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Saturday, October 12, 2024
She said, "It is a shame that you have retired."
Friday, October 4, 2024
HOPE is forever the guiding LIGHT
Greetings!
Welcome, October 2024!
Fall is my favorite season. Recently we have many cloudy days. Luckily, I no longer feel down when the sky is gray or dark. (Re Writing Is Healing and On a cloudy, gloomy morning, I go looking for the Sun )
Monday, September 16, 2024
I Meet Kind People All The Time
Some people here in USA found it offensive when people spoke in languages other than English in public. When we held that opinion against others, we might not have realized we were the ones to taste the negative / unpleasant emotion first before we projected it outward.We had to understand children might easily learn a new language, but it was not as easy for their parents / grandparents / great grandparents. For a few years, the family (a couple with 2 sons) that lived next door was from a Middle Eastern country. The man could not speak English. He was kind and considerate. He often came out of his apartment to hold the entrance door open when he saw us unloading groceries from our car. His wife spoke some English. Later, she found a job working in a hotel. After a couple of years, their sons spoke English fluently. They had moved to another place some years ago.
In time, a cashier and I greeted each other with "How are you doing my friend?" I did not recall when or how it started. I did not do anything different from other customers except I had always greeted others truthfully. (Re my post Truthfulness ) One day, I lined up at her lane again. As she said, "Nice to see you, my friend!" I heard a cashier from another lane protested, "No, she (i.e. me) is my friend!" I turned my head backward, and saw the other cashier's smiling face. The other cashier was also very nice. She had told me that she felt happy whenever she saw the sun. So there they were saying "she is my friend" and "no, she is my friend". I said, "We are all friends!" My friend said, "Yes, we are all friends! How good are you that we fight to call you 'my friend'!" We looked at each other and smiled happily.
In a joyful mood, I left the store, and drove to another store. I parked the car, and walked toward the store. As I was near the entrance, a black gentleman happened to walk out of the store. He exclaimed, "Oh, I love your smile! Wow! Please keep smiling! Don't stop smiling! What a blessing! Many, many blessings to you!" While he was walking away, he looked back at me and asked me to keep smiling and don't stop. I looked at him and said, "Many blessings to you too."
This experience reminded me of Who Smiles? Who Sees?
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I was second in line in a checkout lane. The cashier seemed to be agitated. Soon a store supervisor came. He was a young man is his early 20 s. While we looked on, the cashier sternly scolded him for a while. It seemed the cashier might have been scheduled to take a break at a certain time, but the supervisor was ten minutes late. (I supposed the cashier might be hungry.) The young man did not react, and just let her blew off steam. Afterward, the cashier gave him the key for the register, and left. It was an awkward moment. Every one at the checkout lane included the bagger was quiet, and the air around us was somewhat heavy.
I had come to this store regularly. Over the speaker, I heard the management called his name from time to time. For example, there was nobody at the Customer Service, he was told to go over there to help. He helped other cashiers patiently too. He seemed to be the one that was available and willing to help here and there.
When it was time for me to pay for the groceries, I looked at him and said, "XXXXXX, the world appreciates someone like you who is always willing to help here and there." It took a short while for him to take it in. Then he said, "Thank you." The air around us changed. There was a smile on everyone's face in the checkout lane. The bagger looked at me with a big smile and said, "Thank you."
"See something beautiful, Say something beautiful" was what I said during a zoom meeting. We could see all the wrong in the world, in others or in ourselves. But, we had to remember the importance of affirming the good / the beautiful that we saw in ourselves, in others and in the world.
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Some of my friends that were into spirituality were surprised to hear that I watched football and basketball games in addition to watching news daily. I watched some TV shows and dramas too.
One day, I was in a store.
It was common courtesy to put a checkout divider / stick at the end of our groceries on the conveyer belt. Sometimes the one in the front looked back at the one next in line with a smile / nod as an acknowledgement while placing the divider. The one behind would say "thank you", i.e. thanks for putting the divider there so that he / she could begin loading the groceries onto the conveyer belt. This was not something that we must do. In my experience, I observed women were more likely to greet the one that stood behind than men did.
As I put the divider behind my groceries, I observed the man behind me was tall and might be in his 30 s. He looked straight ahead. I kind of smiled in my heart because my son had told me he often looked straight ahead instead of observing as I did.
I bought quite some groceries that day. As I was about to put the groceries into the trunk of my car, someone walked past me. It was the tall young man. He had bought only a few items. He walked to a big van which was next to my car. I saw that he wore our state football team T-shirt.
I smiled and said, "Too bad the XXXXX lost (in the playoff)."
He said, "It does not matter because they did good."
I said, "Yes, it is true. It has been a good year for our state. The university also won the national championship."
He quickly put what he bought into his van, and came over to my side. He asked, "May I help you to load the water into your car?"
I gladly said, "Yes! Thank you!"
He loaded the pack of 24 bottles of water into the trunk.
I continued to load the rest of the items. I was somewhat surprised he continued to stand near where I was. He stood there respectfully. I did not feel the need to ask why.
After I finished putting everything in the trunk, he said, "May I push your shopping cart over there so as to save you a trip?"
Indeed, the cart corral was not near where I parked my car. I looked at this young man with a broad smile, and thanked him wholeheartedly. Then he joyfully pushed the shopping cart toward the cart corral.
In this brief interaction, two strangers through a simple conversation on sports, one kindly offered help and one gladly received help. How great was (is) the Loving Divine!
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I learned some new words while writing this post, e.g. cart corral. For years I thought my limited English was my shortcoming and a Chinese woman in a western culture was a disadvantage. It turned out it was by design that I came in this way. (Re Our Self-perceived Shortcoming and Disadvantages )
It might seem I spent too much time on the mundane stuff. I came to live an ordinary life as an ordinary person. If I knew nothing about sports, the above conversation would not have taken place. I am alright I am.
Saturday, August 31, 2024
Expectations, Total Disappointment, and The Three Tests
Greetings!
While looking through the plastic totes for the transcript (Re As we give, we also receive ), I saw an old notebook turned to a page that I had marked 5 stars on the top indicating either a profound experience or a very interesting dream.
The 5 stars profound experience took place in the early hours of April 13, 2005.
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Early 2005, I learned from a spiritual magazine that a known spiritual teacher and a famous medium would be coming to our state to host an event in April. I had read their books, and found their stories fascinating. I had never gone to any public spiritual event like that before. I thought how exciting it would be if I could go, but the ticket price was too expensive. It might be I had never spent much money on myself or for my own needs / wants. Besides, it was not near where I lived, and I did not know how to drive there by myself. Above all, I could not register online because I did not have a credit / debit card (at the time).
Weeks later in a conversation with my younger son, I mentioned the event. He asked if I wanted to go. I said it was too expensive. He said he would go with me. He said I should not be concerned about money - it was only a one time expense because we did not go to this kind of events all the time. (His words are always assuring and wise! 😊😊) I said I would think about it. I did not give him a firm answer because I knew he was not interested in the event as I did. Was it worth going since we would be paying for two tickets instead of one? In the days / weeks that followed, I prayed for an answer if we should or should not go.
Before I went to sleep on March 1, 2005, I thought it would be nice if I could go to the event. With that thought in mind, I had a hard time of falling asleep.
With everything all set, I began to envision what I wished to happen during the event. I hoped to get a reading by the medium. Would my dear mother come through? I thought about the relatives that were now on the other side such as my grandfathers (paternal and maternal). I was excited the spiritual teacher came to our state. I had not met him before. I hoped to have a chance to talk to him. (There was a personal reason I wanted to talk to him.)
On the day of the April event, I was awakened during my sleep to see 4:44 a.m. (444 means the Power of God's Love) I took it as a confirmation that something special was going to happen!
With high expectations, I went to the event. I sat inside the car with gratitude - grateful to the Divine as well as to my sons who accompanied me. I expected the ride and in fact everything would go smoothly. After all, my younger son did it on his own to register online on March 10. Going to the event with my sons must be in divine order, I thought. And, seeing 4:44 a.m. on the day of the event was a confirmation!
My younger son had looked up the directions online. (At the time, we did not have a GPS device.) We left our apartment early because we did not want to be late. However, there was a lot of traffic. I recalled we might have missed a turn. To put a long story short, we walked into the auditorium just minutes before the speaker came on the stage; the place was packed with thousands of people (that was my guess), and the only seats that were available were at the end of the auditorium (i.e. by the back wall of the auditorium)! It was a huge auditorium. From where I sat, I could barely see the stage. The spiritual teacher talked for quite some time. Then he said he was going to guide us into an exercise. I began to cough hard. I went to the restroom until I stopped coughing. When I came back, the lecture / the first half of the event was over. Of course, later I was not among the few that received readings from the medium. What the teacher and the medium taught were nothing new to me because I had read their books. On the way home, I was quiet. I was deeply disappointed at how things had unfolded. I believed sons suggested for us to eat at a restaurant, and I said 'no'. It was my fault that we spent hundred of dollars for nothing, I thought.
Earlier that month, I had experienced some disappointment in another matter. After the event, I was in a state of total disappointment. Everything that led up to the event seemed to be divinely planned! I did not sleep well at night. The next day I slept until almost noon. Later in the afternoon my husband and I went shopping for grocery. In the car, words seemed to come to me, but I refused to listen. I turned on the CD player, and sang the song. I looked at the scenery outside. Suddenly, my head turned to look at the time inside the car. It was 4:44 p.m.! I practically stopped singing right there. I took a deep breath. 444 the Power of God's Love . . . . but I did not know what to think of all of these.
At night I spent my time watching TV. At one point, I thought other people needed to hear the messages from the medium more than me. It was true. Though I sat far from the stage, I could hear the pain in the voices of the few that were chosen by the medium. The messages delivered by the medium brought them comfort and healing. I recalled feeling happy for those that received messages. With this thought, I calmed down somewhat. However, I still felt frustrated and disappointed. The whole thing was like a set up. I was emotionally hyped because all that happened before the event, and I fell down hard afterward.
When I went to bed, I still did not want to pray or talk to my guides and angels. I rarely had dreams of anger. In the morning of April 12, I actually woke up from a dream in which I yelled at other people. The energy above and around my head vibrated throughout the day. At times the vibration was intense. I got it there was a lesson for me to learn. Below was what I wrote down on my journal before I went to sleep.
Angels and guides, any words from you.
Was I wrong to have expectations?
Oh, never mind. I am going to sleep. As I said, if nothing happened, I would drop the whole thing ***. I am not going to waste my energy on it.
I have enough of this.
Good Night.
(*** i.e. stopped searching for the truth regarding the message I received in the last quarter of 1999 and the questions I had after the 2001 reading by the known angel channel)
It takes me a long time to learn how true it is that my guide said 'you can be happy no matter what' and You feel pain because you let pain be . Emotions are part of a physical life, and it is important for us to take responsibility of our own emotional wellbeing.
I sighed. I pulled the blanket over my head. Immediately, I felt something was happening. I asked, "What is happening to me?" I seemed to be dissolving or being absorbed by other force. I felt my body or boundary no longer existed. In this shock, I found I was not in fear! In a calm and firm manner, I telepathically said, "I believe in the all loving God." I saw an eye. Then the force that tried to absorb me vanished.
Before I could recover from the first incident, I was in another state. I found my whole being was expanding and expanding. Again, I asked, "What is happening to me?" I thought I might be leaving my body for an astral journey or that was how one felt when one was about to go on an astral travel. I felt my being was about to explode. I also felt the presence of a force, and understood that force was the cause of what was taking place. Again, I had no fear. I firmly stated "I believe in the loving God." I kept repeating what I believed in. The force that caused me to almost explode vanished. I was back to myself.
I pulled the blanket aside. Widely awoke, I knew I was not dreaming. I went over my experience. I could still recall the 'terrible' state I was in when I felt my body was dissolving. I marveled at how firm and sure that I calmly stated "I believe in the all loving God." When I soon found myself expanding and about to explode, my first response was shock. Right then, I said what I believed in. I was calm and peaceful.
So there I was, laying on bed widely awoke with my eyes closed, recalled what had just happened. Then I had the third experience of the night.
In my mind eye, my husband wearing all white climbed onto the bed. He wanted to . . ., and I refused to submit to him. He madly yelled at me saying something like "you are my wife! How dare you . . ." The man in white looked very fierce as if he was really going to get me. Again, I was calm and peaceful. I firmly stated "I believe in God, the all loving God. The god you believe in is not the loving force. That is why I will not let you." As soon as I said that, he vanished. I understood the man was the evil force disguised as my husband.
Still with my eyes closed, I got the understanding that I had passed 3 tests. I was proud that the faith of the real / true me was (is) as should be - sure, firm, and never wavered. I also got it with my eyes closed that the time on the clock was 4:42 a.m. turning to 4:43 a.m. I opened my eyes, and rushed to see the time. It was 4:43 a.m. My heart was filled with awe. I said, "God, angels, and guides, you used to wake me up at 4:44 a.m. Tonight I am going to watch the time turns to 4:44 a.m. I am open to receive the Power of God's Love." After seeing 4:44 a.m., I lay down and fell asleep.
Something interesting happened later that night too.
My younger son and I were talking by the dining table in the kitchen. My husband was in the family room. There was a wall that separated the kitchen area and the family room. My husband asked, "Why do you leave the TV on Ch. 4? Shouldn't you be watching American Idol on Ch. 2?" Earlier, I had watched part of American Idol; when commercial came on, I turned to watch Alias on Ch. 7. In other words, I had been watching both Ch. 2 and Ch. 7. (Yes, I live a pretty ordinary / normal life.) When I went to the kitchen, I must have accidentally left the TV on Ch. 4. I told my husband to simply turn to Ch. 2 if he wanted to watch American Idol. Soon he asked why I left the TV on Ch. 4 again. I told him to turn to Ch. 2 if he wanted to watch American Idol. Not long after, he asked me the same question again. So I walked over to the family room with the intention to turn the TV to Ch. 2. I did not change the channel. On the TV was a talk about Dan Brown's book. It was said Jesus and Mary of Magdalene had a daughter. I realized it did not happen by accident that Ch. 4 was on. That night I lay in bed wondering if I would ever get some answers to my questions. I knew my search for truth or answers would continue. (Please view my post If we love Jesus, how can we slight the one he loves the most and you will understand why I realized the Ch. 4 incident did not happen by accident. )
All of these happened on April 13, 2005. The number 13 was (is) a significant number on my spiritual journey. For instance, on June 13, 2009 I got the answers that I had been looking for from a book which was confirmed in a channeled reading a few years later. (Re Sometimes I never know how a day is going to be ) On June 13, 2016 I signed up for Meetup, and had since joined many interesting zoom meetings. There were many people with special gifts and abilities. It was amazing to listen to their stories.
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2005 was one of the important years on my spiritual journey. On Sundays from late Feb. to March, 2005, I stepped outside of my family to sit among hundreds of peoples for the very first time. On March 20, 2005, I delivered a copy of the words of Christ to the pastor and left. (Re Words of Christ and the 4444 Incident - Part 2 ) On May 26, 2005 I joined the Thursday Circle. In 2005 my husband continued to spend lots of hours in practicing the moves, and did not look well. I was quite worried about him. It was by divine grace that I received love and support from my friends at the circle.
Saturday, August 17, 2024
In a loud, menacing voice, he said, "Do you want to have . . ?"
A man in his 60 s lined up behind the Asian woman. The man used an electric shopping cart / motorized shopping cart. He stayed about 6 feet behind the Asian woman leaving enough space for other people to walk through. Suddenly, another man who also used an electric shopping cart rushed through the space to the other side of the store. It caused a little disturbance because this man was driving the electric shopping cart at a speed that was not supposed to. It kind of startled the Asian woman as well as the man behind her. The man that rushed past stopped near the self-checkout area which was about 80 feet away. The man behind the Asian woman turned his electric shopping cart and headed toward that man. As he came close to the other man, he said in a loud, menacing voice, "Do you want to have a race with me?" Obviously, the other man did not expect this at all. (In that very moment, he probably realized he should not have rushed past others in a store as he did.) Before he could react, the man that caught up with him burst out laughing, and gave him a pat on the back. Realizing the man meant no harm and was joking with him, he burst out laughing too. Afterward, they talked to each other like friends.
After listening to the story, the woman smiled. She said, "We all need a little humor here and there in life." The Asian woman smiled and nodded in agreement.
Thursday, August 8, 2024
Honoring Lord Buddha And Earth Treasure Bodhisattva
Thursday, August 1, 2024
Divine Grace and Mercy
"In the future, men or women may long be bedridden and in spite of their wishes be unable either to get well or die. At night, they may dream of evil ghosts, or family and relatives, or of wandering on dangerous paths. In numerous nightmares, they may roam with ghosts and spirits. As days, months, and years go by, such people may weaken and waste away, cry out in pain in their sleep, and become progressively depressed and melancholy. These things happen when the force of karma has not yet been determined, which makes it difficult for them to die and impossible for them to be cured."
My husband used to walk much faster than I was. He was now weak and lack of energy. However, he continued to go out for 1 1/2 to 2 hours. We suggested for him to stay home and rest. He would not listen. He was exhausted when he returned home. He lay on the bed, but could not sleep. At night, if he ever fell asleep, he soon woke up from nightmares.
I knew he held lots of discontent and disappointment within which were not only of others, but of himself too. He was pretty fixated on his own views and his expectations of what others should do. He did not realize his self-righteousness was the cause of irritations in his life. (Re WHAT DO YOU HEAR? )
When sons were in their teens, my husband told me he longed to open a restaurant and buy a big house. He said, "When sons grow up and get married, our sons, their wives, our grandchildren and us can live together as one big family." I told him the world had changed long time ago; nowadays young people wanted to have their own space. He said if he had lots of money, sons (and their families) would live with us. (Some of us never regarded money as the most importance thing in life, but it was a waste of time to argue with those that thought it was. As for a big household, I had seen conflicts when different families lived together.) In later years, he was displeased because he held onto the old view that the younger generation should provide for their aging parents whom had raised them.
Life is not all rosy, and it is meant to be. Most of us felt discontent or disappointed to some degrees now and then, and I was of no exception. Some of us eventually learned to let go, to look at it from a different perspective, or to handle the situation differently instead of letting it bother us. It was true that To forgive is first and most of all for the good of ourselves .
As mentioned in my other posts, my mystical journey began in the last quarter of 1999. By then I knew nothing about angels and guides. In Dec. 2001 I finally had a phone reading by a known angel channel that lived in another state. (Re Seeing the birds, I had no doubt that God had shown me the sign ) During the reading, my guides and angels confirmed selling the restaurant was the right choice; they wanted me to go among people without delay; my husband was indeed a good cook, and should not feel he had failed; many restaurants would seek his help afterward. I was surprised they said the restaurant venture was not destined to fail; it could have been very successful, but we had chosen the wrong location. What they said was true. We had looked at many different locations. I liked three other locations, but my husband disagreed with me. I saw many red flags in the location that he liked, but he said I knew nothing about restaurant business. We ended up having lots of problems before and after we opened the restaurant which in some ways was like an unimaginable nightmare. (I can laugh about it now. Please know that no matter how dark the situation may seem to be, it will all come to pass.) In the restaurant years, a few of my husband's friends came to visit sometimes. They happened to talk about restaurants that had opened in the locations that I liked. All the restaurants had very good business. (My husband's friends did not know the story. They just happened to talk about it. My husband's face darkened as he listened.) Life is like a tree that has many branches, every branch is a different journey / experience, and some branches bear more fruit than the others. We may view our experience as good or bad; however, every experience may have served us in a way that our human mind may not be able to recognize its value. (An excerpt from Edgar Cayce reading 254 - Through irritation, the soul often grows - just like the pearl. As long as that manifested by the individual stays pure, little harm may come."
Saturday, June 29, 2024
Lord Buddha's talk on Earth Treasure Bodhisattva
In Nov. 2013, I had a phone reading by a known psychic / angel channel that lived in another state. The psychic had instructed all her clients not to tell her anything until she finished relating the messages or information she received. She saw that I had moved. From my angels and guides, she 'got' that 'due to the circumstances, the divine plan had to be adjusted.' (Re Fall only into the Divine Emotion of Love, the Creative Force )
I was not disciplined in spiritual practices. I saw it as my shortcoming, or, it might not be. In readings, I was told I had lived many disciplined lifetimes. In my Mar. 2006 reading, the psychic said I came to live an ordinary life as an ordinary person, and I wanted to live as an ordinary person in every way; however, I must also accept the truth that I AM. What she said resonated with me. Over the years, living an ordinary life as an ordinary person really helped me to relate and connect with others. Meanwhile, it was also true that more could be manifested through me when I accepted my truth; in doing so, I was (am) serving others as well as myself since we were (are) one. When we stood in our truth, we were serving one another for the highest good of all. (Re The Lesson of Importance and Our Self-perceived Shortcomings and Disadvantages )
Divine grace is ever present for everyone. However, sometimes we see them as nothing special or mere coincidences. We fail to recognize the grace and blessings in our life. Recognizing the grace, beauty, mercy, and wonders in life is the greatest gift to ourselves. When we do, we live in the constant flow of love, appreciation, and gratitude. Love modifies our views of life's situations, and gratitude is the best medicine for healing. With appreciation, gratitude and love, we live in ease and grace; we see beauty and magic wherever we are despite of what happens around us.
A few months into 2020, the state issued the stay home order because many people had been hospitalized with covid-19. The restaurant they used to gather closed its doors for dine-in and only kept the drive-through open. It remained that way until the latter part of 2021.
My husband used to walk for about an hour before walking to the restaurant to join his friends, and came home around 1 to 2 p.m. He now had plenty of time on his hand. He spent his day reading the same book** that he had read numerous times. (** The official book of the practice, re It was his life, and it was up to him how to live his life - Part 2 ) Later, he went out for walks longer than usual. When he came home, he slept again. He woke up when lunch was ready. It was the same old pattern while he practiced those moves. There was a time I asked him to cook lunch so that he had something to do. It did not last long. He said he had cooked for others all his life, and did not want to cook anymore.
There were books with stories that everybody went to heaven where we would meet up with our loved ones even neighbors and lived happily ever after. Was that the heaven we looked forward to? Many of us had lived hundreds or thousands of lifetimes. We must have been a member of many different families. Likewise, we could have a number of partners / soul mates during those lifetimes. Was living with our earthly family happily ever after the purpose of living a physical life? How many heavens we lived in or would live in? These came to my mind as I was writing, and I thought of my post A Play on the Stage of Life .
Did all people go to heaven(s) or the higher sub planes of the astral plane after they died? Some professional mediums and people that could see (clairvoyant) had seen earthbound entities. There were people that died and did not know they had died. In a book, I read about a man who died in a shipwreck over 200 years ago still hanging onto part of the ship waiting to be rescued. In my post The Dream of Three Japanese Soldiers, the soldiers did not know they had died and the war had long been over; in Why did he thank me?, the boy that fell off the cliff also did not know that he had died. There were many reasons that ghosts / spirits of the deceased remained earthbound, e.g. some felt they had unfinished business (were being murdered, still very much attracted to a loved one / loved ones), some feared what their afterlife would be, those with strong addictions might want to stay to get a feel of drugs or alcohols from others, and some might simply want to stay around.
My husband seemed to have nightmares quite often. Sometimes he moved his hands as if fighting off something. Sometimes he made sounds as if he saw something terrifying. In later days, he said he felt very miserable because he could not sleep. Still, he was adamant that he would not go to see a doctor.
One day in July 2021, I was looking for one of my notebooks in the plastic boxes. Mostly, I used those 70 page notebooks to record some of the things that happened in my life. Some days I did not write anything at all. I had over a hundred notebooks in two large plastic boxes. I had not expected to write a blog. Therefore, my notebooks were not organized. Sometimes I had a hard time finding the notebook with the experience that I wanted to share.
Anyway, I saw a notebook with Chinese words on the first page. As I had mentioned, whenever I read something inspiring, I picked up any notebook and wrote it down on the last few pages. Therefore, I was curious what I had written down on the first page of a notebook. It was Lord Buddha's talk on Earth Treasure Bodhisattva (also known as Earth Store Bodhisattva or Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva). (Please note that what I had copied down was not Earth Treasure Bodhisattva sutra or his vows.) If I recalled correctly, I watched a video on YouTube. The video was with Chinese words and no picture. As I watched, my heart was deeply touched. I decided to write down the talk. I paused the video from time to time in order to copy down the words. It was not long. It took up only 3 and 1/2 pages, and about 5 to 6 minutes for me to recite the talk. (I did not recall when I watched that video. I could not find it on YouTube now.)
I had forgotten what I had copied down. I realized how timely it was for me to re-read Buddha's talk on Earth Treasure Bodhisattva. It was another experience of grace. In his talk, Buddha talked about Earth Treasure Bodhisattva's great compassion who vowed to save all lost souls that had fallen into hell. With my limited English, I could not translate the portion of Buddha's talk that accurately described my husband's condition. I went to YouTube. I found the English translation of that portion from Buddha Sutra Readings under the title of Earth Store Bodhisattva Mantra and what can the Bodhisattva do for you.
"In the future, men or women may long be bedridden and in spite of their wishes be unable either to get well or die. At night, they may dream of evil ghosts, or family and relatives, or of wandering on dangerous paths. In numerous nightmares, they may roam with ghosts and spirits. As days, months, and years go by, such people may weaken and waste away, cry out in pain in their sleep, and become progressively depressed and melancholy. These things happen when the force of karma has not yet been determined, which makes it difficult for them to die and impossible for them to be cured."
This video was an hour long, and had 16 chapters. It was much, much longer than the video I watched years ago. At first, I wanted to print out the above from YouTube, but did not know how to do it. So I had to write it down on my notebook. When I was done, I happened to glance over at the time on the computer. I was surprised and overjoyed to see 1:53 p.m. 153, one of the numbers that turned out to be of great significance in my life. (Re The Number I set for 3 old luggage bags )
There were instructions in the talk as what to do for someone that was in that kind of state. I did not know any temple near me. People were still pretty much living in the shadow of the stay home order. I knew my husband. He put up a wall when we talked to him. Therefore, I could not talk to him as what to do. Since healing energy came through me sometimes, I had prayed for energy to flow through me to him if it was in divine order. Healing energy did flow through me to him when he was hospitalized for the first time, but it had not happened since then***. ( *** Powerful energy flowed into me one more time. I shall write about it in my next post.) I greatly admired Earth Treasure Bodhisattva's love and compassion to save all lost souls. I decided to recite the Chinese version of Buddha's talk that I had copied down three times every morning. I set the intention to recite the talk for all sentient beings and Mother Earth. (I did not specifically mentioned my husband's name since all sentient beings meant for all.) When my son and my husband were not home, I recited the talk three times. If one of them was home, I quietly read the talk with my heart.
During those weeks and months, I found myself in an expansive field of energy whenever I recited Lord Buddha's talk on Earth Treasure Bodhisattva. I did not see any change of behavior in my husband. I held onto the faith that what I did mattered.
(Next posts Divine Grace and Mercy and Honoring Lord Buddha and Earth Treasure Bodhisattva)