often saw 444 in the beginning of his spiritual journey. At that time, he did not know what it meant. Now, he still saw 444 as well as 1111 coincidentally from time to time. He said 444 and 1111 were sacred angelic numbers. I smiled. I did not say anything because it was the master healer's workshop. "444, what a connection!" I thought.
On the second day, the spiritual teacher signaled for Matthew to relate the prophecy and the divine plan. It was a total surprise to me. However, I knew the bigger divine plan was finally revealed. (See P. S. 4)
In love and truth, I share with you my experience.
Peace and blessings,
Q of D
P. S.
1. In the 2001 reading, my angels and guides said I would soon enter a period of influx. They told me what to do / pray for. Instead of feeling excited and following their advice, I did the opposite. I shared that experience in my post Do you really mean what you pray for? with the hope that others might learn from my mistake.
2. After we sold the restaurant, I gradually stepped out of my comfort zone to sit among people. Many times I felt powerful energy flowed into me. I understood I might be a conduit of healing, but I did not know how the energy worked. In June of 2009, I borrowed some books from the library. One of the books was interesting yet difficult to read. It was by a great channel. There were many things that I had never heard of. Some terms were challenging to my mind. Sometimes I had to reread a page. At night I went to bed with that book. Later, I happened to read two pages that answered most of the questions I had mentioned above. It was a night I would never forget. ( About the night of June, 2009, please click to view The Conclusion of the Mystery of a Sister )
3. In 2011, I used the words of my spirit guide on "The beauty of a bouquet of flowers" in my talk at church.
4. In time, I realized this was not the bigger divine plan that was said in the reading. However, what had happened was in divine order. My participation in the eventual gatherings solved the mystery of a strange dream that I had decades ago. (Re A Strange Dream )
Thursday, September 1, 2016
The Unveiling of A Divine Plan
Greetings!
I wanted to finish my story of the workshop before the end of August, but I could not. This was an experience that included many people. At times, I found it challenging to write about it because I must protect the privacy of others. However, I knew I was supposed to share my experiences. For this, I would continue to write. Meanwhile, I prayed to the Divine for all the help I could get. May love, light (wisdom), and truth shine through.
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Continue from
A Beautiful Rainbow in the Sky and
The Rainbow and the Spiritual Teacher from another country
Matthew placed two executive office chairs in the front for the spiritual teacher and the master healer. After they sat down, some people (particularly those that flew in from other state) walked forward to receive their blessings.
The spiritual teacher was a retired Vice Chancellor of a university, a scholar in English literature, and a profound writer. He was a lifelong disciple of two globally known spiritual masters that had moved on. Many at the gathering (e.g. Matthew, Samuel, Beth, and those that flew in for the gathering) were of the same ethnicity as the spiritual teacher, and were disciples of the teacher and / or the two masters. (I meant people that were older might be disciples of the two masters that had moved on.)
During the workshop, the master healer talked to a few of the young people that flew in. Matthew said a young woman had already published 4 books on consciousness. It was remarkable since she was only about 30 years old. It showed that these young people were gifted and special. I did not know how many came from other state(s). It might be 7 or 8 including the young man that talked to me on the first day of the workshop.
The master healer was an American. He still worked as a professor in his state. He was the founder of a wellness center, and had his own spiritual group. In the June gathering and the workshop, I met quite a few that seemed to have known him / worked with him for a long time, yet they lived locally (i.e. in the state I lived in). That afternoon, some if not all that walked forward to receive his blessings could have met him for the first time. They were the disciples of the spiritual teacher. However, they showed the master healer uttermost respect as they did toward their teacher.
As I watched, I felt there was much more about the workshop than I knew. It seemed some people knew why we were there beforehand, and this was a very special occasion.
Then the spiritual teacher signaled for Matthew to relate the story behind the gathering. In his excitement, Matthew talked very fast. I only got to hear part of what he said. Matthew said we were not there that afternoon by accident. We were there because of a divine plan. It was about a prophecy regarding the coming together of some souls at this time for a new movement; to collect data so as to foster changes in the traditional way of diagnose and treatment of illnesses. According to the prophecy, the master healer had the energy code to put the movement into motion, and the rest of us were the chosen ones to help laying the foundation of this movement. (Matthew talked much more in depth about the prophecy, but I could not recall his exact words.)
Though some knew why we were there, but there were also people like me that knew nothing. A few left soon after the gathering was over. A prophecy that we had not heard of. The difference of cultures could also be a cause of skepticism. Sometimes it was hard for the human self to take in what happened before us. I had attended gatherings feeling I did not belong. We all made decisions at every situation. It was not about right or wrong.
I went to the workshop to show my love and respect for the healers. I wanted to hear about their stories, gifts, and abilities. I had not expected to hear about the prophecy and the divine plan.
How did I look at all that had happened?
Well, I sat there in awe of what had happened. Finally, finally, finally, after 14 or almost 15 years, another big piece of my spiritual jigsaw puzzle had fallen into place.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
After the first day of the workshop, I drove home with peace in my heart. In the evening, I saw a big, beautiful rainbow in the sky.
On my drive home after the second day of the workshop, my heart was filled with awe and gratitude. I finally got an answer to one of the questions that I had since the Dec. 15, 2001 reading. About two miles away from home, lots and lots of white birds appeared out of nowhere. They were all over the sky within a few blocks of the street. It was an incredible sight and divine sign!
In my next post, I shall explain why the movement is a big piece in my spiritual jigsaw puzzle.
I wanted to finish my story of the workshop before the end of August, but I could not. This was an experience that included many people. At times, I found it challenging to write about it because I must protect the privacy of others. However, I knew I was supposed to share my experiences. For this, I would continue to write. Meanwhile, I prayed to the Divine for all the help I could get. May love, light (wisdom), and truth shine through.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Continue from
A Beautiful Rainbow in the Sky and
The Rainbow and the Spiritual Teacher from another country
Matthew placed two executive office chairs in the front for the spiritual teacher and the master healer. After they sat down, some people (particularly those that flew in from other state) walked forward to receive their blessings.
The spiritual teacher was a retired Vice Chancellor of a university, a scholar in English literature, and a profound writer. He was a lifelong disciple of two globally known spiritual masters that had moved on. Many at the gathering (e.g. Matthew, Samuel, Beth, and those that flew in for the gathering) were of the same ethnicity as the spiritual teacher, and were disciples of the teacher and / or the two masters. (I meant people that were older might be disciples of the two masters that had moved on.)
During the workshop, the master healer talked to a few of the young people that flew in. Matthew said a young woman had already published 4 books on consciousness. It was remarkable since she was only about 30 years old. It showed that these young people were gifted and special. I did not know how many came from other state(s). It might be 7 or 8 including the young man that talked to me on the first day of the workshop.
The master healer was an American. He still worked as a professor in his state. He was the founder of a wellness center, and had his own spiritual group. In the June gathering and the workshop, I met quite a few that seemed to have known him / worked with him for a long time, yet they lived locally (i.e. in the state I lived in). That afternoon, some if not all that walked forward to receive his blessings could have met him for the first time. They were the disciples of the spiritual teacher. However, they showed the master healer uttermost respect as they did toward their teacher.
As I watched, I felt there was much more about the workshop than I knew. It seemed some people knew why we were there beforehand, and this was a very special occasion.
Then the spiritual teacher signaled for Matthew to relate the story behind the gathering. In his excitement, Matthew talked very fast. I only got to hear part of what he said. Matthew said we were not there that afternoon by accident. We were there because of a divine plan. It was about a prophecy regarding the coming together of some souls at this time for a new movement; to collect data so as to foster changes in the traditional way of diagnose and treatment of illnesses. According to the prophecy, the master healer had the energy code to put the movement into motion, and the rest of us were the chosen ones to help laying the foundation of this movement. (Matthew talked much more in depth about the prophecy, but I could not recall his exact words.)
Though some knew why we were there, but there were also people like me that knew nothing. A few left soon after the gathering was over. A prophecy that we had not heard of. The difference of cultures could also be a cause of skepticism. Sometimes it was hard for the human self to take in what happened before us. I had attended gatherings feeling I did not belong. We all made decisions at every situation. It was not about right or wrong.
I went to the workshop to show my love and respect for the healers. I wanted to hear about their stories, gifts, and abilities. I had not expected to hear about the prophecy and the divine plan.
How did I look at all that had happened?
Well, I sat there in awe of what had happened. Finally, finally, finally, after 14 or almost 15 years, another big piece of my spiritual jigsaw puzzle had fallen into place.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
After the first day of the workshop, I drove home with peace in my heart. In the evening, I saw a big, beautiful rainbow in the sky.
On my drive home after the second day of the workshop, my heart was filled with awe and gratitude. I finally got an answer to one of the questions that I had since the Dec. 15, 2001 reading. About two miles away from home, lots and lots of white birds appeared out of nowhere. They were all over the sky within a few blocks of the street. It was an incredible sight and divine sign!
In my next post, I shall explain why the movement is a big piece in my spiritual jigsaw puzzle.
(Next post The Beauty of A Bouquet of Flowers . Please read the postscripts below that post particularly P.S. # 4)
Love and Blessings,
Q of D
Love and Blessings,
Q of D
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